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evalynn

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    evalynn reacted to LonelyHiker in Depression Fraud.   
    You are not a fraud... depression and anxiety are equal opportunity demons and have no prejudice with regards to race, gender, ethnicity, or socioeconomic background. Your pain is valid and needs no qualifiers, prerequisites or justification.
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    evalynn reacted to velvetpuddles in Depression Fraud.   
    Thanks. Logically and rationally, I know that. Something in my mind just tells me 'you're a fool, snap out of this, what do you have to complain about'. It's like the devil on my shoulder. Cognitive distortion. Some days, my mind is too much of a mess and I have trouble ignoring it.
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    evalynn reacted to JD4010 in Depression Fraud.   
    I can relate. I often feel "guilty" for being depressed because it could always be far worse. And for many people, it is.
     
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    evalynn reacted to JD4010 in Ever envy the dead?   
    I envy them, but I'm not sure I'm ready to join their ranks yet.
    I need to learn how to be happy. Looking at the sky can make me happy momentarily. I watched the moon at midnight last night. It was almost joyful to do that.
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    evalynn reacted to Natasha1 in blah blah BLAH   
    Ditto. Are you my shadow or am i yours?
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    evalynn got a reaction from Philip in A Rant A Day Keeps The Therapist Away   
    Thanks, @GhostInTheShellx and @Philip.
    Yeah, I may have to go to a GP eventually. I keep procrastinating, but I can't justify it for much longer.
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    evalynn reacted to Philip in A Rant A Day Keeps The Therapist Away   
    How is it going? What about going to your GP and having examining done? Eating disorders can easily be treated.
     
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    evalynn reacted to GhostInTheShellx in A Rant A Day Keeps The Therapist Away   
    I'm sorry that your husband isn't as supportive as you hoped he'd be. Some people just don't get it.
    As for the losing weight, a lot of us have a difficult time with it. That's alright, especially with the difficulties with pain you've been having.
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    evalynn reacted to My empire of dirt in Me and My Traitorous Body   
    I know the feeling i'm having the same problem what little i gained lst summer is now gone. I've ballooned to 230lbs now that's up like almost 30 lbs. I'm back lifting but its nothing (40lbs) And i haven't walked since last september
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    evalynn got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Me and My Traitorous Body   
    I could do that. It´s not something that would even occur to me on my own, because I´m such an "all or nothing" type of person. Some balance is probably what I need.
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    evalynn got a reaction from Natasha1 in Me and My Traitorous Body   
    I could do that. It´s not something that would even occur to me on my own, because I´m such an "all or nothing" type of person. Some balance is probably what I need.
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    evalynn reacted to Natasha1 in Me and My Traitorous Body   
    Can you make your regular workouts (if you can, I know that can be difficult) very very light exercise until it's a habit and things improve?
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    evalynn got a reaction from samadhiSheol in But I Have Nothing To Say...   
    @samadhiSheol What a great comment. Thank-you.
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    evalynn reacted to samadhiSheol in But I Have Nothing To Say...   
    What you just wrote speaks volumes, Evalynn. That da mn inner critic, though. I wish it would shut up! Sometimes it's not about what one writes expicitly. Sometimes it's about the words and thoughts that are absent, but implicitly there for one with the patience to listen.
    I was about to write something in my blog and perhaps I will. Or not. But I'll mention it here. 
    Somewhere in the British National Gallery, off Trafalgar Square, London, is a painting called "Philosophy" by the artist Salvator Rosa (a bit of an art buffer, me). A dark serious young man surrounded by a bleak landscape holds a scroll with the words "Be quiet unless your speech be better than quiet" (Latin in the painting). 
    I believe there's a reference to stoicism in the scroll, in which all unnecessity is stripped away and one is to live and express oneself with the bare essentials. But it could also  be understood as listening to the silence that is between our perceptions and thoughts. Letting that silence settle in, instead of frantically filling our minds with the clutter of the world.
    Sometimes it's the silence between words that speaks more than the words themselves. Sometimes our silence is louder than all the shouting we can ever do or the words we write.
     Sometimes it's worth listening to the silence. The words will come out when they have to. You ARE an interesting person with a lot to say, Evalynn, judging by the words you wrote and the silence between your words.
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    evalynn reacted to Lady Mozzer in Anxiety   
    Thanks for your positive vibes evalynn.I really need them right now.
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    evalynn got a reaction from Lady Mozzer in Anxiety   
    Sending positive vibes to you and your mom.
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    evalynn got a reaction from Natasha1 in Anxiety   
    Sending positive vibes to you and your mom.
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    evalynn reacted to thursdayschild in Missing   
    30s is NOT OLD PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Wait 20 years and look back on this and you will see what I mean
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    evalynn got a reaction from ZeroGraviti in Labor Day weekend   
    I haven't been on facebook for more than a few seconds at a time in months. It can be depressing for me too. Try not to compare yourself to others. I agree with Mark and Mike, but also do you see a therapist? Maybe talking it out could help.
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    evalynn reacted to Natasha1 in Missing   
    Do it!!
    I could have posted pretty much everything you did. Except its my Dad i miss.
    And my regular doctor...i went in to see her about my meds before my psychiatrist days. When i asked for her at her office the receptionist said she had retired. I burst into tears.
    She was the one who understood me best. She saw me through my rough times at the last bank i worked for...management triggered me to levels i cant describe...anyway i used to go see her on my lunch breaks. And she was amaxing. I should have seen it coming since she was a snowbird.
    You know what? About the youth thing...i get that too...colour your hair crazy now. Who cares? I bet it would look awesome! Ive considered going pink and im 43.
    Do it girl do it!
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    evalynn got a reaction from Fenris89 in September 5th 2016   
    I'm glad you're feeling good, and congrats on your quitting smoking.
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    evalynn reacted to MarkHollywood in Ticketed   
    i've written plenty of stuff on here that i wish i hadn't.... you're not alone.
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    evalynn got a reaction from MarkHollywood in Ticketed   
    Eh, now that the dust's settled, I'm taking it as a lesson learned. I was obviously still upset when I wrote this and now I kind of wish I hadn't. If I could do it over I wouldnt have gone out at all, but I'm still not sure where I would've pulled over. I felt safer where we ended up. Oh well.
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    evalynn reacted to BettrResultsHereIHope in I hate us   
    i'm sorry you are experiencing this.
    i'm kinda going thru some of the things u mentioned here.  i hate how i want to be friends with someone who probably doesn't even care about me.
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    evalynn got a reaction from Lady Mozzer in Horrible Day   
    Thanks girls. 
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