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  1. Still alive if you can call it that! 

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  2. I am a male aged 36. I get panic or anxiety attacks all the time. Nausea, Virtigo, Sweating, Headaches, muscle twitches or tachycardia are all symptoms I have experiences. Oh plus the DRY HEAVING that happens all the time. I do feel like my soul is trying to leave sometimes as well. Harder to focus on the physicality of the now. Just a thought? Could it be that societies ideas about men being macho or tough/strong lead to an underreporting of males experiencing panic symptoms.
  3. I am very tired over the last week or so. Yawning most of the day. I have gone without soda-pop (high-fructose-corn-syrup-caffeine) for about 10'days and it just hit me how addicted I was to the Caffeine. I can barely stay awake past 10:00 when I was used to being awake til 12:00 or later. Job is going well except for the last week of being tired. Maybe if I exercise then I might feel better. Hard to exercise when you are fat. Hope you are all well. I will update more later. Night!
  4. Thank You All. I suffer from PTSD from a car accident I had back in April 2001 in which I almost died when my car ran off the road and flipped over (3 times according to the Fire Department) and was totaled. The back seats of the car folded down to allow trunk access and both of them ripped off and took the back two doors with them. I was unconscious for what they think was an hour or so and had 4 bruised Ribs, 2 broken ribs, a broken hand, and many cuts and scrapes. If I had gone off the road just a half-mile down the road I would have plummeted off a cliff. A Veterinarian found me and called 911! In response to the person above: I had intense headaches for about 2-3 weeks after I started the medication. I asked my pharmacist if I could take the pills before bed as opposed to in the morning as I thought it might alleviate the pain. On a 1-10 pain scale I would say the headaches were about a 6/7 and I was loosing sleep and just having an overall terrible reaction to the new medication. My Doctor told me to give the medication some time and take some Excedrine (spelling?). The pills were also making me violently sick to my stomach and nauseous. I was afraid to leave the house cause I felt like throwing up and did on occasion. I used to dry heave a lot as a symptom of my anxiety and depression but this was more like Flu nausea. I also had what others have described as "Brain Shocks." After two of the worst weeks of my life my Doctor told me that we would gradually taper me off of the meds and try something else. He told me to continue taking my pills for a week and then break them in half and take half a pill then break them in thirds and take 1/3 of a pill for a week till they were gone. Sometime during the 4th week, when I was taking only 1/2 (50mg) of a pill the symptoms started to go away and when I told my Doctor that he told me to continue with the full dose (100mg) and see what happened. After about 6 weeks of pills (100mg) all of the Headaches and "Brain Fog" went away. Other than the occasional bought of crippling Nausea and random fits of Sweating there is nothing else wrong with the pills and my dose. I was having heart palpitations from the anxiety/depression that almost hospitalized me on 4 seperate occasions. Those Heart Palpitations are now gone. (100% gone) I do not have an urge to sleep all day and can get out of bed before noon. I have not had a crippling panic attack in 3 years. I am employed now. (Well I start on Saturday) Please let me know if there is anything else I can do to help or more about my story I can share.
  5. hayu-masi (many thanks) Well I am 4.5 years into my Zoloft (Generic) and my Nausea and Upset Stomach come and go but oh my! when it comes it feels like I need to barf and do not want to eat anything. I still do that dry heaving/gagging but less often. I would gladly take this evil nausea and upset stomach over the way things were before. I just Got a Job at a Kroger affiliate (3 days ago) and talk about jumping outside my comfort zone here the Nausea and upset stomach are kicking in hard and I am very tired. My Body is trying to find a way to force me to hide again but I just ate a plate of lasagne and am watching Star Trek TNG and the lasagne is not comming up if I have any darn thing to say about it. I have had nausea and upset stomach for 4.5 years as well as odd random sweating (but I am fat so sweating is to be expected). I do not know if the Zoloft is making me nauseasious or if it's trying to mask the anxiety-nausea I already have? My life on Zoloft (it's the generic kind that I cannot spell) is 1000% better than without it and I would have never applied for a Job 4 years ago. I was just going in for an interview and was not expecting to be hired on but the manager said that I was perfect for the part time job and they would love to welcome me aboard. I was just so giddy/fake-anxiety-giddy after being hired on (pending the background check/drug check) I kinda didn't give myself any time for the anxiety/depression to kick in as it usually does but today (2 days later) damn is it rearing its ugly head. I also just need a place to express or vent my emotions and this place has always felt safe for me to do that. Thanks for reading this. I will probably update when my next nausea/stomach fit comes in after this one subsides in a week or so.
  6. hayu-masi (many thanks) Peach. Well I am 4.5 years into my Zoloft (Generic) and my Nausea and Upset Stomach come and go but oh my! when it comes it feels like I need to barf and do not want to eat anything. I still do that dry heaving/gagging but less often. I would gladly take this evil nausea and upset stomach over the way things were before. I just Got a Job at a Kroger affiliate (3 days ago) and talk about jumping outside my comfort zone here the Nausea and upset stomach are kicking in hard and I am very tired. My Body is trying to find a way to force me to hide again but I just ate a plate of lasagne and am watching Star Trek TNG and the lasagne is not comming up if I have any darn thing to say about it.
  7. I think I was just experiencing anxiety over the change in pills. Over a year now and nothing is wrong with them any more.
  8. I was looking for some other people who might have dealt with this issue. See, I have a small pain in my upper right chest area that started Monday evening. Within a few minutes I had researched all the problems it could be and then convinced myself that I had a major problem and not just a pulled muscle, the flu, or something like indigestion. I constantly use the Internet to see what might be the problem, get the worst possible results, then believe I have the condition/problem and it increases my Anxiety 200% and I become more depressed and afraid. I even sometimes make myself sick. It's hard to write this! Oh, and I am also morbidly obese and that dissent help much.
  9. I take 100 MG. I ran out of medicine because my pharmacist shipped it to my house two days late. Those two days were the worst two days I ever had. Shocks through the whole body and so many withdrawl symptoms I just wanted to die. My doctor told me that if I was ever short on pills I should take 1/2 a pill until the new dosage arrived. 50MG for two days is better than no MG.
  10. Zoloft is my best friend. (Okay my best friends are Tomas and Jedd and my sister) I was becoming so anxiety prone that even the mention of riding in a car with others, hearing a news story about Earthquakes, or many other things would trigger a panic attack or even make me think I might be having a heart attack. My panic attacks would be so severe that I would sometimes need to sit in my safe chair, cover myself with a Blanket, and scream till I fell asleep. They could last for over an hour at times. The panic attacks were even worse when I was in a car or outside and the shaking of trees made me think the earth was shaking. Put these anxiety problems together with someone whose Great-Great-Great-Great-Grandpa was unjustly hanged by the Federal Government and whose people have endured 160 years of historical trauma and mix that together with severe Deoression that runs in the family so much that My Great Grandfather and 3 other family members have been institutionalsed for depression and you have Me. Before Zoloft my days would run from (on the 0-100 scale where 0 is Hell and 100 is the best day ever) about a 5 to a 10. Well today I am about a 60-70 thanks to Zoloft and its generic form which I cannot remember how to spell the damned name. Hope!
  11. My Native People are banishing me from my Tribe and from my identity as a Native being and person. It is called Dissenrollment and it hurts my whole being to be tossed aside like trash just because of the political whim of some in power. I hurt every day; both mentally/spiritually and physically.

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      TotoroHat

      I just want to cry forever. My ancestors hear my pain but they cannot come to my aid as the tribe continues to deny me access to my belief systems and religious rights as an indigenous being.

  12. I am at 100 Mg.... I have been on the Zoloft for 3 years now!
  13. I am still taking the same Generic, name and all but someone one else Manu factored the pill.
  14. I have been talikg Sertaline 100mg for almost 3 years. Just recently, my pharmacy/health clinic told me that there was a chance some of my meds might look different cause they might have bought them from another manufacturer. I believe this is ok but after taking my "same pills at 100mg but different shaped pills," for 2 days I now have this intense brain fog, something so bad I have not had since before I began the Zoloft back in 2012! Any thoughts? Maybe it will wear off in a few days. I also have intense upset stomach but that comes and goes.
  15. I just started a new program at the behest of my phycologist/talking doctor and I am hoping that it works out cause my life is a complete mess at the moment. Depression and ADHD and anxiety and stress is ruining my life. Some days i do not know how I can go on but magically I somehow manage to wake up the next morning and crawl out of the dankness that is my bed. If you are old enough to remember when MOE from the Simpsons talked about getting rid of "The Dank" in his bar, then thats what I feel like when I get up except that I cling to the Dank like its a vital part of my life and my house looks like I feel inside which means my house is not the cleanest place in the world. You see there is a constant battle inside me between myself and my other-self. One part of me wants me to remain locked in my room sitting in the dank where it can hide out and avoid the world. This "self" makes me sick, makes me feel tired, makes me sad, stresses me out, and does anything it can to get me to stay in that room and avoid the world. It convinces me that there are earthquakes happening all the time and that I need to hide under the bed and tells me that I am sick and in Pain and then tries to force me into the room. Sometimes that "self" does a good job of getting me to stay in my room and I listen to that self, but some times that "self" does to much harm to me that I feel the need to escape from that "self" into an even more dank and depressed self where I just sit in a corner and wait out the world hoping that it will pass me by. This is the self where by there I need to sink even deeper into my depression as to avoid the perils of the depression that I usually feel. I am sick all the time because of my depression and with "self" number two I can avoid that sickness by sitting in a corner and just zoning out from the world. Nothing can hurt me when i am in my corner sitting on my chair. (I was sitting on the floor but my back gave out and I moved into a chair.) There however is a third "self"..... I am not sure what to call this "self." This self is battling the other selves and doing its best to go outside and explore the world and to work towards bettering myself. This self has to battle through the tired and sick depressed self and the even more depressed self just to wake up in the morning and do something with my day, This "self" is tired and hurts and is sick most of the time cause the other "selfs" are trying to win me over and force me inside. This self got up at 7:00 this morning and showered and got dressed and made breakfast and then has done nothing since 9:00.... thats 3 hours of doing nothing. This third "self" gets to tired some times and has to force itself to move and do anything. It is a battle just to do anything during the day. Sure I get up and then shower but now I do nothing... I wana hide in my room but cannot because I have to fight that urge.... So tired! I am 30! My therapist has me on a new "plan" where by I have a schedule to follow every day and I force myself to stick with that schedule. Its been 7 days on that plan and I am not sure if it is working or not. The plan has me in Bed every night by 10:00 PM and awake at 7:00 in the morning and I shower and eat before 8:00 and then get on with my day. I struggle even with that. I am so tired of feeling sick and tired and just want to have some energy to battle this depression!
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