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  1. Going to TMS today so I should be feeling better after this appointment....
  2. I took an overdose of aspirin at the age of 8 years old. I do not remember the circumstances, but I was in the house watching my parents outside. I was sad and angry and too the handful of baby aspirin. I had a stomach ache, but no other reprucussions. I have always had depression and suicidal ideation. It haunts me.
  3. Despite feeling inadequate at work, I've realized that I'm doing everything I can to get healthy and stay healthy. I've made committments to take my medications, go to all my appointments and to go to TMS each week. That's the best I can do. So, I caught myself doing self talk that promotes good mental health.
  4. 1 mg made me feel like I was coming out of my skin. 2 mg made that go away, but i fee like I'm drugged, heavy limbs and I feel slow.
  5. I've been doing TMS since December of 2010. I'm on my 60th treatment now. I need weekly maintenance treatments, but for me TMS has been worth while. It's quite amazing how a magnetic impulse can alter your thinking for the better! Does anyone have any experience with TMS? Thanks for your time.
  6. At best, I'm inconsistent at work. At times, I produce great work. However, at other times I just get by. I try, try, try to simply make my problems unknown to most.
  7. tdonovan


    Thank you. I think I will leave.
  8. Achy. I am a fire fighter/paramedic and so I oh-how difficult life is when you are achy. I have achiness in my knees, hips, lower back and shoulders. Even my neck aches sometimes. I know that my depression is getting bad when I'm this achy and I hate it with a passion because for years I just muddle through the depression while I'm at work. However, for the past year, I've had these aches and seriously sore muscles all day long. So, I know what you're going through and it's real.
  9. I did, thank you.

  10. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  11. I have had depression since I was 8 years old. I took an over dose of aspirin at age 8. I'm 41 now and for the past three years I have been recieving the most comprehensive treatment I've ever had. However, I feel like the symptoms of depression are getting worse over time. In fact, I'm worried that my symptoms will continue to get worse until I'm totally debilitated. What are your thoughts? Do you think the same way? Thanks for your time.
  12. tdonovan


    I have been seeing a psychologist for three years. My two oldest children are seeing mental health providers in the same office for the past 1.5 years. While seeing this therapist, I made a decision that I would take all my medications as well as make every appointment. I have kept my promise to myself and my children have as well. My therapist has cancelled on me once in three years because of illness and my daughter's therapist has done the same. I have kept all my appointments even though I had opportunities to work for overtime that day. In other words, I would sacrifice a large amount of money to do two things: 1) I need the help & 2) I support my local economy. My family have contributed nearly $17,000 in insurance payments and copays(downloaded all my claims and added it up). Last week, my daughter was vomiting. We rescheduled her appointment for the following week. We got a call the next day that we would be billed for the cancelled visit. Now, I understand the policy of canceled appointments, but for a client that has contributed nearly $20K and has never cancelled in the past, you would think that that would count for some leeway. I do care about the people in the office and so I thought bringing in a young teen with a fever and vomiting and possibly infecting her therapist (further causing her to lose money). Their explanation was that they want to apply the policy to everyone and not play favorites. Now, I have no desire to continue with threapy or have any loyalty to this office.
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