ladysmurf

So my therapist asked me what I do for fun ..(this is a new person I am seeing) I mean there' snot much you can do with covid right now and i didn't really know how to answer that. I mean i told the person, people are afraid to go out, and many places are limited..

the doctor only wants me to take it on bad , really bad days, because you can get addicted to that stuff, so i don't want to. i'd rather a medication, like an SSRI or SNRI would help me , but nothing ever works. i think it atarax usually wears off after a few hours at least that's what i read..

i hope everyone is doing well/okay

it made me want to harm myself. but at the time i was seeing a different doctor and the person automatically gave me a big dosage. i might ask this new doctor to try it in a lower dosage

Interestingly enough it helps a bit with my ocd, the doctor gave me like 50mg, but the problem is that it makes me very sleepy. Has anyone had that experience before?

I apologize for not writing for weeks/months I have been struggling a lot lately. It's very hard to explain to people who don't get this illness what I am feeling. I am truly fed up with nothing working for my anxiety and OCD. People don't realize how much the anxiety and OCD wears you out, and none of the medications I've ever taken have helped. Now we are getting ready with the doctors to look into TMS. I will post my experience on the website, for others to know too, but we're all different so my outcome might be different than others.. I am just very sad and hopeless, and have thoughts of self-harm because it's my last resort type of solution. I hope everyone is doing well, ok, day by day, guys. I really hope that something helps, because I can't keep doing this forever, I am getting really tired of living this way.

I sure hope it has some result for me, I am so sorry it didn't help you.. I can't take this anymore.

im not going good, have a hard time getting out of bed...im sorry guys....i hope i can continue to do this but i dont know anymore......happy new year ...

why can't I find any relief? why doesn't anything work for me? all i want is to sleep better, to lie in bed and enjoy a movie along with my favorite meal, to be able to live like a normal human being why must i suffer?

im sorry i have not replied to you guys..i have been very down, and there were days i slept all day long, nth no intention of doing anything ..not even listening to music or watching or even getting out of bed. I don't feel good. i hope you guys are doing better.

hey did the insurance cover it? glad it's helping

i went for a quick walk, had a talk with a person i was in the hospital with (years ago) we have managed to keep in contact for like almost 10 years, so that's exciting. i wish i could meet the person , but with covid everyone is scared and so i don't see that happening. i hope everyone is doing OK. this illness is certainly a daily constant battle. just the other day i woke up wishing i wasn't here.

had weird nightmares..barely slept...tired...hope you guys are doing OK

i know but if they are in pain, it hurts so much you can't do anything about it

It is very scary the world we live in. I once had so much tooth pain that I told the dentist do anything please to stop it. I paid like close to $1,000 and i had to use my credit card because my insurance didn't pay for it.. Tooth pain is very painful, that dentists know that, so they charge whatever they want..