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Took the cats out and watered the flowers. One flower was really droopy and I felt guilty for not taking better care of it.

Sleepy but I won't go to bed.

Great topic. I hope to get some great insight into my reality. I have a question about dreams. When I first retired, I dreamed about work situations sort of like Duck has where there is a big problem I can't solve. Now I am dreaming about when I was in High School. Does this mean I am regressing in mental age?

Now this is a happy topic. I love babies, any kind. Please keep us posted.

Believe it or not, I have been doing a lot. The house inspector was coming so I actually really cleaned. Now I don't want to move for fear it will get messed up again which, of course, it will. Why does housework have to be repeated so often?

A little sick on my stomach from taking my medication.

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I suppose I should be embarrassed to mention this but it is honestly my first memory. I was 3 or 4 years old and had long since been potty trained. I was sitting on the back steps and did not want to go inside so I deliberately pooped in my pants. My mother who had eyes in the back of her head, marched me into the bathroom. I remember at one point being very pleased with myself and then very guilty. I guess potty training can be a way to express ones defiance.

Two slices of Pizza, steamed asparagus, an apple

I don't want to upset anyone but I believe that death is the end which pleases me. I am tired and I don't want to do anything more. I want to sleep forever. I will be cremated and returned to the universe from whence I came. I may fertilize a beautiful wildflower. That would really please me. There are family members I never want to see again. I see no evidence of life after death but I am a realist with a scientific mind. I have no problem with others beliefs.

Have been meditating. Cannot do it for very long. Waiting for the miracle.

Washed clothes or I would have had nothing to wear.

Avocado, almond butter on Glutina crackers, and a coconut protein bar.

Home made vegetable soup and crackers.

Hot sausage, mash, carrots, green beans, an apple and Kefir.