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Thank you Saw my therapist today and also am adding wellbutrin to my daily effexor meds. Hopefully this will allow me to function a little better. After 1-1/2 yrs. of regular therapy and trial and error on different meds. it got rather discouraging. I started listening to an audible book "The noon day demon", it really woke me up into taking a more aggressive approach toward making changes. Still in the early stages, but at least hopeful.

Currently one 75mg Effexor, had been on Celexa for many years then decided I needed a change. The Celexa just made me feel numb most of the time and tired. Started Therapy about 18 months ago, has helped in some issues, not in some others. Went to see a Psychiatrist to get new meds. First was Wellbutrin, had little effect, doubled to 150mg. Loads of energy, couldn't sleep, agitated state, ego out of control, blood pressure up, but sure did like the energy it gave me. Next was Prozac (had worked for me years ago) did not seem to feel anything, then on to Effexor 75mg. Feeling okay some of the time, then decline into a depressed state. I am feeling frustrated, how am I supposed to feel if I am on the right medication and the right dosage? Happy? Numb? Energized? Am seeing my Therapist tomorrow and am going to push for some answers.

Maybe you could put the numbers in a more positive perspective? Stop and buy a lottery ticket and play only numbers with ones in them! Ya never know.....I was watching a show just last week "How the Lottery Changed my Life" and the guy on there said he'd never played it before but had a dream where some numbers popped up in his head so he bought a ticket on his way home from work and won! I don't remember how much, but it worked. Stranger things have happened...... Nice idea, thank you.

First time ever writing to a forum, so much to share but having trouble starting. Depression has been with me as long as I can remember. For the last 1-1/2 yrs. I have been to steady counseling and tried different meds., yet my friend shadows me, today especially. I have stopped therapy for now, seeing the Psych next week for advice on new meds. This is really gonna sound weird (well, maybe not). For the last few years, maybe 5+ I constantly see the numbers 111 and 1111 on the clock, maybe 3-6 times a week. I thought perhaps that the end of my life would be on 11-11-11(not by my doing). Have thought about it alot these last few days. It seems today like it would be such a relief.