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  1. There was a 8 year time span when I drank a lot. Had good memories and bad ones as well. Alcohol always broke me out of my shell and made me feel more alive. Of course the health effects weren't worth it anymore so essentially I quit. Occasionally I miss those times. I don't want to fall back into that trap so I try to steer clear of bars and clubs. I'm a much healthier person these days because of it.
  2. I take Fish oil, Magnesium and Vitamin D3 on a daily basis. I could tell a big difference when boosting my Vit D levels. Magnesium has a calming effect on me. Helps when I have anxiety.
  3. I tried a ketogenic diet for two months. Felt fantastic after the initial adaptation phase. Never felt hungry and my blood sugar always remained rock steady. No sugar crashes ever! Sad to say I called it quits after two months because I lost more weight than I wanted to. Wasn't very overweight to begin with so ended up looking sickly skinny. I couldn't eat enough calories in a day because I simply didn't feel hungry enough. Great health benefits but hated losing so much weight for a guy. It did def keep my mood stable! Now I still eat low carb but not keto low.
  4. Ended up going to the gym twice on Saturday. That's how exciting my Saturday was, lol.
  5. Another squat day at the gym. Much harder than usual despite the same amount of weight as last time. I think today was one of those "off" days. My diet hasn't been up to par lately so that's probably why I struggled so much.
  6. I feel like you often. Especially when I'm scheduled to start a work weekend. I work every other. Sometimes I get bummed going in on a Friday when everybody else is just starting their weekend. I see everyone posting their plans while I'm busy packing a lunch for the nightshift. Psychologically it takes a toll on me. Especially this weekend when all my friends are heading north for the 4th of July. Seems the older I get the less it bothers me. Perhaps age has taught me to deal with it better. Dunno.
  7. Still hitting the gym hard 3 days/week. I haven't felt this good since my 20's. Unfortunately I can't get my wife to go with me ever. I guess this will have to be a solo endeavor. Just wish I had someone to share my excitement with :(
  8. Have you been checked for any deficiencies? Low vitamin D, hypothyroidism, hormones? One or all of these can cause fatigue. Any sleep apnea issues? Withdrawal from Zoloft can cause fatigue and other symptoms also as your brain and central nervous system are trying to sort itself out. In my opinion doctors should always look for an underlying cause before they prescribe antidepressants. Most do not.
  9. I quit drinking and smoking 3 years ago. It definitely has had a profound impact on my wellbeing. I now eat healthy and hit the gym 3 days a week. I'm 47 and feel like I'm in the best shape of my life. That being said, my social life is probably at its absolute worst it's ever been. Not the outcome I had hoped for. Not really sure if I'm happier now or before I quit the poisons. I now stay away from bars as they are a trigger for me to drink. No bars=no more socializing. It's been lonely the last couple years.
  10. Well said. I simply went to a technical college and earned an Associates degree in my trade of interest. (That's about the minimum degree to open doors in my field). Bang for the buck it was the best investment I ever made. I paid cash for my degree and had zero debt when I was done. It opened enough doors and enabled me to make enough money to live well. Just because you have a bachelors or masters degree doesn't always guarantee a healthy wage. Only downside to my degree is that it's specialized. I work in the water treatment industry. Only so many plants in every city. Unless your willing to relocate, there is only so much opportunity in one place. We have many young people that come in the front door with bachelor's degrees that in my opinion are vastly over educated for the type of trade they will be learning. Most want to go right from training to supervisor, but in reality it doesn't work that way. Some find this out quickly and leave, others stay for some experience and then leave in bigger pursuits. I find the minority grind it out long enough to see advancement opportunities open up. Ive been in this specialty field for 25 years. If I had to do something else, I most certainly would have to start from scratch. At this point it doesn't pay to start over, IMHO.
  11. Zero exercise all weekend other than some light stretching :( It was my 36hr work weekend where I was basically confined to a control room 12hrs a day. Sleep, eat, go to work and sit in a chair for 12. Rinse and repeat, ugh! Have Mon/Tues off so those will be gym days. Hate when I have weekend control room duty. Glad it's only once a month.
  12. Perhaps introspective is a better word? Some people choose to never look inside themselves. You have a unique perspective I can relate to. I don't feel your attention seeking in the least. Just thought your post was rather cool.
  13. Another person that likes winter? One of my favorite times of the year is winter. Here I thought I was the only one :)
  14. Beautifully said! I can relate very well. Sounds like you have lots of insite. My med has basically made me feel the same way. My highs are never very high and my lows are seldom low. My life is sort of a purgatory that is void of fulfillment.
  15. I take 1000mg fish oil/day - xymogen brand. 10,000 iu vitamin D with K2/ day - xymogen brand. 400mg Magnesium/day - NOW brand. Getting my vitamin D levels up had a big impact on me. Made me less lethargic. All doctors should have people tested for D levels. Unless you get regular exposure to sunlight most of us have low levels. Even at 10,000 iu's a day it still took about 6 months to get mine in the normal range. I'm a night shift worker so don't see much sun. I hear others say that Magnesium has a calming effect. I can't really tell if it does or not.
  16. Oddly turning 30 was a rough one for me. I'm turning 47 in June and it doesn't bother me in the least. Now birthday's just seem like another day to me.
  17. A part of me is the same as you. Want it to pass and get back to normal days. I prefer to spend it with family/friends but in small doses. This year I got stuck working all weekend including Monday. Good money but in the same sense I feel sorta lonely and empty. I see all the posts on Facebook about what everyone is doing and can't help but feel some jealousy.
  18. If you have a chance, check out this fantastic forum: *url removed* It's a site dedicated to weaning off AD'S. It has the most comprehensive information about getting off these drugs I've ever seen. Everyone on the forum is or was at some point on AD'S. If you have a question about anything, it's most likely been answered before. They recommend a very conservative approach to weaning that minimizes withdrawal symptoms. I've tried getting off sertraline in the past but now know I was doing it far too quickly. I've found that doctors who prescribe these meds know very little about how to come off them safely. I tend to listen to the people who have real life experiences. That's what the forum is all about. I wish you luck in your journey. Rob :)
  19. I have a tough time making friends also. I've always been introverted, shy and timid. My social skills are not very good so it's hard to keep people interested in me. Everything usually starts good when I meet someone, but after the small talk ends then I think I get boring to talk to.
  20. Another hour at the gym tonight. Sorta pathetic that I have nothing better to do on Memorial weekend then go to the gym. My social life is complete s**t!
  21. Yes, this is just the way she was born and raised. I often joke that we have gender reversal. I'm more sensitive, expressive, open and wear my emotions on my sleeve. She doesn't express her feelings or show it very often. Plays tough a lot and has "thick skin". We're not exactly newlyweds anymore, over time we've become less affectionate and sucked into the daily rut of life. Spiritual and physical intimacy has sorta gone by the wayside. I feel more like roommates than husband/wife. I miss that connection we had at the beginning. It's tough to tell her these things. She just isn't very responsive to this kind of conversation. It's usually like talking to a wall. She listens but doesn't have much to say. Very frustrating.
  22. In my opinion giving a hug and receiving a hug is two different things. Married 19 years and RARELY get a hug from my wife. I'm always the giver. If I want a hug I have to go get it. Not the same thing. Just the way she's been from the beginning I guess. It seems to bother me more now. Like I can be married but still feel lonely and unwanted. Can't force someone to be more affectionate. Really stinks :(
  23. In my opinion, all SSRI'S have sexual side effects. Some to a lessor degree than others. Everyone is affected differently by different ones. Out of 3 AD'S I've tried, zoloft has been the best one for me. In the early years, sexual side effects were minimal. Fast forward 20 years and the side effects are much worse. Ive had these side effects the entire time ive been on it. Nothing, I mean nothing has changed that. Im even on Testosterone Replacement Therapy and that hasn't changed the persistent sexual side effects. If I had to do it all over again, choosing to go on an AD would have been my absolute last resort on the face of the earth. In my humble opinion these drugs only treat symptoms and don't cure anything. They cause more long term issues than they help. I'm currently weaning off this drug hoping that some day my side effects will go away. I now know that the only way to not have side effects is not to go on it in the first place. Not trying to rain on your parade, just giving you a perspective from a guy that's been on zoloft for 22 years. Best wishes for you.
  24. Just an excerpt from a different forum regarding antidepressants. Really made me think about my med and how it impacts my brain. I can't validate the accuracy of this statement, just think it's good food for thought. "A lot of people, including healthcare practitioners; in fact, I guess, most people-- are operating from entirely the wrong paradigm, or way of thinking, about these meds. They're thinking of them like aspirin--as something that has an effect when it's in your system, and then when it gets out of your system the effect goes away. That's not what happens with medications that alter neurotransmitter function, we are learning. What happens when you change the chemistry of the brain is, the brain adjusts its chemistry and structure to try to return to homeostasis, or biochemical and functional balance. It tries to restabilize the chemistry. For example: SSRI antidepressants work as "serotonin reuptake inhibitors." That is, they cause serotonin to remain in the space between neurons, rather than being taken back up into the cells to be re-used, like it would be in a normal healthy nondrugged brain. So the brain, which wants to re-establish normal signaling and function, adapts to the higher level of serotonin between neurons (in the "synapse", the space between neurons where signals get passed along). It does this by removing serotonin receptors, so that the signal is reduced and changed to something closer to normal. It also decreases the amount of serotonin it produces overall. To do that, genes have to be turned on and off; new proteins have to be made; whole cascades of chemical reactions have to be changed, which means turning on and off OTHER genes; cells are destroyed, new cells are made; in other words, a complex physiologic remodeling takes place. This takes place over time. The brain does not grow and change rapidly. This is a vast oversimplification of the amount of adaptation that takes place in the brain when we change its normal chemistry, but that's the principle. When we stop taking the drug, we have a brain that has designed itself so that it works in the presence of the drug; now it can't work properly without the drug because it's designed itself so that the drug is part of its chemistry and structure. It's like a plant that has grown on a trellis; you can't just yank out the trellis and expect the plant to be okay. When the drug is removed, the remodeling process has to take place in reverse. SO--it's not a matter of just getting the drug out of your system and moving on. If it were that simple, none of us would be here. It's a matter of, as I describe it, having to grow a new brain. I believe this growing-a-new-brain happens throughout the taper process if the taper is slow enough. (If it's too fast, then there's not a lot of time for actually rebalancing things, and basically the brain is just pedaling fast trying to keep us alive.) It also continues to happen, probably for longer than the symptoms actually last, throughout the time of recovery after we are completely off the drug, which is why recovery takes so long. With multiple drugs and a history of drug changes and cold turkeys, all of this becomes even more complicated. And if a person is started on these kinds of drugs at an early age before the brain has ever completely established normal mature functioning--well, it can't be good. (All of which is why I recommend an extremely slow taper particularly to anyone with a multiple drug history, a history of many years on meds, a history of past cold turkeys or frequent med changes, and a history of being put on drugs at a young age.) This isn't intended to scare people, but hopefully to give you some idea of what's happening, and to help you respect and understand the process so you can work with it; ALSO, because you are likely to encounter many, many people who still believe these drugs work kind of like aspirin, or a glass of alcohol, and all you need to do is stop and get it out of your system. Now you can explain to them that no, getting it out of your system is not the issue; the issue is, you need to regrow or at least remodel your brain. This is a long, slow, very poorly understood process, and it needs to be respected."
  25. Thank you Stonium! I'm 11 days into my first 10% reduction and things are going relatively well. Some very mild withdrawal symptoms are present but easily managed. This is what weaning slowly is all about. Reducing the drug burden with minimal side effects. I realize there is no magic pill or supplement that will make withdrawal go away, only time will do that. Thanks for your support! :)
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