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  1. I would consider myself "better" since I can function well, I have a job, I socialise and I genuinely enjoy life most days. However I don't think I'll ever truly get rid of the roots of my depression, it's just in my genes. From time to time I have those days I feel like not doing anything but crying and I even think about suicide, not that I would ever truly do it but sometimes it's such a comforting thought. Sounds weird right? So I do still have those times I feel very depressed which I have for at least 8 years now but it only lasts for a few days usually unlike before I was on medication when those times would take months.
  2. I had a homemade lasagne with lots of veggies and salmon.
  3. I went cooking with my moms friends son. He has a form of autism and is out of work, so my mom told me he is pretty bored and loves to meet new people. I'm like, well why not cook together then. It was so much fun, he's such a nice guy and so is his family plus or lasagne turned out great. I'd definitely go there again!
  4. A big hug from me! I'm wishing you well :)
  5. I'm so tired.. I had the second day of my course, although it was super interesting (intercultural communication) just straight listening for 6 hours is exhausting. I also had a driving class right after it so I'm glad it's time to sleep now.
  6. I have pretty much been living on bread and sandwiches the past couple of days..
  7. That's a great idea! I've been keeping journals for about 5/6 years now and I love it. I also have a very precious letter from my mom in it and other sweet messages I've gotten over the years from my family of friends. It's indeed great to read back whenever I feel low. So definitely go for it!
  8. I have only see one so obviously this doesn't count for all psychiatrists but I found he totally underestimated how sick I was (depression) just because I looked OK and I can talk about it easily. He didn't offer me any help, same went for at least 3 psychologists I've seen. Just don't go off on how someone looks (still taking care of themselves) and the fact that they can talk about it like it's no big deal, which was my way of handeling it. The only person who ever truly took me seriously and saw past it was/is my GP.
  9. I'm so glad I have weekend. After only an hour into work I was exhausted already, my coworkers even noticed.. So having two days of is great!
  10. * I adore my cat, he's just so cute.. * Flowers * My volunteer job * Having an honest conversation with someone * Seeing a child smile * When my hair is looking nice * Coming home after a work day
  11. (((desperados))) Wishing you a wonderful day! :)
  12. Tired.. I had a course today from 10 am till 4 pm.. It has been more then a year since I just had to sit down and listen. I'm more tired after this then I am after a day of work.
  13. I wouldn't say numb but I am definitely less emotional.. Sometimes I wish I could really have a good cry but I just can't.
  14. I'm so sad! My mom just told me her brother (my uncle) never wants to see us anymore :( The thing is that my grandfather bought us a car (because we don't have one and my grandfather has a lot of money because he sold his second house) obviously the money my grandfather spend on the car my uncle gets as well but just a little later. Apparently he can't stand that and he told my my mom she's always having it the easy way and asking for help! Seriously? If there is someone who never asks for help its my mom! And he's the one who has it easy with his high paying job and happy marriage. Expensive vacations, €20.000 kitchen, rebuilding the house.. He doesn't even need a car, besides with the money he's getting he could buy himself a car as well. He's such an ass.. Family fights suck!
  15. Really tired. I find it so odd that whenever I have a day of I can't function without a long nap and whenever I have work I can just go on for a full day without feeling tired..
  16. Yeah I finally got my theory certificate to get my drivers license, it took me 6 times to finally pass the freakin exam but I got it. I can't wait until I can do my drivers exam and have my license!
  17. Annoyed.. I called in sick at work today, I've been not feeling well for a week now. But my boss didn't believe me! I didn't sound sick according to her, well no I have a headache and cramps, that doesn't affect my voice. She's so damn annoying!
  18. I am actually very lucky since I am a good sleeper. I usually go to bed around 11 pm and wake up around 7/8 am. Later at free days obviously. I just need my sleep otherwise I get very cranky. I have not too much problems falling asleep and I usually just wake up once a night..
  19. So so nervous. I have big nots in my stomach and I'm about to cry.
  20. I feel ya Cupcake, unfortunately. Wish I'd brought my painkillers to work today. So sorry to hear that. Maybe you can ask a co-worker or your boss for painkillers? Usually they have. Anyways hold on and wishing you well.
  21. Sick.. It took me 3 painkillers to get through my work day. I should have stayed in bed but I'm too scared to actually call in sick.
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