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  1. I stopped doing therapy years ago. My therapist spent the whole session cussing out his sister over the phone. He actually was a good person to talk to but at the end he was just as bad as I was.
  2. I cleared the list that will somehow be full again tomorrow with things I never thought of today.😩
  3. I know how you feel. I've wanted to give up the whole time I've been on my own. I don't think I can give up though. My mind won't let me give up no matter how bad things get. I'm sure things will end badly for me. Considering my circumstances it's inevitable but I'm not giving up I can't give up.
  4. I dreamed about my parents being back together. It was a dream meant to torture me because I'm the reason they got married. My parents got married because mom was pregnant with me. My biggest regret was being born.
  5. We got frost this morning for the first time. I live up on a hill so usually the second time there is supposed to be frost I get it here like this time. It's still going to warm up enough to walk later.
  6. Someone I've known for years has taken Depakote for probably 20 years for his seizures. It basically just stabilizes your mood. For him it's been a lifesaver.
  7. I feel pretty good today. I'm getting more trees cut down tomorrow. I can't imagine how much I would have had to pay for 7 trees to come down if I didn't come up with a barter situation.
  8. I agree. I don't think anyone has ever stopped by or just called to see how I'm doing in my whole life. If they show up they want something.
  9. I'm like that with movies or shows. If there are a lot of characters there's no chance for me. I might watch 4 or 5 years of the show before I get the characters straight.
  10. I get the courtesy responses you're talking about. People say what they have to when I'm around and then goodbye like you say. People don't even pretend to care anymore. I'm on my own sink or swim and that's it.
  11. High of 56 and I got my walk in. I'm going to keep walking for now but the indoor exercise prison is closing in on me. It will be here by the end of the month.
  12. Why am I staying sober again? Do I really want to experience this? I guess the only bad part is in the moment because I sure won't remember anything with this brain.
  13. Once a week. We have to ask ourselves when we have a parent like that. What is better keeping in contact and knowing what they are up to or sitting around and constantly wondering what they are up to. It's a sad situation. There is no good answer.
  14. I'm clearing the list again today and I was right I did believe it would help in the beginning.☹️
  15. I walked a few miles yesterday.
  16. So many times dad has laughed at me when I mess up and say we like I used to when it was me and mom here. He'll say Who's we and laugh. The only thing that keeps me going is anger I guess and knowing the people around me don't want me to keep going. I'm in the way. They are all sick of me. They thought I would be gone by now.
  17. When you call a business and they have the same Please listen carefully as our menu items have changed message for years! I've been with you for 10 years and nothing has changed!
  18. We are supposed to get snow for the first time on Halloween. I hope the great pumpkin still shows up.
  19. High of 53 just warm enough for me to go for a walk.
  20. It's simple they see who you really are. They see who we see. I hope everything works out for you. You are a wonderful person and I want you to have a wonderful life. I want you to be happy and feel free again.
  21. I can't believe how little I can handle doing at this point. I look at every day and scream even if the day was nothing more than going down to the mailbox.
  22. I reward and punish myself with food all the time. I have a rocky relationship with everything and everyone and I always will.
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