Camellia

@sober4life I cried when I read yr post saying that that is your last post. It breaks my heart. You are like a family to me, just like all the members here in DF. Your posts in DF always touches my heart. Many of yr posts touches me deeply. Im stronger knowing that Im not alone with this life.

@Nightjar Tyvm Nightjar. This is very helpful. I dont know how to go to other threads in Depression Central. I also will feel lost if DF is worsening due to the problem it's having now. I dont post a lot, but having a place for me to call home, make me feel stronger. I will be there as soon as I can.

@sober4life This is very sad. Pls dont go . I will miss u badly.

Me too, if we do move, please include me. DF is my second home. Reading members posts in here make me stronger because I know Im not alone with this life.

@runninghope The spammers has entered the forum

@iWantRope I agree with you. @gandolfiication is very good in expressing himself (his postings). I dont know how to express myself except a few words.

@surfcaster Me too. This place has become my home and everybody in here is like a family to me. This place and all of you here has given me strength to keep going.

Thats why Im scared of people. I dont know to whom j can talk to in real life.

@UserNotFound Im sorry you hv anger issues. Im sorry I dont hv anything to help you. But i can relate with that uncomfortable feeling. I dont trust people in real life. I always feel unsafe whenever Im out there. I dont know how to overcome this either. Whenever I go to sleep, I hope I never wake up, so that I dont hv to face the world again. You are not alone. We are here with you.

Im glad u hv a potential new female friend. I hope everything goes well with her.

Thank you Evergreen for the advise. I feel exactly the same, I feel I can never win. I dont know what to achieve either. And the voice is always there whispering. If Im not working, I hv the music or tv ON non stop. It helps to divert. Any silence moment, the whisper will get stronger.

For me, when I sleep at night, and tomorrow morning I find out that Im still alive. Every night when I sleep, I want to die in my sleep.

I dont know how it feels to like ourselves. I really dont know. I confused a lot. I dont know how to describe it here.

Im sorry you are having this problem. I have exactly or almost the same problem like you do with my mum and my siblings. I can relate to you. Im outcasted and the blacksheep of the family too. Im sorry you are not able to move out from there. I rented a room because that was the only thing I can afford to do at that time. I was desperate to leave my family's house. That was the first step that I do to survive. I hope you are able to find ways to get away from there.

I can relate to you. I have the same problem. I am alone in the family. We are here with you.