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    ellemint got a reaction from Katzenjammer in How do you find purpose; get up and get going, with depression?   
    I guess my purpose right now is just to survive--- alive, awake and aware.  
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    ellemint got a reaction from JD4010 in How do you find purpose; get up and get going, with depression?   
    I guess my purpose right now is just to survive--- alive, awake and aware.  
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    ellemint got a reaction from duck in How do you find purpose; get up and get going, with depression?   
    I guess my purpose right now is just to survive--- alive, awake and aware.  
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    ellemint got a reaction from Epictetus in How do you find purpose; get up and get going, with depression?   
    I guess my purpose right now is just to survive--- alive, awake and aware.  
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    ellemint got a reaction from Epictetus in daily use of benzos for depression/anxiety   
    Right now I take alprazalom every day for anxiety but it probably also makes me feel more depressed.
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    ellemint reacted to Ba3inga in Omega 3 - 1000-4000mg EPA   
    I was deficient in a few things so:
    Magnesium with zinc
    Vit d
    Multi complex vit b
    I also found 3 glasses of green tea, with slice of fresh ginger helpful. I found calming and helped nausea (anxiety and migraines)
    I also stopped sugar, seemed to make me worse, and went down lower carb intake. So instead of something sweet, took a small teaspoon of cocnut oil. Sure some may frown, but gave me energy to do what had to do. It really helped my stomach as well.
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    ellemint got a reaction from charmgary in ''you're Depression Is Making Me Feel Stressed''   
    I can relate very much to what you write.  I feel the same way.  
     
    I've struggled a lot with letting people know the way I feel, which rarely works out in the long run.  It just stresses people out, and they can't deal with it.   So I am left with the option of not mentioning depression, and just keeping relationships superficial.  Right now I've pretty well lost nearly all my friends, mostly because I've moved multiple times and I don't keep in touch very well, but also because I burnt so many bridges because I was so often this upset, lost, anguished person, and people just got fed up with it.
     
    I don't feel like psychiatrists and medication work anymore.  I'm still on a low-dose anti-depressant, but just like any drug, I honestly believe that one's brain habituates to psychotropic medications, and that they stop working.  They worked great for me the first time I took any, but now, decades later, I don't think so.  
     
    There are four books I would recommend that go far beyond just "positive thinking":
     
    Russ Harris - The Happiness Trap
     
    Alex Korb - The upward Spiral, Using Neuroscience to Reverse the Course of Depression, One small change at a time
     
    Robert Leahy - The Worry Cure - Seven Steps to Stop Worry from Stopping you  [not about depression per se but still good since for me anxiety/avoidance are tied in with depression]
     
    Michael Bennett, MD, Sarah Bennett - "{swear word}   Feelings"- One Shrink's Practical Advice for Managing all life's impossible problems  - Actual name of book, first word of this book, rhymes with buck
     
    Alex Korb also writes a blog in Psychology Today, and Michael Bennett and his daughter have a very good website.
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    ellemint got a reaction from desperados in 3 Words Of The Moment   
    I
    hate
    Christmas
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    ellemint got a reaction from TopekaK in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from Skylark1 in ''you're Depression Is Making Me Feel Stressed''   
    I can relate very much to what you write.  I feel the same way.  
     
    I've struggled a lot with letting people know the way I feel, which rarely works out in the long run.  It just stresses people out, and they can't deal with it.   So I am left with the option of not mentioning depression, and just keeping relationships superficial.  Right now I've pretty well lost nearly all my friends, mostly because I've moved multiple times and I don't keep in touch very well, but also because I burnt so many bridges because I was so often this upset, lost, anguished person, and people just got fed up with it.
     
    I don't feel like psychiatrists and medication work anymore.  I'm still on a low-dose anti-depressant, but just like any drug, I honestly believe that one's brain habituates to psychotropic medications, and that they stop working.  They worked great for me the first time I took any, but now, decades later, I don't think so.  
     
    There are four books I would recommend that go far beyond just "positive thinking":
     
    Russ Harris - The Happiness Trap
     
    Alex Korb - The upward Spiral, Using Neuroscience to Reverse the Course of Depression, One small change at a time
     
    Robert Leahy - The Worry Cure - Seven Steps to Stop Worry from Stopping you  [not about depression per se but still good since for me anxiety/avoidance are tied in with depression]
     
    Michael Bennett, MD, Sarah Bennett - "{swear word}   Feelings"- One Shrink's Practical Advice for Managing all life's impossible problems  - Actual name of book, first word of this book, rhymes with buck
     
    Alex Korb also writes a blog in Psychology Today, and Michael Bennett and his daughter have a very good website.
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    ellemint reacted to Garnetred in Conversations With Businesses Recorded Are Never For Your Benefit   
    When I first injured my knee and back I was sent to rehab and there was always someone sitting by the door where you logged in who would say in an upbeat chirpy voice "Hi how are you today"  To avoid a conversation about how you really felt most people mumbled fine as they went to sit and wait for their tur.
     
    When my workers comp claim was being settled they brought out paperwork with day and time and my response to their question regarding how I was that day.  Patient stated she was fine.  Patient stated she was doing ok. They used my polite response AGAINST ME!
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    ellemint reacted to NC86 in Conversations With Businesses Recorded Are Never For Your Benefit   
    I'm sure there is no one on here that hasn't contacted a buisness where you are told that "your call is being recorded for quality assurance".  These recordings are NEVER there for your benefit, only their benefit, to be used against you in any dispute.  If you get into a dispute with the organization recording your call, say a sales rep has lied to you, you think that since there is a log of every call and every call is recorded, you could simply tell the manager to locate the sales rep and what was exactly said to support your position in a dispute, I find that they claim that they "cannot access those recordings" or try to claim that they don't know who you spoke with last.  That just pi**es me off so much cause they are totally full of it.  But if they needed to have evidence to prove their side, then magically they could access those recordings or know who you spoke to.
     
    I remember at my last family doctor, it was some teaching clinic so they recorded on video every appointment you had.  This was in addition to the doctor who already had a computer in front of him logging notes every appointment.  Of course I had a dispute with them(resident doctor f'ed up how many times), do you think I had access to those videos?  Of course not.  It is going to be hard for me to pin down any specific dates or exact figures without a computer in front of me typing and logging everything that was said during an appointment when I go to file a complaint with the College of Physicians.  Of course the recordings were never there for my benefit.  Recordings of interactions between a business and customer or a doctor and patient are NEVER there for your benefit.  I cannot stand slimey practices like this, especially when they are sold or marketed as if they are there for your benefit when they sure as hell are not.
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    ellemint reacted to charmgary in ''you're Depression Is Making Me Feel Stressed''   
    I hear, "Your depression is emotionally draining at times". It is hard to hear, especially when you are depressed because you are ultra sensitive and already in a dark place. You need support,comfort, a sense of sympathy or empathy and to feel you are a burden at times is hurtful. I have heard this from family and a close friend. These are the people you rely on the most, so to feel that way makes you want to disengage which feeds the loneliness and sadness.
     
    It is tough living with this and I think finding a forum like this brings some solace to the situation, and where you can always vent and express yourself with no judgement is a saving grace. So glad I came across this board the other day. I love the community of support here.
     
    Charmaine
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    ellemint reacted to One More Red Nightmare in ''you're Depression Is Making Me Feel Stressed''   
    But others think it is a choice. A friend told me the other day that my problem is that I feel sorry for myself and that I should just be happy because of what I have going for me. I guess people think I can just decide not to be tormented by severe depression. Would that it were so.
    The people I've tried to talk to about how I feel have not reacted with much sympathy. "Get over it", "toughen up", and "everyone has problems" are the primary attitudes I've gotten. This just makes me feel worse, much worse.
    I went to a psychiatrist, but he just charges a lot of money and prescribes pills. I've decided I don't want to be addicted to pills, so I'm not taking any now. I tried them in the past, but I don't believe they will cure me.
    I've read a lot of self-help and spiritual books and articles. Their message boils down to "think positively". This probably works for some people, but I just can't sustain a positive attitude. I've tried to change my life for the better, but the result is consistent failure.
    I don't want any more happy, trite "good advice". There are few things I hate more than reading happy stories about people who "overcame" their depression and tell us how to do it.
    I don't see much hope anymore. I know after a lifetime of dealing with intense sadness, depression, and anxiety that it won't ever go away. It's just who I am. Mental illness runs in my family. (My brother has severe schizphrenia, and his life is hell.)
    I can't stand the loneliness of being alone, but I also don't want to be a burden on others and stress them out. My grim heaviness stresses them too much. I really can't maintain any close relationships in my condition. Nobody wants to be around a negative loser. It's a no-win situation.
    All I want is for everything to end. I'm afraid to commit the ultimate taboo, though, because it will hurt my family, and I'm afraid of being reincarnated right back into this life as punishment. At the same time the thought of a few more decades of living with my illness is terrifying.
    I know some of you understand what I'm talking about. I guess we just have to endure as long as we can. Maybe after death we'll get some relief. (With our luck, though, we'll just transfer into another state of hell.)
    What a ray of sunshine I am today. :)
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    ellemint reacted to Epictetus in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    More at peace and hope filled than yesterday.
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    ellemint reacted to virvellian in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    i'm feeling okay. who knows, i might even take a shower today! #living_with_depression :D
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    ellemint reacted to highanxiety in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hope everyone had a nice Christmas.  Not to rain on anyone's parade, but for me Christmas can be a nightmare, knowing I will be around a lot of people and have to act out being happy and full of cheer.  Well as it turned out today, I unintentionally blew every thing off because I didn't get up till 3-pm.  Too late to go or make amends, so had actually a nice day alone watching old movies and getting things done around the house.
     
    When people ask me how I spent Christmas, and I say alone, they immediately go into this "you poor thing", when I retort, " What's the big deal?"
     
    To be honest I think Christmas is all about getting presents for many people and that is it.  With the exception I think Christmas is a lot about kids getting presents from Santa which I think is good.   I used to love Christmas mostly for that fact.  But my parents would be sure to take us to midnight service, and morning service, so the meaning of Christmas means more than just presents.  I think many of loose sight of the true meaning.  My parents made sure when we were growing up, we would still have presents and great time, but never lose sight of what Christmas is all about.
     
    Only my interpretation.  Hoping all of you have a good holiday.  And let's all have a great new beginning with 2016,  
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    ellemint got a reaction from mulberrypie in 3 Words Of The Moment   
    I
    hate
    Christmas
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    ellemint got a reaction from Epictetus in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from salparadise6132 in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from mulberrypie in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from Dolphin2013 in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from highanxiety in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from LonelyHiker in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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    ellemint got a reaction from Skylark1 in The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2   
    I hate the holidays and I hate Christmas.  It's the anniversary of my mother's death.  I feel no Christmas cheer, I had to move and have made no new friends,  I feel alone and without family.  I just hate everything right now. sorry.
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