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  1. I grew up Christian and stayed that way until my 30's.  Even though I was miserable, I still felt a purpose, like this world was some test and that the next world would be better for those who persevered.  Then I lost my faith, and don't see any purpose or point to anything anymore.  So for those of us who do not believe in some deity and nice afterlife, what keeps you going?  What is the point of life to you?  I recognize that the answers will vary because I don't believe in any absolute reason for everything.  I just want to see what might work as to a purpose or point to living.

    Also, if you are religious or believe in some God or Allah or whatever, please leave me alone in this thread because I am looking for something that works for those of us who don't believe.

  2. I think that intolerance goes in every direction.  I don't feel any resentment towards people of faith, I just happen not to have one anymore.  When people ask why, I just say I lost it in Iraq, and sometimes I'll add that it is probably still there in Iraq, blowing around in the wind.

    If someone wants to worship some moon good, or some dude who died 2,000 years ago, or trees, or whatever, I don't mind as long as they leave me alone and don't impose their faith, book, sharia, whatever on me.  If people want to live in some crowded big city, that's fine too just as long as they don't presume to tell us rural people how things will be, like it would be in the US without an Electoral College.  If people want to not exercise their Constitutional rights (since banning guns was mentioned earlier), that is fine as long as they leave the rest of us alone who live in the US and believe in preserving the Constitution.  Basically, I believe in not hurting others and in leaving people alone.  I wish people would leave each other alone more.  Just because someone believes certain things, or follows certain politics, or specializes in certain fields, or has an IQ higher than Einstein, or makes enough money to plate their walls in gold, or whatever, it doesn't make them better than the rest of us.  I forgot where I was going with this.  I should probably go back to bed.

  3. I like your profile picture, lol.  Did you paint that yourself?

    Anyways, I've done things like you describe, just not for as long of a time.  I don't know what the correct psychological term is, but the word obsessive could be used.  I know it is easier said than done, but you have to move on.  You are wasting your life obsessing about a woman who doesn't seem to care or think about you.  I hope I don't sound too harsh, but that I believe is the reality of the situation.  Find someone else while there is still time.

  4. Abilify has been a very effective anti-psychotic for me.  I used to hear voices frequently, now they are rare and muffled.  I still suspect that I occasionally hallucinate conversations, but it doesn't seem as bad as it used to be.  Having said that, I have never been very enthusiastic about Abilify.

    As for mood, when my Abilify was increased I didn't notice any difference.  However, when it was decreased due to increasing my heart rate and being blamed for dizziness, I felt more depressed.  So I don't really know for sure how effective it has been for mood.

    I'm on 10 mg right now, and have been on various doses for maybe 7-8 years.

  5. When my voices started as a teen, my pastor told me that they were demons.  It was a Pentecostal-type church, and so demons were very real to me at that time.  So I thought that I was normal, just being harrassed by demons.  I wound up in the army, which decided that I was not normal and kicked me out.  I lost my faith along the way, and was put on meds.  The fact that the meds have controlled the voices for me reinforces my current belief that they are just schizophrenic hallucinations and were never demons.  And since I am now agnostic, I doubt anyone else hears supernatural things either, but that can not be proven one way or the other.  I hope things work out for you.

  6. http://www.drugs.com/dosage/effexor-xr.html 

    Here is a description of max dosage of effexor xr for various conditions, and how it is recommended to slowly build up to the max of 225 mg for most conditions.  It mentions that over 225 mg per day might be beneficial for severely depressed patients, but "the experience with Effexor XR doses higher than 225 mg per day is very limited."

  7. Wait a minute there, you said 150 mg in the morning and down to 75 mg from 150 mg at night.  Are you sure you are supposed to take it twice a day?  I suspect there is a misunderstanding, because you were at 300 mg a day which is at or near the max dose of effexor and now you are at 225 mg a day which is near the max doseage.  So it is very well possible that immediately putting you on the max dosage when you appear to be underweight may have caused an overdose and that would explain your rare side effects that you described.


    I've been on effexor for about 7-8 years and I consider 225 mg a day a higher dose than I like being on.  I take my full dose of 225 mg in the morning.


    Effexor usually causes weight gain, I've never heard of it causing weight loss.  I personally gained almost a hundred pounds on it before getting my weight under control and getting it to slowly drop back down.

  8. I can't take Welbutrin by itself.  It was the first antidepressant I was given, and I would be filled with rage for hours, and then crash and got very depressed the rest of the day.  I stopped taking it after a few days, and resisted any attempt to put me back on it.  Several years later, while on effexor, I was persuaded to take it again with effexor, and it works now.  For me, the effexor and welbutrin counteract each others worst side effects so I can handle it better.  The effexor keeps away the rage hours from welbutrin, and the welbutrin helps with the lethargy that effexor causes for me.

  9. The side effects you are experiencing could be withdrawal from Effexor, or it could be just from taking Welbutrin by itself.  The first antidepressant I took was Welbutrin by itself.  I was filled with rage for the first few hours, and then I would crash afterwards and get very suicidal.  Welbutrin will do nothing for your anxiety in the best case scenario, and for me it made it worse when it was the only med I took.


    What I take now is both effexor and welbutrin together.  They mitigate each other's side effects for me.  The effexor takes care of the anxiety, and the welbutrin helps with the energy, mood, and sexual side effects.

  10. I've taken Effexor at night for a long time, and I've taken it in the morning.  It used to knock me out for a few hours, and then I would have trouble sleeping the rest of the night.  I sleep for 2-3 hours at a time and have gotten used to getting up and down throughout the night.  Right now I'm typing this around 4 am.  Personally, I don't take sleeping pills because when I took Ambien for sleep it made me groggy all day.  For me, the insomnia just varies according to the phase I'm going through at the time, but never completely goes away.

  11. I started Effexor while in the army, while I was running several miles at least 3 times a week (which was a reduction from what my unit had been doing earlier in the year).  I have noticed excessive sweat and a reduced tolerance for heat, especially now that I am not as active being out of the army and have bad knees from excessive running on concrete.  As mentioned, drink plenty of water everyday and make sure you are getting the electrolytes and other stuff that you need, but also consider taking effexor at night if you exercise during the day.  Even the extended release peaks for hours after you take it, and then wanes before the next dose.

  12. I can't remember right now how long I've been on Abilify, it was before 2010 though.  My highest dose was 30 mg, and it is prescribed to me as an antipsychotic.  I do feel lethargic and have trouble concentrating, but I'm also on Effexor so I can't blame it all on Abilify.  However higher doses of Abilify do make me more lethargic and really increase my heart rate.  Now I'm on 10 mg which is less of a problem for me.  It is an effective antipsychotic for me.

  13. While I was in the army, I was diagnosed in 2007 with major depressive disorder with psychotic features, even though my episodes started in my late teens and would occasionally hear voices even when not depressed.  They said that I wouldn't have been able to hold a job if I had schizophrenia.  Then around 2012 or so the Veterans Administration changed my diagnosis to schizophrenia with depression, which I thought was more accurate.  Last week I went into a psych ward for my depression and the resident psychiatrist there said that I was too highly functioning to be schizophrenic and so she changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective.


    Now I'm confused about the difference between schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder.  From my google search, schizoaffective is schizophrenia with depression.  I don't understand why that psychiatrist would say I was too highly functioning to be schizophrenic, and the army pdoc would say that i couldn't have held a job if I had schizophrenia.  Does this make sense to anyone?

  14. I'm down to 10 mg of Abilify now.  I don't have much choice in doctors because I'm using the Veterans Administration.  The only way that I know of to get a second opinion through the VA is to go into the psych ward, which I did last week due to being really depressed.  That other doctor didn't want to take me off abilify either, but she did reduce the dose.  I did try tapering off the Abilify, but I got some hallucinations and my depression increased.


    Anyways, I have other risk factors too for peripheral vascular disease.  I use tobacco, I have high cholesterol (genetic but the VA won't give me meds for it), and high blood pressure (due mostly to the Abilify and tobacco I think).  That is why I don't think that Abilify is the sole cause.  However, I find it suspicious about Abilify that no one else in my family has even heard of this disease even though they fit some of the risk factors too, and that I am young to have this disease (I'm 41).  The only thing different about me physically than the rest of my family is that I'm the only one on Abilify.

  15. If it is 2 mg and you haven't taken it long, then it shouldn't be a long withdrawal because that isn't a high dose.  Now if you take 20 mg and have taken it a long time, then the withdrawal might be worse because it is a higher dose that may need to be tapered off instead of quitting cold turkey.  It depends on the person, the dose, and the length of time it was taken.  I don't know how many weeks it will take for you, but it took me a month to adjust from just lowering my dose from 30 mg to 15 mg.

  16. Withdrawal from effexor has never been horrible for me, but everyone is different.  I get brain zaps like electrical shocks when I miss a dose.  That is about it.  Once when my effexor got reduced for a month I got more depressed, but I think that is more due to my depression coming back while on the lower dose rather than a withdrawal symptom.


    Here are times when I have had to go through withdrawal...

    missing a dose

    stomach flu where I can't keep anything down

    prescription coming late in the mail (my meds only come through the mail since my plan has no local pharmacies)

    the times my dosage got adjusted

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