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Slipping into Darkness

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  1. I've been on SSDI for Bipolar I and problems with my back since 2006. I was one of the lucky ones - I was approved for disability on the first try.
  2. When I was first diagnosed with Bipolar, I was placed on Lithium. It worked well for the mania and somewhat for the depression. I had to discontinue it due to tremors (the doc was giving me too high a dose), and I had started breaking out in psoriasis. If you are prone to psoriasis outbreaks, like I was, Lithium can make it worse. My family noticed I was a bit sedated while on lithium, as well. I don't mean to throw the medication in a bad light. What didn't work for me may be wonderful for you. All you can do is give it a try.
  3. I have been diagnosed as Bipolar I. My medications are Depakote, Prozac, Buspar, and Risperidone. Lately, I have been having a horrible time with depression. My doc at first split up my prozac dose from 60mg in the AM to 40mg AM, 20mg @2PM. This did absolutely nothing. My Risperidone was at 2mg. It was first prescribed to me because I occasionally hear and see things. My doc increased my Risperidone to 4mg. What a difference the increase has made! Working almost immediately, the depression lifted. My husband noticed the change as well. Just wanted to let you guys know. If you are having a bad bipolar depressive spell, this may very well help you, too.
  4. I voted pro meds, but I think a patient should also have therapy. I'm bipolar, and will likely be on meds for life. I've accepted this. We've found the right combo of meds, so pdoc appointments are pretty easy. Hopefully, they'll keep on working.
  5. Thank you for this information. My husband was switched from SR to XL, and we've been trying to figure out the difference.
  6. I was diagnosed in my late 30's. One of my children is also bipolar. I acted out during my Jr. High/High school years. I was taken to see one therapist, for family counseling. When my mom found out the therapist wasn't going to agree with everything she said, she quit taking me. I've always been able to hold a job, although I could be a difficult employee. I never got fired, I guess, because I was good at what I did. I was very outspoken. I don't work now. I haven't for 4 years. The depression side of this illness has turned me into an anxious blob that can't handle too much stress. I couldn't handle college or volunteering at an animal shelter, either. Until being medicated and stabilized, I always had relationship problems, with family and romance. I'm happy to say that I've been married to the world's most wonderful man for 7 years now, and I can't imagine my life without him. I'm pretty stable on my meds now, although life isn't perfect. I can still get manic and have the urge to spend money on garbage I don't need. My husband and I manage money together, and with not so much money to manage, shopping sprees are out. My thinking is clearer. I've recently been increased on my Prozac, and that has helped with depression somewhat. I've come to accept that I've had a problem most of my life, and this is about as good as it's going to get. I wish my kids would believe me. My bipolar child takes no medication, and my other child probably should be taking medication. They don't "believe" in medication. One has called me a guinea pig for taking the medication. I can't believe she would want the "old me" back.
  7. Thank you for the warm wishes, Trace, and I wish you a great day as well!

  8. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  9. We found out this morning that Mom does need surgery. The doctors weren't able to take the tumor out through colonoscopy, and it is precancerous. She will need part of her bowel removed. She is 83, and, aside from having high blood pressure, she is in good health. I'm not happy about this at all - I was hoping it would be snip-snip-done. She has to call the surgeon's office on Monday to schedule her surgery date. My husband will be gone for at least 2 weeks, so if the doctor schedules surgery soon, I'll have a 12 hour drive ahead of me. I'm hoping that they give it a month so my husband and I can travel to my parents' house together. Which ever way it works, we'll work it out. It doesn't keep me from being anxious about everything, though.
  10. I agree with Hircon, where the smallest of things will set me off! I don't think your daughter is old enough to understand your illness. It took many med changes before the doctor and I hit on the combination of medications that work for me. I'm not perfect by any means, but much more stable.
  11. I haven't tried acupuncture yet, SavannahFaith....don't know if insurance would cover it. I've been to chiropractors, sports medicine, orthopedic, and pain management doctors. The injections to the disks lasted for approximately one week. My husband flies out this Friday, and will be gone for a few weeks at least. We were both anxious last night at the thought of being separated for so long. We'll both be ok. It's going to be lonely without him.
  12. After walking around with this cloud over my head for the longest, my doctor increased my Prozac from 20mg to 40mg. I must say, I feel better. Yay pills! Ah, the trip to my daughter's....we felt unwelcome, especially by her fiance. We have another trip planned for October, for the baby's first birthday party, but we won't be staying for any extended length of time, if at all. There is a possibility that my mom will need surgery, and if the surgery falls within the timeframe of the party, well, we can't make the party. My physical condition is getting worse. The back pain has reached my hips. Doing things most people take for granted, like standing to do dishes or walking around the grocery store have become chores. I've been to 2 doctors; I've had injections in my disks. I've been told that no surgery will help my condition, so all the doctors can do is throw pills at the pain to make me comfortable. I try not to take them until I can't stand the pain any longer. I don't want to become dependent, and so far, I've been doing ok with that. I have to thank my husband for being sooooooo supportive. If it wasn't for him, I don't know what I'd do. Sometimes, I feel useless, though. My husband is flying South to take care of his mom for a few weeks. She broke her hip. I may be driving to my parents house on my own if my mom has to have surgery. I think our parents should coordinate their illnesses....just kidding. It's been stressful, I won't lie, but we must do what needs to be done.
  13. I hope you have a fantastic day :)

  14. I'm collecting SSDI now, but if I ever go back to work, I will not tell anybody I have bipolar disorder. My last two places of employment knew, and I was treated badly.
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