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I'm sorry if I was inappropriate or anything, my mind is jumping from platform to platform at the moment, and I just feel angry and bitter, hence the rant. I think I'm going to leave the website for good now, whatever purpose it had, personally, is gone. Seabeach- Worry not, I'll be ok, and I've saved the numbers relevant to me. Thank you. Waffles- I'm sorry, I realise I must sound like a terrible terrible person. Try to understand, it's not that I don't want to offer support and sympathy, I just think the internet is too impersonal, and I have no energy to try and bridge that gap. Violet- Thank you, and I'm delighted to hear that you have found happiness, I really am. I'm trying the list of gratitude at the moment. Idk if I'm acting hugely self absorbed and important, but I think this is goodbye. If anyone wants to contact me, pm me for an email address, otherwise thank you for putting up with me, and sorry for acting like me. Good luck.

Hi guys. I find myself returning here repeatedly, ready to offer advice and warmth, only to be stumped by the feeling of pointlessness and redundancy that I get. What's the point? I can preach all I like, bottom line is we all stay unhappy. I don't know what this is supposed to be, other than a self indulgent rant. I think it's a general suicidal kind of exhibitionism, and maybe an acceptance that no amount of support will make it past the "trivial" mark in my head. I don't think I'll be on here again, I just want to give in to nihilism and violent angry feelings, I just want to not care anymore and smash everybodies' silly rules and barriers. Don't worry, I won't do anything stupid, I just am trying to deal with a very angry, holier-than-thou, insightful part of me, I won't hurt anyone other than me. Feel free to delete this or reply, I don't know what I'm going to do. Goodbye.

Have a big hug and a night in with the people I actually love and want to spend time with.

Escape to a secluded forest/desert island.

Help (I think that's the song name) by The Beatles.

Having a dad that likes to shame/annoy you as much as possible, so that you start having nightmares about him.

Girly- I'd love to, just can't bring myself to for some reason. Feels futile and attention seeking. I'll try write a post later maybe. Thanks

Opening up to someone after being assured they'd care, and being given false hope when they said they could be there. Of course I should have listened to my gut feeling, as I've been treated like something on the end of her shoe, and I'm getting a strong instinct that she'll be talking about me. Sigh.

Suicidal thoughts being stuck in my head 24/7, and not being able to change my mindset. DarkRain- That sounds pretty insensitive of them. I definitely think you ought to talk to them, get the message across somehow.

Also, when I'm in this state of feeling out of control, I can sometimes go all sly and manipulative of people, in a subtle way, which I HATE myself for.

Everybody's Fool, and a little bit of Good Enough by Evanescence. Make Me Wanna Die by the Pretty Reckless

The feeling of not being in control of what your brain decides to do or say, when really happy or down in the dumps, and you mess up something good.

8. I love her style. Taylor Momsen(Lead singer of The Pretty Reckless)