Hi Xinn, and welcome to DF. I'm glad you found us. This is a very welcoming, supportive community of people who understand struggling with anxiety and depression. You are not alone with us. Have you seen a doctor about how you are feeling? Depression and anxiety are treatable conditions, sometimes with meds, sometimes with therapy, and sometimes a combination of both. There is a lot of good information here about anxiety and depression, and the various treatments for it. If you look a bit farther down the menu, you'll find the Anxiety Room, which you may find helpful. Please make yourself feel at home, take a look around the site, and post wherever you feel comfortable.