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bsphil

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  1. Thank you. :D

  2. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  3. Pills alone will never fix a person's depression.
  4. Memory And Depression

    Memory loss is absolutely a clear sign of depression. "Please PM Member for Link" I ended up doing pretty poorly in school lately because of it. It's definitely reversible if you're willing to work on treating it though.
  5. Anxiety And Napping

    Interesting thread. When I
  6. Anxiety And Napping

    You end up getting anxious because when you're lying down trying to fall asleep, you have nothing but free time to mull over all of the stressors in your life. Try to avoid naps anyway if you can if you don't have a regular sleep schedule, and if you do nap, keep it as short as possible. Do something to occupy your mind. Exercise is probably the best thing you can do. Listening to music, watching an engaging TV show or movie (it has to be interesting enough to hold your focus), talk to someone on the phone (you have to be talking as well, not just listening - your mind can wander when you're being spoken to but it's incredibly hard to talk about one topic and think about another), etc. Just find something you enjoy doing. Make a list if you need to and write it down. When you're finding yourself stressing out, pull out your list.
  7. Depressed But Not Sad

    You should really give it a try. You'd be surprised at how happy a good friend will be to be able to help, even if the help is just knowing you're having trouble and doing stuff together to take your mind off it.
  8. Depressed But Not Sad

    Okay, wondering cause Im RARELY sad anymore and sure as heck dont want to be like I used to be. For some reason, I find it laughable how I used to be. So messed up and crap. It sort of just hit me too for a few months then went away. Ive gone through a considerable personality change. I used to be very outgoing, lots of energy, talked to anyone and everyone without a care, many people considered me random, unique sense of humor, and I somewhat paid attention in class, lol. Now Im different. Dont feel like elaborating so just guess. You sound a lot like me. I'm definitely not a doctor so I won't claim to be able to make a diagnosis, but you really do sound like you're going through classic depressive symptoms.I hope you can start making the changes necessary to return to your normal self, or rather, what you'd like to be. Depression can definitely be beaten. Anxiety is the worst. That social worker diagnosed me with General Anxiety Disorder as well. Never thought I would have been diagnosed with that at all. I tell no one this but I dont know any of ya so anyways.....I have a constant fear whenever Im alone sometimes that someone will shoot me in my head when im by windows. Or someone is watching me out the window so I check every once in awhile. Not a crazy amount though. Im afraid of the dark. Being with guys alone makes me verryy nervous too cause one of my worst fears is getting raped. I wake up very easy at slight sounds, and sometimes I can stay up all night with worry that someone will try to shoot me or something while I sleep. I have a fear that someone might try to watch me while I sleep too, which is why I sometimes sleep with a knife under my pillow. For some reason I have a feeling that I will die young. My Mom thinks im a hypochondriac. Generally people cant tell that im anxious either except my Mom who thinks im a hypochondriac (shes a nurse). It's usually when Im alone anyways that I get anxious. Though, I think Im like this because my Dad has threatened to take my life before, he constantly raped my older half sister who told no one until she was in college, once my Dad has tried to lock me in his room while we were home alone together once but I got away cause someone rang the doorbell, I once woke up seeing him looking at me but then he walked away when he saw I awoke and pretended he was getting something, and my Dad has a gun hidden somewhere in the house which he has threatened to shoot the family when I was a baby if we were to ever report him to the police. My Dad also used to be very physically abusive to my older siblings, verbally abusive mainly to us younger ones and sometimes he'd get physical. Does this stuff depress me or make me sad to think about? No. Not at all, which I think is really messed up. It never makes me sad to think about. Im disgusted about it all though. He used to threaten us if we cried so none of my siblings or I ever really cried, especially around him. I never even talk about this stuff with anyone except very few times and never want to again. Once I left the house and went to my grandma's house after my Dad threatened me and I was scared. I felt safe until he showed up. No idea how he fount me or knew I was there, and I was really worried and scared after. That was the one place I felt very safe at. My Mom eventually came and asked what happened and I cried the whole time, couldnt talk, had a panic attack and was shocked so my mind was blank, I felt tingly and numb all over, could barely breath, headache, and lost all energy. That happened at school when I was talking to my guidance counselor. I felt so depressed back then I was desperate to talk to anyone, so I tried talking to him and when I tried to speak about my Dad and my confusion and sadness, then terrible stuff happened to me again. I had to go to the Nurse office and fell asleep for the rest of the school day in there till I went home, and he told my Mom I need to see a doctor, who told my Mom to take me to the ER. Very sorry to hear about your dad. I can't imagine how tough that must be to go through. Have you been able to get into a safer environment away from him? Don't worry about what your mom thinks about depression and therapy/groups. If you're going on to college, pretty much any campus is going to offer services for people suffering from mental illness for little to no cost, so I'd highly recommend you take advantage of that. I can't comment much on the personal issues, but I will say that I also have an intermittent fear of being shot in the head while I'm walking around outside in a city (not so much inside by a window). I'm not sure what triggers it but when I start thinking about it I end up losing all focus on anything else, and wind up picking up my pace to get to wherever I was going. All the best, bsphil
  9. Ah yes, I've called 273-TALK before. I still have a business card from a college dean with the 800 number on the back of it. Right now I'm living at home with my parents again, which is probably for the best.
  10. Depressed But Not Sad

    Okay, wondering cause Im RARELY sad anymore and sure as heck dont want to be like I used to be. For some reason, I find it laughable how I used to be. So messed up and crap. It sort of just hit me too for a few months then went away. Ive gone through a considerable personality change. I used to be very outgoing, lots of energy, talked to anyone and everyone without a care, many people considered me random, unique sense of humor, and I somewhat paid attention in class, lol. Now Im different. Dont feel like elaborating so just guess. You sound a lot like me. I'm definitely not a doctor so I won't claim to be able to make a diagnosis, but you really do sound like you're going through classic depressive symptoms.I hope you can start making the changes necessary to return to your normal self, or rather, what you'd like to be. Depression can definitely be beaten.
  11. Will Things Ever Go Well

    For whatever reason, people seem to be able to recognize failure easier than success. i.e.: We tend to dwell on what hasn't gone well and tend to brush off what has. Just making a conscious effort to be aware of this tendency and wanting to reverse it can help. If you can, get outside and walk around. Go anywhere. Keep as brisk of a pace as you can while walking. In 15 minutes, turn around and head home. Try to do this every other day. Write up a schedule on paper or on a calendar if you need to, just to make sure you're doing it. It sounds dull, but it will often leave people feeling accomplished.
  12. Studies have shown that people who win the lottery aren't any more content with their lives than people who are classified as working poor. We all eventually adjust to a new baseline of emotion. Happiness is definitely real, but just not eternal. Fortunately there are ways to reinforce positive emotions and minimize negative ones
  13. Pro Meds? Or Anti Meds?

    Pro meds, but with an important disclaimer. Medication is nice but will never be the end-all cure of depression. For people going through severely debilitating depression they can have a huge impact, but you need to alter your lifestyle to see truly permanent changes in mood, concentration, initiative, etc. Nothing impossible to change, and medication can help you start making your first steps.
  14. How To Help A Friend With Depression

    Change the topic of discussion to something else. Depression feeds on it's own byproduct of negative emotions; talk about something different just to keep his mind off of the topic.
  15. Love trance, vocal trance, techno, and instrumental music. Got a fantastic deal on a new pair of beyerdynamic dt-770 headphones for a measly $150 on ebay (originally 250 euros) a couple years back. Laying down on my bed with my headphones on, my mp3 player and altoids tin amplifier, and getting absorbed into a great song is remarkably relaxing.