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My depression has been on an even keel. I’m so scared it’s going to go down hill. Does anyone have tips for keeping good/better MH while moving house and new job. Currently I volunteer in my home town. I applied for a paid job at place I volunteer but not through after interview. I’ve found a new paid job, but it means moving house and area. I’ve done this twice before both timed ending with bad depression. I’m so disappointed- I thought applying here would mean the only change would be the job, but it was not to be. Help
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Guilty that I have a relative who has cancer. They have children, a good job and lots to live for. I feel like a failure- no job or independence, depression and suicidal ideation (though passive) and a host of other medical issues. I wish I had the cancer. I feel alone with the thoughts as obviously not appropriate to discuss with others irl - turning this into something about me not the relative and their close family.
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Feeling useless then guilty - is this normal?
Marie241 replied to Marie241's topic in DEPRESSION CENTRAL
I hate that every time my mind isn't occupied it reverts to bad thoughts. I can't keep it going constantly. -
Feeling useless then guilty - is this normal?
Marie241 replied to Marie241's topic in DEPRESSION CENTRAL
Thank you This is just the beginning so only first lot of chemo. It is an aggressive cancer but probably found quite early. It feels ridiculous to think that I am suffering in any way. I did read something on survivor guilt in the past like after a disaster. I'll look it up about illness. I had some surgery and physically it was successful but I got depression. When I've heard of disasters chickening people or people dying after unsuccessful surgery and the statements about what a wonderful person they were with so much to live for I have sometimes wished I died instead. That was when my depression was pretty bad though, so I was also saying why couldn't I have died in surgery rather than having to deal with being suicidal. -
What Color Would You Say Matches Your Mood Today?
Marie241 replied to Epictetus's topic in The DF Water Cooler
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Feels very cold (for here), supposed to snow tonight
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Sorry this is long Someone close has been diagnosed with cancer. This has stirred up my depression/autism with intrusive thoughts about death and how useless I am. There are other people who will provide practical and emotional support to the person. I have no useful role at all. My first thought was that God/the universe should have made me get it. I'm used to illness. He has a job, I volunteer. We both have parents but he also had brothers and sisters. Most importantly he has children. I'm very upset but can't talk to people around me because the relative needs the support and I definitely won't be a distraction. I'm not suicidal, but wish I was dead. Then I feel guilty for making it all about me. I'm not sure how to deal with my feelings or if they are normal.
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I've been away for a long time. I am better. I drifted away. That was partly not wanting to discuss depression. I also felt it was difficult to empathise with others. It wasn't that I didn't want to talk about depression, more that I didn't quite know how now I'm not as affected. I sometimes feel guilty about not coming here as often, not tonight I've come after an experience on s different website.
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Therapy Strategies, things to try??
Marie241 replied to Knursingstudent's topic in DEPRESSION CENTRAL
There are so many approaches to therapy and the best one for you will depend on how your mind works, whether there is a particular reason for your depression, how many sessions are being offered/you can afford. My suggestion is to talk to the therapist about what you want to achieve and see what approach they suggest and ask why they suggest that one. For example CBT can be very helpful if you have skewed thought patterns. However if you need to discuss a trauma from the past and tease out what happened you'd probably need something else. -
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I feel my mental health robbed me of living a life
Marie241 replied to GAJ123's topic in DEPRESSION CENTRAL
I have some similar feelings that depression and various other illnesses have affected my relationships and career. I try to remember that "success" can also be muddling through. -
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The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread (3)
Marie241 replied to Lindsay's topic in The DF Water Cooler
Tired but something is keeping me awake, not sure what. Also in pain and bruised because I fell over. Ouuucchh! -
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Emoticon Nation, What Smiley Fits Your Mood Today? (14)
Marie241 replied to Forum Admin's topic in The DF Water Cooler
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What's On Your Mind Right Now?
Marie241 replied to Tungsten Aromatics's topic in The DF Water Cooler
That I should really be trying to go to sleep rather than on websites. (2:25 AM)