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  1. i developed these problems when aged 8. my grandpa died. next day it was like where am i. and i couldnt be around people. i spent the next years right up to age 20 not being able to function, tired all the time, oversleeping, waking up tired. i have never had ANY confidence. i tried cialopram it did nothing. paroxetine made me awake. and looking back for the first few months on it i felt positive and i had hardly any negative thoughts it really worked. then it just made me feel awake and the negative thoughts returned i was forced by jobcentre into a charity shop and it has built positive thoughts, helped me to love myself. i still feel social anxiety. all my life i have been uncomfortable just walking down the street and even now still am, even though i work in the shop. i just cant think im always on autopilot never trying anything new. i dont know what to do if to try another medication. its low confidence, possible atypical depression and social anxiety its almost as if i react negatively to anything negative and staying positive is near to impossible please help
  2. what medication would help combat anxiety caused by wellbutrin taken with an ssri
  3. i was wondering if anybody had tried modafinil alone or in combination with other medications particularly ssris. does modafinil work in a similar way to wellbutrin and reboxetine. has anyone had any success with reboxetine alone or with a ssri. i read it was good for social anxiety but havent seen comments about it. has it helped anybody
  4. when i first started taking paroxetine ssri it seemed to work better, it eliminated negative thoughts/thinking. it was amazing. i was wondering whether this where/why people use augmenting agents. i mean i still have the mental anxiety now but the paroxetine ssri is still controlling sweating and physical symptoms well other than racing heart. i suppose i could have tried a beta blocker. i was wondering if something like an NDRI such as wellbutrin or reboxetine would/might have helped and whether by augmenting in general people hope to banish ALL of the mental anxiety etc. if thats even possible?? i suppose it comes back to the assumption that antidepressants are not happy pills or a panacea for your depression etc.
  5. yes i mean i was forced by jobcentre into the charity shop. all my life i have not felt comfortable walking down the street since age 8. i am 24 now. when i was forced in i could barely walk through the door and had all the mental anxiety going on in my head. the worst problem was the pounding heart however which i think in retrospect would have tried a beta blocker for. i did think of trying an NRDI such as reboxetine or wellbutrin. i was wondering if by taking these alongside paroxetine ssri if it would have helped mental anxiety. when i first started taking parxoetine it seemed to work better and actually remmoved negative thoughts. i was wondering if augmenting with NDRI would have helped taht maybe. the other day i went for a run and felt amazing for the next few hours afterwards, possibly due to dopamine release.?? i always felt my social anxeity might be linked to dopamine
  6. hi :) a friend of mine who has been diaganosed as having general anxiety disorder has been on beta blocker propanolol. i asked him if it helps and he said he didnt feel as though it did. as far as i know he said he takes a single dose. is he maybe taking it the wrong time of day or is it like ssris where different ones for different people does anybody know anymore on this subject feeback would be much appreciated
  7. I was wondering is it low self esteem responsible for many people or do some people feel confident for myself personally I can see it's hating myself low self esteem. medication only served to keep me awake. confidence was from charity shop work which has been better than any medication. i was forced into the charity shop by jobcentre at age 23 i didnt feel despite being on medication that i could do it/anything still due to no confidence. i really struggled to walk through the door and the heart was pounding. from age 8 ive been uncomfortable to walk down the street, only went to school,college and uni as parents wanted me to, with no real end goal or even thinking about what i wanted to do or thinking about jobs even!! i think in retrospect a beta blocker might have been useful. but yes the mental anxiety/depression was all there when first starting. before the charity shop i used to exercise but it ony reduced stress. now it elevates mood for a few hours afterwards, possibly due to dopamine. i think its helped me to love myself which i dont think any medication could do for me. however i dont know when i first started ssri paroxetine it did seem to work better and i had no negative thoughts at all. i think this is where i am left wondering i realise it is self esteem/ core negativwe beliefs that has improved with forced charity work (something i didnt think i could do). i really did hate every fibre of my being for some reason before. i still get a lot of thoughts like waht is the point etc. (depression still?) only now have i even thought about relationships etc. and it was like realising i have a life separate from that of my parents. i am still very unsure/uncomfortable about letting other people in due to being scared of rejection etc. i do still search the forums etc. as i wonder if something like a dopamine reuptake inhibitor such as wellbutrin or reboxetine (i hear is good for social anxeity and depression) alongside paroxetine would have augmented the effect i felt when i first started paroxetine and it banished negative thoughts. thank you for taking the time to read this and any thoughts/feedback would be great/much appreciated.
  8. I was wondering is it low self esteem responsible for many people or do some people feel confident for myself personally I can see its hating myself low self esteem. Medication only served to keep me awake. Confidence was from charity work which has been better than any medication.
  9. i have read people take this medication and it makes their anxiety worse but it is classed as an antianxiety medication. is this due to its action on norepinephrine. i see its used to augment ssris but mostly i read it is for the sexual side effects induced by ssris as opposed to helping an ssri work better. i suppose there is the problem of how everyone responds differently so wont know unless you try it too. would it work well with paoxetine.
  10. i have been on paroxetine and have to say it was quite good. made me awake helped sleep better no sweating. it didnt remove negative thoughts or give confidence but i was forced into a charity shop by the jobcentre and despite being on paroxetine really struggled to walk through the door i had no confidence/was depressed. it was just horrible even on medication which was working. the worst symptom was the heart pounding out of the chest symptom something at the time paroxetine didnt help with. i was wondering if i had been on a beta blocker also whether that might have helped with the heart rate. and if its safe to use paroxetine with any beta blocker. if there is better beta blocker. longer lasting one. or if one works best with paroxetine. would you take a beta blocker everyday if needed. but the charity work has been helping raise self esteem etc.
  11. i do hope this doesnt mean i genuinely was a bad person before
  12. yes i would say charity shop work with the right environment has helped a lot more than medication which only served to make me more awake. i jsut dont know how to continue and keep loving myself when i have hated myself my whole life
  13. hi :) yes ive noticed that personally the charity shop work in a good environment has helped more than medication !!! i started to think i was a nice person and it steadily got better from there. i started to realise that it was about giving but then it is still difficult to stand up to nasty people and for myself. i started to see myself in a more positive light i am too harsh on myself, my own worst enemy. hated myself.
  14. I'm interested to know about pregabalin. recently there has been talk of it as a wonder drug. I'm on paroxetine it made me feel awake and hid the sweating. not build confidence or change thought patterns.only by being forced by jobcentre into a charity shop have the thoughts changed. I've read people say pregabalin has made them more confident/social. or is just more a case of more awake. They say antidepressants aren't happy pills. I still never had a sense of humour until after the charity work despite being on ssri paroxetine medication.
  15. when talking to people do other people feel that the person does not like them/is thinking negatively of them at all.
  16. i was wondering what medications people had found success with when used in conjunction with paroxetine/seroxat. if it helped paroxetine to work better/more effectively
  17. i am sorry to hear that i havent had paid work before and im 24. ive found paroxetine helps me feel much more awake. i had a lot of horrible core negative beliefs e.g. i dont need anyone, people arent worth it etc. and i really do not know why/where these came from, just developed when i first developed depression at 8 years old. not really liking people in general nothing in particular about people though and i suspected because i didnt like/love myself but instead for some reason hated myself. This has become more apparent after i was forced into a charity shop by jobcentre. Fortunately on medication i could just about face up to it. since age 8 i have struggled to leave the house etc. just getting through the door of the shop, i felt sick. after being placed on the shop till however it occurred to me in my mind for the first time i am a nice person and gradually things have improved from there a bit. i think this is where i started to notice/become aware of the self hatred and gradually saw myself in a more positive light, started to like myself more. All the time however i have been in the shop over a year, i have felt as though the shop manageress can tell there is something wrong with me, not quite right from slow to think/concentrate to how i struggle to take information in. my mind always wonders still what she makes of me, if she likes me etc. when i know i should just be able to like myself to be healthier, truly happy. please can i ask does this make me a horrible person or is that just depression/low self esteem/next to no confidence talking etc. its like before the shop i didnt care about anything. :( and have only managed to this day due to my mam who has looked after me. is the fact i am asking still for other peoples approval of i am a horrible person etc. a bad sign
  18. how do you begin to learn to like/love yourself if affirmations dont help
  19. i was wondering what medication actually does or in what way it helps people. i developed depression when i was 8 and i was constantly tired etc. negative core beliefs etc. didnt like people was a common thought nothing specific just in general and i believe this is because i didnt/dont like myself. i never had any confidence. when i went to the doctors forced by parents i was put on citalopram which did nothing up to 60mg. i asked to go on paroxetine/seroxat i heard it had bad side effects/withdrawal but i was tired of the suffering. i read it was very good for social anxiety and depression. social anxiety has always been big problem for myself just walking down the street, forced to school, college and uni by parents. the medication actually made me feel very awake for the first time ever. I believe for the first months it worked best/better then lost some of its effectiveness etc. if that makes sense. i was forced by jobcentre into charity shop and gradually that has built up my confidence, i am now seeing thoughts and questioning them etc. before the charity shop i would read about positive statements/affirmations etc. but they never seemed to work. now these good positive thoughts are starting to appear in my mind automatically but it is not due to the medication but the charity shop work. the medication just made/makes me awake it didnt do anything for confidence etc. or give positive thoughts etc. i apologise for the length of this but i thought it best i describe my experience. What i really want to know is if a medication has helped anyone and how it has helped in terms of just making you awake or helping with more positive thoughts or both. Thank you i appreciate any feedback.
  20. hi i was wondering for those people in work how it is when your boss and/or work colleagues know you have depression etc. from just interacting with them to permission for sick leave etc.
  21. i went to mind group party this afternoon and as i thought i was out of place. ive been unable to go out my home since age 8, get through school, college by being constantly tired and listening to negative thoughts in my head. unable to make any friends nor even wanting to. so yes whole of party (which could only go to as charity work has helped a bit and that was forced and on medication). couldnt have done it without medication. anyway whole of party wishing i was home reading or doing something more enjoyable. ive never really been to a party due to not being comfortable walking down street all my life just about able to walk past people to get to bar. then uncomfortble feeling when other people dancing and trying to make me. well i didnt/couldnt pretend to dance. ive onlyjust started dancing at home by myself and thats only because of the charity shop exposure while on medication and on giving up addiction. and all the time thinking i dont really like people there etc. i have deserved every one of those 16 years constantly tired. if i dont like myself i cant really like or care for/about others. and worse people (parents) might think im actually a nice person. i wont be going next year.
  22. hi thank you for the replies. i posted earlier about being this way since age 8. forced by jobcentre into charity shop etc. whilst on medication and only then thinking i should take care of myself etc. at 24 years of age. it wouldnt have happened without the forced exposure im sure. and even now im struggling to function etc. i live with my parents and they dont think there is or has ever been a problem. they look after me well though. i know i need to change or continue to change more. i have never thought of ******* myself despite not being able to walk down the street from 8-24. but have never really bothered to look after myself either. would this warrant mental hospital if struggle in future do you think?
  23. i developed social anxiety when my grandpa died when i was 8. it just came on out of nowhere. couldnt be around anyone even parents to some extent. i was forced into a charity shop by jobcentre but luckily i managed to do it because of medication. before medication i couldnt really walk down the street from 8-24. after being in the shop i started thinking i was a nice person etc. and that i need to take care of myself etc.which i know is terrible. im deeply ashamed. i have just never had any confidence. and even now in the shop where i stay on now as a volunteer i just never feel like really doing anything etc. and find it difficult concentrating around other people. please help
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