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TheBecoming

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  1. Company Calls and Company Calls Epilogue by Death Cab For Cutie and so much Death Cab For Cutie in general.
  2. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

  3. Thanks for talking, Sometimes, it can be difficult to admit there is an issue in your life. I have been a long time member and coming here and talking to people has helped me more times than I can count. I hope you find all the help you need.
  4. So it has been 5 days without any responds. I saw her once and we talked but she acted as if nothing had happened. I'm over that now or getting over that. Instead of getting stuck on this issue I decided I tried to be honest and it didn't work out for me. But I realized something. I only said something because I was tired of being a liar about how I felt. Then I realized one of the things that gets me down the most is putting on a happy face everyday. I don't need to pretend to be happy everyday. Most days I'm not happy and I'm not miserable I'm just there. I fake a million smiles and laughs. if I stop and decide to just be me I can relax and deal with much less stress. I'll see how it goes.
  5. This is what happened past Wednesday the event that made me want to start trying to stop bottling everything in. Even though it was a past event I felt it deserved its own entry. So there exists a woman I have felt for and still feel for. Not that it matters not in this reality but maybe in a better time and place than this she would have been first. I denied view I felt as I denied all other feelings. But then I just couldn't anymore I had to say something. I told that of all the things we had ever done what I enjoyed most was holding her. I told her I wanted to be more together than we each were apart. I told her I didn't want to deny it anymore. She didn't answer right away she told me to kiss her. I gave her one long passionate kiss followed by the gentlest kiss I could muster for some I just poured my heart out to. I still didn't get an answer just silence. I left because I didn't know if I wanted an answer. If I don't know the truth I can always believe its not my fault. Once again I am back to hiding it all.
  6. Welcome to DF I hope you find what you are looking for here. I've been on the site for a few years now ever since I was diagnosed it has helped me a lot hopefully it helps you too.
  7. Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie but also a lot of Death Cab for Cutie in general.
  8. Love Ridden by Fiona Apple It is really in my opinion one of the best end of romance songs ever Love ridden, I will look at youWith the focus I gave to my birthday candlesI've wished on the lidded blue flames under your browAnd, baby, I wished for youNobody sees when you are lyin' in your bedAnd I wanna crawl in with you but I cry insteadI want your warm but it will only make me colder when it's overSo I can't tonight, babyNo, not baby anymoreIf I need you, I'll just use your simple nameOnly kisses on the cheek from now onAnd in a little while we'll only have to wave
  9. So there exists a woman I have felt for and still feel for. Not that it matters not in this reality but maybe in a better time and place than this she would have been first. I denied view I felt as I denied all other feelings. But then I just couldn't anymore I had to say something. I told that of all the things we had ever done what I enjoyed most was holding her. I told her I wanted to be more together than we each were apart. I told her I didnt want to deny it anymore. She didn't answer right away she told me to kiss her. I gave her one long passionate kiss followed by the gentlest kiss I could muster for some I just poured my heart out to. I still didn't get an answer just silence. I left because I didn't know if I wanted an answer. If I don't know the truth I can always believe its not my fault. Once again I am back to hiding it all.

    1. 4amRedLight

      4amRedLight

      You kissed her! you took a chance, and she let you.

      Heart pounding. Laid it all out. Way to go!

      That's a lot to absorb for her. She could have been silent because it was too much to process. A romantic outpouring when you normally hide how you feel may be a shock, a surprise.

      Maybe she's afraid what you thought of her reaction, because you left.

      There's no fault! That's a brave awesome thing you did. And whatever her response, don't blame yourself. I applaud you, brave romantic.

       

       

       

       

       

  10. I am a Lucky Charms man myself. I eat all the oats first then all the marshmallows but I am going to try the Apple Jacks and Cinimon Toast Crunch mixed together. The math seems to work out on that one.
  11. Long time chatter very rare poster here. The restriction is largely to keep trolls and spammers out. Prior to the site upgrade in Febuary of this year the was a post count restriction that wasn't implemented after the upgrade.
  12. Black Sun by Death Cab for Cutie. Ben Gibbard does not appear to be a fan of Zooey Deschanel.
  13. Hello RJ333, I usually respond to posts with multiple questions by answering one at a time, and all of these answers are really just based on my own personal experience. 1) If you feel you need to get a diagnosis it wouldn't hurt if you can. Therapy and medication could be the right answer for you I was pretty much in your shoes before and I got out of it through therapy and depression. 2) As far as what you can do to make yourself better now try to focus on the things that help pull you out of a funk and try to do those things. 3) As far as explaining it to your friend the best thing I can think of is a blog called "Hyperbole and a Half." So far that has been the closest thing I have seen to something that even begins to explain depression. It is very hard to truly understand without actually experiencing it. You can tell someone that you can't get out of bed because the thought of doing so is unfathomable but to the average person getting up and doing what needs to be done is just something that happens. 4) Personal story time. I was forced in to treatment after an "episode" we can leave at that for right now. Anyway I always felt depressed throughout my entire life and really waited far too long to get treatment. But I did I spent about 3 years on medication and in therapy, and thing got better. I'm still not what I would consider perfect I still have bad days but I learned how to handle the ups and downs better. Sorry that seems a little rambly I just tend to type how I talk. Anyway I hope this helped.
  14. Not bad today, maybe even good other than a little tired and run down.
  15. So let me get this straight. If I post am the last person to post in this thread I win. If I win I get an excuse to perform my victory dance. Guess I better start dancing.
  16. NPR's Tiny Desk Concert by Nathaniel Rateliff and The Night Sweats.
  17. Roasted salmon with sauteed mushrooms, roasted red potatoes, and asparagus. Then maybe some mint chocolate chip ice cream.
  18. Welcome to the site Sara and a mother is. I hope you both get everything you need from it.
  19. An egg roll and soon some fried rice.
  20. Welcome to the site and congratulations on your 92 days free. Keep on keeping on.
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