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Annoyed because my work keeps changing my schedule!

The amount of negative responses I've gotten so far when I told people I started volunteering with refugees! I can understand people's reasons for not wanting to take more then our capacity but every person in need deserves help..

Bright yellow :)

I had a wonderful childhood with great parents and my younger brother. I was a happy child but I've always been anxious. Mental illness does run at my moms side of the family, pretty much any woman has some sort of mental illness.. I never knew though until I got one myself at the age of 17. So I do believe the main reason for my former depression and anxiety are because it's simply in my genes since I had a great childhood and I've never been through a huge trauma or anything like that.

I had 3 sandwiches for dinner..

I take oxazepam but only when I need it. So maybe 10 times a year.. and then I use 10 mg. I don't need it in my everyday life so I'm fine going to work and do my regular things but whenever I have to do something which is really far from home I get so scared I just freeze. So for those days I use oxazepam.

I have such a knot in my stormach. I failed my theory test for the 5th time! Even after taking a two day course were 99% passes.. I feel so stupid! What makes it even worse is that my younger brother did pass, I am truly happy for him but I can't help to feel like a total loser..

What a surprise, I had pasta again haha. Pasta bolongese! I had a Magnum rasberry too but I didn't thought it was that good, I'll rather just stick with a Magnum classic or a popsicle.

Have a job that I actually love Meeting my friend in Canada Travel to India Take a Spanish course in Spain Meet the love of my life Becoming a mom And last but not least, just be truly happy!

I've been eating a lot of pasta this week.. Pasta salads with tuna and salmon, pasta pesto.. Gotta love pasta but I think I am going to have something else for diner tonight haha.

Flodder? :PHaha no, I can't stand that one. Kees & Co is the one I am hooked on, I have seem every episode at least 20 times and I still love it. Have never heard of it!! Will check it out. You should! First 5 seasons are the best, the rest sucks because my favourite character has died then.

Flodder? :PHaha no, I can't stand that one. Kees & Co is the one I am hooked on, I have seem every episode at least 20 times and I still love it.

I don't have any advice for you but I am wishing you all the best. Don't give up!

I am tired but I am still feeling the joy of yesterday when I went to a theme park with my friend. I was so nervous about it was all for nothing because it was so much fun. Unfortunately back to work tommorow..

Yes I am. At least I am to other people, not so much to myself though unfortunately.

Extremely nervous.. I woke up so tense and I am still feeling so stressed out. Can't wait till I can go to sleep and tommorow is over.

I understand your questions and your fears. It took me about 7 years until I was ready to take them, I always felt that I should be able to do it on my own but then someone said to me, if you were a diabetic you would take insulin as well right? This is just the same thing, it's just not physical. Anyways I am on medication for 3 years now and I honestly believe they saved my life.. Not that I would be dead but I think I'd still be laying in bed all day and doing nothing. When I first started with them (Escitalopram 10 mg) I got very sick, everything felt so much worse but after about 6 months pretty much all side effects wore off. If I were you I'd discusses your fears and worries according to medication with your therapist/doctor. Maybe they can take some of your fears away? I am wishing you all the best!

I still have quite some things I do I truly enjoy like, cooking, baking and writing.. However I use to make walks every single day, I don't do that anymore.. I just can't bring myself to do it. I am also not as creative as I was when it comes to crafting anymore. I miss doing my "little projects".

Really tired.. Slept in till 10:30 am, then did a two hour nap but I'm still tired.

That's helpfull! I barely drink when I am at home, I just don't get thirsty. When I am at my work though, where it is always very warm I drink even not then those 8 glasses.

I am really tired but good. Today was such an interesting first day at my volunteer job.. I love getting to know new people and hearing their stories.

Yes I can relate.. I really dread going to work, I work at a restaurant in the kitchen. Usually when I am there it's ok but it takes me forever to get ready for it. Pretty much every morning I think about calling in sick, I'm proud to say I never did though. Anyways I think for me it's more a matter of not liking this job too much then hating to work. I like working and doing something useful with my time.. It has to be something which is at my level though. Not that there is anything wrong with it but I can do more then make people's lunches.

So excited to start at my volunteer job tommorow! I've always wanted to do this kind of work and refugees seem such an interesting group to work with.

Yes I hate FB. If I already feel bad I certainly need to stay away from FB.. I already unfollowed some people who seem to have the perfect life, I just get so sad to see pictures of happy couples with there children. Not that I don't want others to be happy but it makes me sad because I feel like I will never have them.

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