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  1. How Do You Feel Today? #32

    When I had an apartment the only time I cleaned anything was when I knew there would be an inspection.
  2. The Post Anything Thread (2)

    I always have good manners. That's how I was raised. I feel guilt and remorse when I act badly and I don't think the average person even has those feelings. It's just become a world of people that are children mentally their whole lives. Give me what I want and give it to me now and they knock everyone in their path out of the way to get it.
  3. The Post Anything Thread (2)

    Believe me I feel the same way as you 2 do but I'm too stubborn to give up.
  4. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I lost the weight because I have to to survive after the abuse I have put myself through because of the drinking. I'm 38 right now. Usually by my age if you are a heavy drinker it starts to take a serious toll on bodily organs. It ruins your brain, liver, kidneys, pancreas and the list goes on and on. I don't want anyone else to get where I got where I really have no choice but to take care of myself if I want to live a long life. I diet and exercise every day and I keep myself in as good of health as possible. I still eat all the things I love every month. I have just mastered a way of being able to do it and stay skinny. Sadly when I choose to drink I say I accept this is my last day and I don't care if it is. There is nothing going on in my life right now that I have to give up though. There is still hope.
  5. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I gave away 1000 dollars while in a blackout. Who knows what happened to it. Sure our brain will tell us we are a failure. It loves to beat us in the ground and make us feel bad just because it thinks it will get a reward after the suffering. Yes I wish I was like the average person but that will never be true in any way really. For me I risk death every time I drink. I have lost 150 pounds but my brain doesn't know that or care about that. The brain still wants to drink as much as I used to. I have the same body size now as when I started drinking when I was a teenager. Trying to get the happy highs back is like chasing the dragon that they talk about. We never catch the dragon. At the end of my drinking. Yes it is the end I would go on huge binges and afterward have awful crashes where I would lay in bed crying for a week. It is the devil's drink. I won't be fooled again. You won't trigger me. Don't worry about that. I will always help you if you need help.
  6. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    The last time I drank I gave away 1000 dollars. When I drink I act like a complete fool here and everywhere. If you watch an intervention episode that is me when I am actively drinking. You are not a complete failure. If I drank today after 93 days sober my mind would tell me I was a complete failure. It's absurd. It's a lie your brain will tell you to make you feel sorry for yourself and take another drink. I've relapsed a million times. Drinking used to make me happy as well but when you become addicted to it it can take you to scary places. It can make you very depressed and suicidal. From my experience once you reach the point where alcohol makes you extremely depressed the happy drinking times are a thing of the past.
  7. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    All the love here makes me feel so good.I want all the best for all of you here.
  8. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Thank you to everyone. I plan on sticking around. This place means everything to me. This place has saved me from sure death countless times and I will never forget that. I want to be a positive force here.
  9. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I'm proud of you too. It's such a hard thing to get past. Believe me I know. The last time I drank is the last time I will ever drink. I hope the same is true for you.
  10. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Thank you everyone. I have missed you all. I love you all.
  11. Early Birds

    I wake up at 5 AM usually. I need the few hours in the morning to myself with quiet and nobody to deal with to start my day.
  12. Sexuality Help

    Of course I understand. You just want people to love and accept you for who you are. It's what we all want.
  13. Favourite Childhood Fantasies

    I've been obsessed with soap operas since I've been 4 years old so I would love to meet all of the characters from my favorite soap operas. My first memory I can remember is watching soap operas from when I was 4 with mom. I would love to be a writer for one of the shows.
  14. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I want everyone here to know I'm doing very well right now. I'm the best version of myself I have ever been. It has been such a long journey for me to get where I am now. Most of what I have done doesn't even seem possible to be honest.
  15. Are you okay?

    1. sober4life


      I am doing fine.  I'm probably doing better than I ever have in my life.:icon12:

    2. HeatherG





    3. sober4life


      I'm so sorry to worry you.:hugs: