ladysmurf

I hope if you have the day off you are able to enjoy it 🙂

how did she like the library?

me too

i can relate to that somehow...for me its not so manic, but the OCD and anxiety mixed together , that when i need to get something done it needs to happen right away, otherwise i start freaking out..

i don't want to this illness to destroy my life as it has done so far. but yeah the anxiety takes over, and does not let you do things you enjoy which is not fun at all.

the wind blowing outside....hoping this year I get the courage and things get better..

scared of failing

yeah I would probably tell them about the heart issue, that would freak me out .. i read on NAMI.org Metadate ER®, Ritalin SR® (methylphenidate, extended release, wax matrix) ... Some side effects may pass with time, but others may require an adjustment in ... Although you may experience beneficial effects from methylphenidate or dexmethylphenidate within a few days of starting the medication, it often takes several weeks to get the full effect of the medication. Your healthcare provider may also need to adjust gradually the dose to find the dose that works best for you.

maybe its too much ? or maybe you need to adjust to it? what did he say?

yikes.. that is not fun, i took that before for depression because it helps some, but it made my anxiety go crazy just like the way you are describing so i couldn't keep up with it. how much dosage did he give you? maybe he started you off on a large dosage?

Lets hope we can both change that , and live a more productive life, that we want!!!! without caring about what others think about us regarding how real this illness is, and how we deal with our illness.

I'm proud of you too!! I hope someday soon I can say the same about getting my life together again.. but hearing you , and others on here gives me inspiration and hope, although my brain /anxiety keeps saying I won't make it.

I have read many good things about Ketamine. People who have anxiety and OCD have also said that nothing helped them, but Ketamine. It would be nice if it was more affordable, the clinics in the USA charge between 500 to 900 an infusion last I checked, I really hope that the price will get better soon so people who are really feeling hopeless and have tried it all can afford it. For those who struggle financially once they hear these prices...Maybe you can look into clinical trials too, or studies to get money for it . I really hope we hear more positive stories about Ketamine

I am trying to set a schedule every week. at least hopefully with a routine it will be easier..if i push myself.

I haven't been to see relatives and people who insulted me in the last 2-3 years and let me tell you how happy and proud I am! Whoever wants to be by my side, with my illness , great, if not, BYE BYE out of my life ..that's the only way I found peace.