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  1. Sorry I didn't respond sooner, I've been busy with work and haven't been around the forum for awhile. I hope you found the Paxil worked well for you! I'm on 37.5 mg of Paxil ER. Unfortunately, all that great weight loss and craving-disappearing stopped after almost a year on Paxil. Haven't been able to lose any more lbs. and I'm battling my sugar addiction again. Have no idea why. It's still working great for the depression though! Haven't done any further research on the issue yet either. I really should... my job is so demanding that I just never find the time.
  2. I have found the amino acid Tyrosine to be somewhat helpful to increase dopamine and improve my motivation/energy.
  3. Everything works better in the beginning until my body develops tolerance, even suppliments. :verysad3: Does anyone else experience the opposite? When the meds I've been on for awhile don't work as well and I stop taking them, right after I stop I'll feel great for awhile. It's like the change kicks my body/mind into happy mode or something. Come to think of it, even my diet is like that. When I first starting eating healthy I felt great. After about a year I started feeling blah again, tired and run down. I started eating crap again and felt terrific! Now after a few weeks of that I'm ready to go back to healthy eating again. Weird.
  4. Miracle cure -- lots and lots of chocolate! Always worked for me. I always said women should be allowed by law to have at least two extra sick days every month so they don't have to go to work during the worst of it if they don't want to. I've read that to Native Americans "Moontime" was a sacred spiritual time, and the women retreated from regular life to a special lodge for the duration. It makes sense, I know I always wanted to retreat to my bed with chocolate and just be with myself. It can be a spiritual experience, but in our society they don't allow for that. Wow, I almost miss it... NOT. Now I think if I didn't have to go to work and could have done what the Natives did it wouldn't have been a negative experience at all, but since that's not how we live today... life is great without periods. No more feeling like crap for one week every month. I'm free.
  5. I have yet to find a GP. The last one I tried kept harping on depression when I knew my problem was physical. Doctors usually don't like me because I don't treat them like gods. That's okay 'cause I don't much like them either. I absolutely adored my surgeon though. I have high standards. My pdoc is okay. It's a place to get my meds. Sometimes she's annoying. I have to say though, when I finally had that breakthrough of finding the right med I was excited to share the great news with her and it felt good to see how happy she was that she had helped me.
  6. Now that you have provided more information, I'm not sure I would still offer the same advice. I was assuming he was totally bonded with you and didn't realize that he is acting depressed as well. I would suggest though, that you make every effort to find him a home yourself rather than taking him to a shelter. Can your brother take him? (since they seem to get on well). I understand your feelings now. Or, you could consider getting another dog for a playmate for him. Maybe a cat or an older dog would be more suited to you, one that's over the playful stage and slowing down. Cats don't require as much attention, although they can get lonely too depending on the personality. Good luck, whatever you choose. And if you do find him another home, don't feel guilty over it. You are doing it for him and now from the further details you've provided I think he might be happier.
  7. Just my opinion, but if the only thing they're doing to try and help you is put you on one AD after another, maybe you should consider finding another doctor. In my experience sometimes doctors can develop 'tunnel vision' with us and if we've been depressed they'll automatically attribute every medical issue we have to depression. If the charts say you should be at 600 then you're obviously low! Have you asked the doc why she feels such a low level is normal for your age? I guess you have health insurance that requires specialist referals, bummer. So why can't she give you one, just so you can have an expert second opinion? Yeah, change doctors. That's ridiculous. You also might try the suppliment DHEA in the meantime. I've read it helps some men. Good luck!
  8. Just IMHO. He loves you. You are not cheating him. All he wants is to be with you, and it would be tramatic for him to be seperated from you. It would be like a rejection, because he's just a dog and has no idea you're doing this "for his own good." All he knows is that, once again, he has been given up by someone who doesn't want him. It could change his personality, he could develop behavioral problems that his next owners (if he had any) would not tolerate. As long as you don't physically abuse him, he will do fine with you -- where he wants to be. Just watch his diet, since he doesn't get much exercise. Especially when we're depressed, we also can benefit greatly having a loving companion who loves us just as we are, unconditionally. I don't think it would be good for you to isolate yourself even more by removing a pet from your life. You are NOT cheating him. You love him, and you're doing the best you can. You would be cheating both of you if you got rid of him. I hope you will let him stay and allow him to love you. That's what he wants and needs.
  9. I would love to have this! Is it expensive? Does insurance cover? Let us know how it goes. I have a pdoc appointment on Friday, I think I'm going to ask her about it.
  10. Maybe you could try listening to a CD or download of an NLP session first to decide if it might be for you? I went to a few group classes when I lived in Florida, that were very cheap (5$ per). I enjoyed them and they definitely relaxed and calmed me, but I'm not sure it can really help without quite a few sessions. Some people will be very open to NLP while others won't. Does this coach offer recordings of his sessions? I'm open to trying lots of different alternate things, but I have a limit on the amount of money I'm willing to pay. Whatever you decide, good luck.
  11. Or, even if you have to go to a pdoc to get the meds, that doesn't mean you'll need therapy. I go to my psych every 3 months for my meds. It was her opinion that I had a good handle on my problems and how to fix, so she said I didn't need therapy (unless I really felt I wanted/needed it). Psychiatrists prescribe meds. Psychologists do therapy. And her fees are about the same as a GP, and covered through my insurance. The benefits of a pdoc rather than GP is that they are much more expert in the area of diagnosing mental illness and prescribing pmeds. Good luck.
  12. I even avoid thinking of the good times, because it's too painful. The really bad times are often fine to think about because I can feel grateful they're over with! My depression is under control now but hey -- my life still sucks! I am optimistic that I can continue changing things for the better, and I'm motivated to do so, but nonetheless that's reality.
  13. Going fine. I've done some research and there are many people who take both. As you said, no problem.
  14. This is a great thread! I'm glad to see people discussing the subject of stimulants without all the negative reaction you usually get. I don't quite understand it -- people can talk about how they've been on benzos for years and they are addictive too; that's accepted but yet mention stimulants and often you get yelled at. Where is all this prejudice coming from? They're both addictive and potentially abused. Yet somehow it's okay to take something for anxiety but if you're experiencing lethargy and anhedonia you just want to get high. It's just a drug like all the others. Even SSRI's like Paxil are physically addicting and he** to get off of. Under normal circumstances I wouldn't want to take a stimulant. Unfortunately, I've battled those problems for many years and I have a lot going against me. I work an overnight shift. If I have stuff to do during the day on weekends, for me it's like doing errands in the middle of the night. I'm always tired. My job requires attention to detail and punishes errors made (up to the point of termination). It's very stressful. I don't sleep well. I would love to try something like nuvigil or provigil, but it's unlikely my pdoc would prescribe it. She's obsessed with sleep and when I tell her how hard it is for me she just pushes more ambien and klonopin on me. Tried wellbutrin, it did not help at all and made me so angry all the time it was putting my job in danger. Ambien causes me to sleep-eat, and it's getting to the point of worrysome how I may not have any control over what I do while under the influence. And I don't even take it every day! I honestly don't think living on Red Bull and sugar is much healthier than taking a stim. Lucky for me -- ha, ha -- I'm also obese. My MD is putting me on a diet plan that will probably include a prescription appetite suppressant. Hopefully I'll get some relief from the brain fog for a few months. Working on getting switched to a normal day shift, which will probably do a world of good. The point of this post is that some people also are looking to stimulants to feel normal -- they don't want to get high.
  15. Depends on the doctor. Heck, my pdoc is happy to prescribe me Ambien, is always asking if I need another scrip. She's a bit obsessed with me getting enough sleep. Me, I'm very careful because I don't want to get addicted. I use them very sparingly. I tend to eat everything in the house, and I don't like the weird, dream-like high I've been getting recently either, so I'm not keen on taking them at all anymore.
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