sober4life

I was able to pet a dog that nobody is able to pet today. This dog bites everyone that tries to pet him but I was able to calm him down and pet him and I could see a look of peace in his eyes. That really made me cry but in a good way. That made me feel really good for the first time in a long time.

I used to have frequent urination. They tried for ages to figure out what was wrong and it turned out to be just from my anxiety. I constantly felt like I needed to go to the bathroom all the time. I always had to know a place would have a bathroom for me to even go there. Needing to know where bathrooms were became my only thought. I became obsessed with it. That's how bad the issue was. I was always afraid of having an accident.

Religion was a part of things for me for a while which was strange because I've never been religious. I think it was because mom started going back to church so my mind was able to make me think I was letting down mom and god if I didn't do the rituals.

Mom would have been very proud of me today and that's all that matters. Today was a major turning point in my life.

I have to be tough with people that think they're tough today. Those are always the "fun" days but at the end of the day they will know what tough really is I guess.

Welcome I was an introvert before I came here too. Now I really have no fear of being myself here or anywhere thanks to this place.

I used to feel the same way but I've learned I really have no control over who I'm attracted to. Yes that can be scary I guess but I just gave up fighting my thoughts.

Of course it's awful! I stare at the wall the whole time. I don't have a choice though. I have to keep up appearances in every way.

Technically they can't impeach him. He's isn't the president anymore.

I went 5 miles on the treadmill today.

At this point in American history they all just want to be on tv any way they can be. That's it really I think. We're all watching their show at this point and they want their characters to appear on that show as much as possible.

It's a movie meant to motivate people in their own lives. They had the choice to run into the woods or stay in the tank and fight so maybe it was a movie meant for the morning not right before bed.

I watch a lot of different things from puppies and kittens to right now I'm watching a movie called Fury which is a war movie. Wow if that's a true story wow!

Yeah most of my drive is gone. Finally I realize there's nothing out there! Sitting here where it's warm watching tv is really as good as it's going to get for the rest of this.