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My house is almost finished. What a year long journey this has been. Final Inspection with the county next Weds. I got to ring my new doorbell tonight. That made me happy :-) The evening sky was brilliant tonight...and hundreds of frogs were serenading me. I am feeling very blessed and full of gratitude tonight.

Spot on Mr. Shadow. 488, I agree with everything Mr. Shadow has to say. This will be my 3rd Valentines Day alone. Throughout my life people have told me how pretty I am...my standard response is "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". What a real turn on for me in a man is self confidence. I agree that it's truly important to learn how to love ourselves first. So I'm buying myself some beautiful flowers and a box of chocolates and having a nice quite night at home...by myself :-)

Spot on Mr. Shadow. 488, I agree with everything Mr. Shadow has to say. This will be my 3rd Valentines Day alone. Throughout my life people have told me how pretty I am...my standard response is "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". What a real turn on for me in a man is self confidence. I agree that it's truly important to learn how to love ourselves first. So I'm buying myself some beautiful flowers and a box of chocolates and having a nice quite night at home...by myself :-)

"Just snap out of it" "Oh, you're just going through menopause"

Hi Augie, Welcome to DF. I'm glad you found us! I also have PTSD, depression and anxiety. I think it's a really good idea to see your Dr. again. Maybe they will prescribe you something different. Have you thought about seeing a therapist? I have found that to be very helpful as well. I found out the hard way that going cold turkey off meds is not a good idea. It was rough. I hope you find some relief soon. DF has been very helpful to me. There are some very compassionate and understanding people here. I hope you find the support you need. Take gentle care, Trilher

Hi Stevewilliam, Welcome to DF. I am fairly new here myself...but have found this forum a place that has been helpful for me to give and receive support. You are not alone in your feelings...I was almost where you at about a month ago. Even bathing or getting out of bed was very difficult. I too was having very dark thoughts...and looked forward to the day when I didn't have to feel them anymore. I knew I needed help and joined this forum and sought out a doctor and a therapist. I was put on Wellbutrin 300mg and Lexapro 10 mg. I have also been seeing a therapist for about a month now and have found it helpful. Do you notice that the weather impacts your depression? Have you had your Vitamin D levels and your hormone levels checked? With my meds, therapy and this forum...I have noticed a change in the better of how I'm feeling. Don't give up hope...there's light at the end of the tunnel....oh, what I would give to hear a few minutes of your son's laughter. I watch videos on youtube of babies laughing. I live on 5 acres in the middle of nowhere...and have very limited social contact. That isolation has made my depression even worse. I make it a point to drive into town once a week. I force myself to see a friend once a week, even if it's just for coffee and the social interaction. I'm glad you found DF. I hope it brings you the support you're looking for. Take gentle care, Trilher

Hi Curtis, I haven't been here long, but appreciate the things that you have posted. You are an inspiration to me and others and it would be sad to see you go. If you need to do this for your own good, I do understand...but hope you will return when you are ready. We await you with open arms. Take gentle care, Trilher

I think it's an excellent idea! I do this before all of my doctors appts. I list any new meds I'm on, any new vitamins I'm taking, level of emotions, level of exercise I've been doing and any major events in life. I also list my current weight (I'm having challenges eating and am having issues with not gaining weight) and what my diet and sleep levels are. I find all of my doctors really appreciate this and if I write it down, I won't forget it. It gives them a running history for their files that they can refer back to. Hope this works out well for you, Christina :-) Take gentle care, Trilher

I too feel similar to Huge. DF has really been a big help to me. As I am alone and unable to work, DF has made me feel less isolated, put me in touch with people who really understand how I am feeling and gives me a way to contribute back in a positive manner. I'm not on here everyday, but the days I am, I receive motivation from others to keep on trucking. I really appreciate DF and all that provides for me in life right now. Take gentle care, Trilher

I'm in the same boat you are Christina... Lauryn, I can relate....my "What if demon" consumes me at times...I'm trying so hard to learn to give it a rest. (((Fizzle))) hope things turn around for you soon. Take gentle care, Trilher

Welcome to DF, Idudeus. I hope you find the support here that you're looking for. Many compassionate and understanding people here. I too suffer from depression, anxiety as well as PTSD. I have found this forum very helpful. Take gentle care, Trilher

Hi Urock, Welcome to DF. I'm sorry you are dealing with anxiety and depression. You've come to a great place for compassionate support. There are a lot of great people here. Congratulations on your new dating relationship! Take gentle care, Trilher

Fear of failure, for sure... Living alone for the first time in my life at age 58. Can I take care of myself and the responsibilities of being a home owner? That my fibro will return with a full vengeance. Fear of trying to begin a new relationship.

I am thankful for DF...I don't feel quite so alone when I come here. I am thankful for a full tummy and my appetite which was missing for so long.. I am thankful for the snow covered mountains. Their beauty makes me feel closer to my Higher Power.

Dream sweet all.