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About PoeticProse

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    Suicide, depression, Alzheimer's disease, bioethics, epilepsy, brain trauma, neuropsychology, neurosurgery, PTSD, harm reduction policy, youth science education, theoretical physics, & cosmology.

    "When different experiments give you the same results, it is no longer subject to your opinion. That's the good thing about science - it's true whether or not you believe in it. That's why it works."
    - Neil deGrasse Tyson, astrophysicist & cosmologist

    "You accept a growing paralysis rather than taking a risk of finding where or towards whom your real passion lies. Is it any wonder you haven't found what drives you yet?... At a certain point, you have to move past the stories that you've assigned to your life; the steadfast explanations that you've settled on years ago. You have to look at yourself again; for real answers. You have to take that risk."
    - Adele, In Treatment, HBO

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  1. PoeticProse


    ghostwriter89, I understand what you are saying, and it is clearly a difficult time with multiple unknowns and sources of confusion. Due to the fact that we create our own reasons for living, a depressive mood can certainly leave us feeling that there is no reason at all. It is a distorted version of our potential as human beings - never really knowing what is possible until we figure it out. While depression may seem to create many questions, it actually is a strong proponent of one simple answer - that life is "pointless." This is because it is not well-informed and does not rely on higher-order thinking. It steals that capacity from us. This may seem a bit basic or inconsequential, but it has been found to be an effective strategy to boost mood. While depression generally causes a loss of pleasure in once-pleasurable activities, resulting in not engaging in those activities, to activate those behaviors anyway can be helpful. Even when it seems pointless and meaningless, and you may have little energy to do so, simply doing those previously pleasurable activities can, in a sense, revivify the experience for the brain. I really hope things start improving - both in your mood and relationship. I recognize that communication may be difficult, and only you would know if that has been ongoing and separate from the depression, or a part of its consequences. Either way, hang in there - you harbor more potential than you know.
  2. PoeticProse

    Does alcohol stop zoloft from working?

    Very interesting stuff, indeed. Just as amazing is how problematic depression can be - it can cause deficits in a wide range of functions beyond the symptoms of anhedonia, anergia, and low mood. It's great that you enjoy learning about these topics - it will serve you well along the way!
  3. Hi nicolescott, I noticed there has not yet been a response to this. Are you trying to get an idea of what medications work well for certain symptoms and how much they generally cost for people?
  4. PoeticProse

    Does alcohol stop zoloft from working?

    Alcohol does have the potential to prevent medications from doing their job - and sometimes result in serious interactions - so your body may just be getting accustomed again. People also vary in their ability to overcome the effects of alcohol. Therefore, the effects of the alcohol on your body likely did not stop the following day. Many people do end up making the mistake of using alcohol with antidepressants, often due to lack of knowledge about the interactions. But there is no reason to suspect that "it's to late" - just speak to your provider and inform him/her of what is going on to ensure that you should continue as usual.
  5. PoeticProse

    Does alcohol stop zoloft from working?

    jacob24787, Certainly seems like a long time, right? Incredibly confusing, I'm sure. Everyone responds differently and alcohol can do some complicated things to the brain. Giving it some more time, especially if you're starting to see improvement again, is a good plan. Keep sharing your journey!
  6. PoeticProse

    Birthday blues

    Hi Numbnumb, Thank you for sharing and welcome to DF - I am sure you will find support in this great community. And Happy Birthday! It is certainly understandable that you would isolate given the reasons you describe. You clearly recognize the potential consequences of this, but when loss is a regular occurrence in someone's life, initiating and maintaining friendships can be extremely tough - seemingly dangerous, at times. But you seem plenty insightful and are in treatment, which are both great signs that will prove advantageous as you continue to recover. I wish you the very best and hope you find DF helpful. I look forward to hearing more from you!
  7. PoeticProse

    Wellbutrin and vision problems

    Hi Codadz, I am so sorry to hear about your long and complicated struggles with accurate diagnosis and treatment. I can only imagine that this is incredibly frustrating and burdensome. I'd be interested to hear what happened at your psychiatry appointment. It is an unfortunate reality that our treatments and diagnostic abilities are limited by our knowledge of the brain and the techniques used to assess it. While different providers may draw different conclusions, they are also likely utilizing knowledge from the previous ones. There is uncertainty regarding the neurology appointments, and the ophthalmologist did not discover problems during his/her examination. Online searches can certainly be helpful and allow for patient autonomy in their healthcare, but can also lead to conclusions that are inaccurate and extremely rare. Each individual presents with unique histories that affects his/her likelihood of developing certain syndromes or side effects. This is why your providers will always know best - your history is a necessary part of the diagnostic process. Have you been told to visit an endocrinologist? This may help to further rule out thyroid issues (implicated in depression) or other issues that may be related to immune system (also implicated in myasthenia gravis). I hope this helps in some fashion. I hope to hear more from you!
  8. PoeticProse

    Feeling tired

    9dee9, Thanks for the update - I wish you luck with your appointment and look forward to more news.
  9. PoeticProse

    So upset.

    Hi jeremiah, I am sorry to hear about these relationship difficulties - they certainly sound very complex and I wish there was a simple answer. I understand that the financial component complicates the situation. At the same time, it seems that there are many aspects of your story that suggest, to me (an outside observer), that you are having difficulties with a wide range of stressors related to the relationship. Further, it seems that you were doing better when you were not speaking to this individual. The subsequent step in this sequence of events appears to be your desire to reconnect. I cannot speculate as to whether or not this is in your best interest, as I only know a few paragraphs of information and know nothing about you and your "ex." However, if your current well-being is what matters to you most and is the thing in which you place the most value, then your post suggests that no contact results in improved mood. I recognize that this may not always be the case - you surely decided to contact him again for a reason. Due to this being such a complicated situation, it may be helpful to jot down your thoughts so that they may be visualized in a more structured fashion. A pros/cons list regarding potential decisions may also serve you well - this should include how you are personally impacted in terms of mood and overall outlook on self and world. You may come to an unforeseeable conclusion, possibly one that you do not particularly like the idea of. But at least you will have the concrete information with which to act. I hope this is helpful. Be sure to keep us posted!
  10. PoeticProse


    Hi Set, I am sorry that it took so long for you to get a response to this. I want to welcome you to DF and hope that you can benefit from the incredibly supportive community. I am sorry to hear that you do not believe that others will understand what you are experiencing - you will certainly find understanding people here. I look forward to hearing more from you!
  11. PoeticProse

    Does alcohol stop zoloft from working?

    Hi jacob24787, Thanks for sharing. I am sorry to hear that you are having a recurrence of depressive symptoms - I can only imagine how frustrating this must be after having these very symptoms managed. Alcohol is certainly something to avoid while taking antidepressant medications. As you may know, alcohol is a depressant and acts against the effects of antidepressants. It does not permanently reverse the effects of your medication if you chose to drink one night, but it should be avoided based on the effects you are currently reporting. I recommend that you inform your provider of your complaints - this may be a process of allowing the medication to take full effect again, or it may require a dosage adjustment - he/she would be in the best position to inform you of this. It is great that you continue to take your medication as prescribed and do not miss doses - keep it up. However, you should certainly inform your provider so that you can continue with a treatment that is based in transparency and full disclosure. I wish you the best with your ongoing treatment - please keep us posted!
  12. PoeticProse

    Hey again; a revival and an explanation.

    Hi MCMG, First, thank you for sharing your story. I am glad to hear that you are beginning to make plans for yourself and look at aspects of your life more positively, in spite of ongoing stressors related to your job dissatisfaction, desire to attend University, and the relational issues with your father. It is great that you recognize toxic relationships. It can be difficult when cultural expectations and norms impact one's ability to remove him/herself from toxicity. Regarding your interest in University, and I am unsure where you would like to attend, are there scholarships and/or opportunities for student loans that you could pursue? I know this can be difficult for a variety of reasons, and family income can be a factor that may reduce opportunity for federal aid if the family earns above-average (which depends on the student's age in the United States). These are things to consider, which will likely be different depending on where you are and where you would like to be for University. What I have taken from your post is generally positive, with a few complex stressors that you are doing your best to manage for your own well-being. Hang in there and keep your goals in mind - continue to do the research on ways to make them happen, and go from there. I hope this response is somewhat helpful. Keep us posted!
  13. PoeticProse

    hearing voices, and things... i guess?

    Hi HELPineedsomebody, I am very sorry to hear that you are having these experiences - they sound frightening and troubling, and probably were not what you were expecting from a medication. I would certainly suggest that you inform your provider of these recent hallucinatory experiences. Regarding feeling like a zombie, this is not an uncommon response while your body becomes accustomed to the medication - generally the sedation and other anticholinergic effects will lessen over time. With the "hearing people," this is where I mentioned that you should call and inform your provider. There is a possibility that the dose simply needs to be increased, which is done with many individuals, or it may be a side effect that your provider will consider aripiprazole-related. Either way, it is something on which you should seek a professional opinion. I hope this is helpful. The fact that you were tolerating the medication fairly well, aside from reported sedation, is a good sign. As long as you keep your provider apprised of the recent experiences you have been facing, you will be staying on track with your treatment. Please be sure to keep us posted!
  14. PoeticProse

    Feeling hopeless

    Hi Nic1991, Thank you for sharing your thoughts and concerns - I am sorry that you are continuing to experience negative thoughts; I can only imagine this is incredibly frustrating and defeating. It is never "too long to get help," so you should not worry about wasting your time. I realize that this is easier said than done, but treatment can certainly prove effective even if you have waiting weeks, months, or years. I understand that you feel that you should feel better following your evaluation, but this is not necessarily the case. You have certainly accomplished the first step - which I think is great - but you are still experiencing the same symptoms and uncertainty surrounding treatment. It, therefore, makes complete sense that you would not feel much better. If depression is all that you know, it can certainly seem like part of your personality because it has contributed to who you are today, in every way. However, depressive symptoms can certainly be treated, which will allow other components of your personality to shine that you may have never truly experienced beforehand. Do not give up hope. You made an excellent decision to seek support through a psychiatrist, and while change will not occur immediately, you are taking the necessary steps to recover. This shows that you are insightful and do desire a different way of life, even if it feels hopeless. I wish you the very best of luck, and hope to hear more from you as you continue along the path to recovery.
  15. Hi anxiousE, I appreciate you sharing - I know I've seen you around DF - especially when you state that it is sometimes difficult to do so. I am sorry to hear that you are experiencing these effects from your current medication regimen. Regarding your concerns about guanfacine - because it has only been one week, conclusions should not necessarily be drawn. It is true that the body must become accustomed to the medication, and initial effects are not always indicative of long-term effects. It is not a stimulant medication like other ADHD medications, but is believed to act in a similar fashion on executive function (attention and working memory, planning, organization, behavioral inhibition, etc.). At the same time, not everyone with ADHD will have these experiences - a history of anxiety can certainly exacerbate these effects. I would recommend speaking to your provider about your anxiety and psychomotor agitation, as well as the mood symptoms to which you are referring (particularly if they began when starting guanfacine). Only he/she knows your history and can determine whether or not this is a reason to consider other options or continue with the plan. With the reported "mixed state," this would be what I noted above that should be discussed with your provider. Generally, someone meeting criteria for Bipolar Disorder, or even suspected to, would not be prescribed an antidepressant as a sole treatment. I am not sure how long you have been taking the antidepressant, but ADs can induce a manic/hypomanic episode in those prone to such mood states - it would not take long for this to occur and likely would not have made you depressed before feeling better. But again, this is definitely something to discuss with your provider. These situations are clearly complex and there is ample overlap - under-treated depression could manifest as ADHD-like symptoms; ADHD medications can exacerbate anxiety in those with a history. However, the best course of action is to follow your provider's instructions and inform him/her of the experiences you are reporting here, specifically the mood-related symptoms. I hope this is somewhat helpful and that you begin to feel better very soon. Be sure to keep us posted!