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  1. I can listen to anything Danger Mouse does. love him! Probably the one album I've played the most over the last few months is Broken Bell's 2010 'The High Road' --- which is a collaboration between Danger Mouse and James Mercer of The Shins.
  2. depressedgrad, when it comes to an interview question that stumps you, you might want to take a page from the average politician's book. Have you ever noticed how often they don't answer the question that was asked, they answer the question they want to answer. So if someone asks you about a project in which you were the leader and you can't think of one you can still tell them about a project that went well where you were part of the team, and then highlight your contribution. Or turn around a question so that you can tell them something about your skills that you want them to know. Also, there seem to be about a dozen of the same questions most interviewer's ask which I'm sure are found online or in books: practice your responses to them. And if you really do not have experience in something the interviewer asks you about you can say 'No I haven't done that, but in my last two jobs I had to learn new techniques or tackle things new to me and was able to successfully do that. In fact, that's one of the things I'm best at, learning new things quickly...blah blah blah :) good luck. and don't get discouraged. I'm in the same boat, and I know it's hard. :)
  3. Lion, I can relate to a lot of what you're writing about, the problems with self-care, the lack of interest in activities you used to enjoy. I know that terrible feeling when you first wake up. It's awful. Here's a book that I am finding very helpful: http://www.amazon.co... happiness trap And here's a website that deals with having a life and home that is a mess. Click on "get started" (also called "can't have anyone over syndrome" !) in the upper right-hand corner in grey writing. http://www.flylady.net/ One thing I find is that I simply have to force myself to do things. And not expect to enjoy them (yet.). And not waiting to feel better until I do things, but just go ahead and force myself to do things because at least doing them will be better than not doing them, and maybe eventually I will feel better. take care.
  4. Xora, I can very much relate to what you are saying. I have struggled (and still struggle) with the same set of problems: depression, GAD and social anxiety. Up to about age 34 I was crippled by social anxiety: people thought I was stuck up but I was just so anxious around people that I would freeze up. I would turn red and tremble. I worked with a good psychologist for a while, and also was on Xanax, and after also starting on Prozac somehow it gradually went away. Which was a miracle because I had suffered with social phobia ALL MY LIFE. It determined everything, what courses I took in university, my jobs, all my activities. Don't give up! There is hope. One thing I found was that if I was involved in an activity, like if I joined a gym and was working out, then it gives you something to be doing and you can just talk to people in little 15 second snippets because everybody is busy, that helped. I suggest you find a new therapist. You mentioned province, are you in Ontario Canada? (if you don't mind me asking) Because there are some no cost options there. that's where I live presently. Also, a quote: "We probably wouldn't worry about what people think of us if we could know how seldom they do". ~Olin Miller Most people really are not paying much attention to us, they are much more concerned about what we think about them.
  5. It's every emotion. I don't mean expression necessarily on a verbal level. It's difficult for me to explain. It's just hard for me to know how to fix a feeling when I don't know what that feeling is. OK, I think I see what you mean. Can you usually tell if it's a positive or a negative feeling? Also, remember that most people can not always identify exactly what it is they are feeling, so you're not alone in that! And often what we feel is a mix and jumble of different emotions. And emotions are like quicksilver, or a wave, they come and go, strengthen and weaken. Here's a simple handout that might help you identify an emotion. I know it might seem stupid, but if you look at the choices, you can sit back and think which one you most approximately feel like at that moment. And don't beat yourself up if you can't make out what your're feeling. http://www.get.gg/docs/emotionpicker.pdf Also J, since you mentioned you're starting to feel like you are "slipping away", it might be worthwhile to check in with a doctor, or if the facilities you received treatment at before left you with some contact numbers, or the mental health services at your university if they are close by. It can't hurt! And it might help. Wishing you well! And I can kinda relate to your situation, I had all kinds of problems in university & still struggle --- but eventually I graduated with PhD. So, there's always hope. cheers !
  6. I believe that's because some of these drugs can cause whats called "metabolic syndrome", in which your body starts metabolizing food more slowly, and you gain weight and belly fat. (you can google it) So you're not necessarily even eating that much more. I had it when I was on lithium for about 10 days and had to stop, I was so horrified at the weight I was gaining so quickly. It's usually associated with drugs for schizophrenia and epilepsy, but a lot of these drugs like Abilify are now being used as boosters for depression, and lithium has always caused it. To me it's a really unfortunate side-effect of some meds because when you're depressed the last thing you want is to start gaining weight & feel worse.
  7. Hi Mommabuck --- Day 5 of Celexa for me. I have had headache and the upset stomach like you have. But I also started on Vyvanse for ADD and I know that might be causing some of that. What dose are you on? I'm on 10 mg and then supposed to start on 20 tomorrow. Wishing you well!
  8. Ok thanks Ep1 -- so far today, no headache! Last night I didn't take the Celexa , I took it in this morning instead. Most of my migraines I have them upon awakening, it's like I get them while sleeping, so I figure taking the Celexa may have just been amplifying that. I don't know why my doctor had me taking it at bedtime anyway, since usually you take an anti-depressant in the morning. I'll have to ask him. cheers! :)
  9. thanks for replying Ep1ctetus. I drink coffee every day, I thought the caffeine helped with migraines, but I might try stopping and see what happens.
  10. It's my 4th day on 10 mg of Citalopram (celexa), which I take at bedtime. Every morning I've woken up with a headache, which have gotten progressively worse. I have a history of migraines and the headache today was a migraine, which I had to take 3 Zomig to get rid of. Has anyone else had a problem with headaches when starting Citalopram and have they gone away?
  11. I'm wonderiing what emotions you feel like you're not expressing? Is it any emotion whatsoever or are you OK with saying stuff like "I'm glad" or "I'm p***** off". Sometimes it's also OK to say "you know, I don't know what exactly I'm feeling but I'm all churned up inside" for example. You don't always have to be able to define exactly what emotion you are feeling. Also sometimes, if expressing emotions is difficult for you it is easiest to just start out with the basics: I'm sad. I'm glad. I'm angry. I'm afraid/ anxious. Or instead of trying to pinpoint afeeling, just focus on your body and see if you are experiencing any sensations, like tension in your shoulders, or your heart beating fast, or whatever, and just be aware of those sensations in a non-judgmental accepting way. If you feel afraid of expressing negative emotion, just try expressing non-negative ones to start with, like "I'm curious, or I'm bored" and see how that goes. Just some ideas , good luck.
  12. NervousNelly, I feel for you, that sucks. It's different for everyone, and a given medication just may not be suited to your physiology. When you told your doctor about the side effects did he address that though? or did he then add in the Xanax? (which is the old using a drug to solve the problems another drug causes) And the Xanax is a CNS depressant so it could possibly make depression worse, I'm not saying that's the case for you, everyone's different right. I hope you feel better soon and your side-effects go down!
  13. I struggle with regret a lot, mostly about things I've lost through my own actions. It's really hard to tell those thoughts & feelings to just 'go away' because that only seems to make them come back stronger. I recently started learning more about something called ACT - Acceptance Committment Therapy and reading up on it. There's a book I would highly recommend called "The Happiness Trap: How to Stop Struggling and Start Living" by Dr. Russ Harris. He talks a lot about intrusive thoughts, feelings, and images that keep recurring and that make us suffer. Basically you accept those thoughts and don't fight them, but let them just exist and pass peacefully without paying much attention to them or focusing on them. Also just because they are your thoughts and feelings doesn't mean they are 'true', i.e. your self-critical thoughts are just that, critical thoughts about yourself, but they may not reflect reality. It's a mindfullness-based approach. I'm trying this method with my intrusive thoughts of regret---it seems to be helping a bit, although it's not an instant fix---but just thought I'd throw that out there.
  14. Thanks for reminding me of importance of folic acid-- I used to take a supplement and then kinda forgot about --- but I'm going to go out and get some.!
  15. I find reggae's really good for kinda giving me a lift while I do something else. Oddly enough though, the album I've been listening to the most over the last two days is Justin Timberlakes 'Future Sex Love Sounds'. M.I.A. is on my i-pod and I'll play her music when I'm out walking (it adds some swag to my walk ha).
  16. I can relate---- I've been feeling very warm and sweaty since starting on Citalopram and Vyvanse yesterday. I walked to the store last night and was just drenched in sweat, of course it's also 87 degrees outside ! Thank God for fans eh?
  17. Hi everyone. OK, DAY ONE. Yesterday I saw my pdoc and started on a new regime. I've had problems with chronic depression all my adult life, and this most recent bout has lasted for years and gotten steadily worse without a respite. I've been really depressed for a long time now---waking up with that dark feeling of doom and dread, not wanting to get out of bed, my body heavy and lethargic, not wanting to leave the house (I'm not working), having to force myself to do just about anything----just a really sad bad place to be. Last October I sold my condo and moved from the U.S. where I'd lived for 20 years and back to live with my Dad in Canada, so I've lost ---- .....everything. I haven't made new friends here, 'cause for one thing I don't go anywhere or do anything where I might meet some people! I moved because I was just vegetating and not getting better. I've been on various different anti-depressants since January, to no avail, and also took a CBT course which was somewhat helpful. I'm just getting started on Citalopram, starting with 10 mg at bedtime last night. I also started on 30 mg Vyvanse yesterday for my ADD and to help boost the anti-depressants and reduced my 300 mg Wellbutrin XL to 150 because the doc said Vyvanse and Wellbutrin both increase dopamine, and too much would make me irritable and agitated. I feel OK, kinda sweaty. I've started doing yoga but my body has so many issues from years of running--- so I wonder if it's even safe for me, but I'm giving it a go, and maybe if I feel better I'll venture out to a yoga center and take a class! Tomorrow I'm going to an orientation session for volunteers at the local Humane Society---I'd like to do some dog-walking. I know that sounds like nothing, but for me that's a positive step. I worked with dog rescue in the U.S. and I've really missed not having any contact with dogs! (don't tell my two cats that....) I've been encouraged by all of you who have posted your experiences with Celexa/Lexapro---thank you. It gives me some hope, and I'm interested to hear how you all are progressing. cheers!
  18. Have you noticed any sleep problems? I ask that because Wellbutrin is more of an energizing then sedating anti-depressant. It's usually advised to take it in the morning. That might help.
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