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Mr_Teeth

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  • Birthday 04/21/1987

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    Arkansas
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    Comedy, Comedy, Comedy... I love British comedy programs: Black Books, Peep Show, The Office, Extras, A Little Bit of Fry and Laurie, The IT Crowd, Keeping Up Appearances, etc... I also love American comedy programs: Arrested Development (the greatest sitcom of all time in my opinion), Community, Seinfeld, Louie, Curb Your Enthusiasm, The Larry Sanders Show, Modern Family, etc... But my favorite subgenre of comedy to watch/listen to is longform improv, particularly anything the UCB does such as ASSSSCAT. I also greatly enjoy music ("The Brian Jonestown Massacre" being my current favorite band)... all of this entertainment helps me cope with my severe depression. It eases the psychological pain a bit.

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  1. Diphenhydramine (Benadryl) has been a mainstay of mine for several years. I have found it to be a very effective anxiolytic when taken in light to medium doses, particularly if you have trouble sleeping due to restlessness or hypnophobia. The problem with DPH is that it is a "dirty" med and a powerful anticholinergic, so at high doses it can produce some very, VERY uncomfortable side-effects. Because of this I usually stop taking it once my tolerance reaches a point that I need to dose 100mgs to produce the anxiolytic/sedative effects, which actually happens fairly quickly (within a week and a half or so). I then either stop for a week to let the drug flush out of my system or take doxylamine succinate (Unisom), which produces similar effects as DPH, as an interim replacement. There are other drugs that act much like benzos, such as pregabalin and gabapentin, that produce good anti-anxiety effects for me as well, albeit with some pretty screwy side-effects. P.S. There are an absolute PLETHORA of psychotropics used both on and off label to treat anxiety. The drugs I mentioned barely clip the tip of the iceberg. I hope you find something that works for you. Any questions feel free to PM me :)
  2. What do you think the best AD is for treating severe depression/anxiety-related physical pain? I won't bore you with the details... Let's just say my physical pain is chronic, widespread, and debilitating. I currently take Lyrica, but it only takes the edge off my pain (even at high doses) and really messes with my coordination and cognition. Thanks so much for the help :)
  3. I am currently prescribed 4mg/nightly. I have been on it for 4 years. 3mgs is indeed a high dose, and tbh I believe benzos to be a very ineffective treatment for chronic anxiety; Tolerance builds quickly, potentially irreversible delirium sets in, and the withdrawal experience is by far the worst that this world has to offer. If I could do it over again I'd take a lighter anxiolytic such as hydroxyzine.
  4. Memory/concentration are two of my most troubling symptoms. Even simple stuff (i.e. typing this post) is extremely difficult to do. It's hard for me to think of and spell even simple words sometimes, so I keep a thesaurus handy. At my worst (I was in the hospital) I have spent ~3 hours reading and rereading a single book page without retaining ANY of the information. I also have a very difficult time visualizing things in my "mind's eye" so to speak, so fantasizing and imagining, two things I used to love to do, are now nearly impossible; I'm sure there's a clinical term for this symptom that I'm not aware of, but hopefully you get the idea. Like many others in this thread I also frequently repeat myself and ask the same questions. My family is, thankfully, very understanding. Anyway, for the past couple of months I've been on a bit of a nootropic kick in hopes to combat these memory issues. I've tried piracetam, aniracetam, choline, and citocoline so far with minimal results. I'm planning on speaking with a nutritionist about some other supplements within a couple of weeks. Hope you feel better, and PM me if there's anything you'd like to discuss... not promising I'll be of any help, but sometimes it's just good to have someone to talk to. :)
  5. That sucks to hear that they are banning it outright though... not really on a personal level because the stuff doesn't seem to do much, but I know piracetam in particular helps a lot of people. I hope they aren't banning citocoline because that stuff actually does work (like caffeine, only it lasts longer and doesn't produce jitters). It'd be interesting to try out this Lucidril stuff too... providing it's unscheduled. What effects should I expect? Specifically, what are the antideliriant benefits of this drug? Also, that Churchill quote has gotten me through some hard times. Glad to see others relate to it as well.
  6. I'm an ex-drug addict and I refuse to go back to that Hell. That being said I still have tremendous problems with concentration and recall, which attributes greatly to my depression. Has anyone had any success with nootropic supplementation? Right now I'm taking 2400mg piracetam with 2400mg aniracetam (twice daily) and taking 2000mg citocoline in the morning. I've been doing this for several weeks and notice little, if any, effect. Any better suggestions?
  7. I just started taking mirtazapine (15mg nightly) last Thursday and will up to 30mgs nightly this coming Thursday. I've tried most every class of AD in the past, but this is my first tetracyclic. I have no idea what to expect from mirtazapine and was hoping that there might be some people out there who have improved from taking it. My doctor tells me it will take at least 6 weeks before it takes any effect (no surprise there), so I'm in need of some encouragement to get me through that waiting period. As of now I have little hope for this med and fully expect another failure. I hope not, but my long history with ADs tells me otherwise. Anyway, any insight into mirtazapine would be appreciated. ****************************......................
  8. I drank for years (usually on a weekly basis) while on antidepressants with no noticeably ill side-effects. That isn't to say there wasn't any lasting damage from combining the two. ADs are hard on the liver... so is alcohol. Therefore there may have been some damage done due to my carelessness that has not become symptomatic. I don't know if there are any ADs out there that will flat out **** you the very first time that you combine them with alcohol (maybe MAOIs?), but it's certainly not ideal to do so no matter what you're taking. If you continue to have the urge to binge drink while taking ADs it means the ADs aren't working very well, and you should probably get on another med. I will say that in the past I've combined benzodiazepines and alcohol, which is a good way to get yourself killed. So if you're taking any of those definitely avoid the booze. Otherwise, yeah, talk to your doctor.
  9. I identify with your condition very much. I have been depressed for most of my life on a dysthymic level, but my depression was intensely exacerbated by a short amphetamine addiction which ended in overdose. This triggered my bipolarism and greatly effected other areas of my cognition. It even caused major visual changes for me. That being said, I actually underwent a sleep study two days ago and found out that I have minor sleep apnea and am scheduled for another test in May, upon which I will be able to choose a mask. They informed my that I had difficulty sleeping 10 times per hour... I will get the full results of this test, to see if I have seizures, etc. once the sleep doctor gives me a call within the week. As of now I have nightmares every night; I wake up at least five times nightly ; I have cold sweats during sleep ; and I have occasional bouts of sleep paralysis, which is an extremely terrifying experience (I won't bore you with the gory details). I have not tried an MAOI, and Selegiline has been suggested, so I will mention it to my p-doc for sure. I am totally willing to follow all rules pertaining to this med as I have experienced mild/moderate serotonin syndrome in the past and definitely do not want to go through that again. If you could tell me... which initiated a more positive improvement for you? The MAOI or the ECT? Also, did the ECT cause you any major, lasting problems with memory or anything else? Thank you so much for your words of encouragement :)
  10. This is my opinion<< OPINION on what is going on with Charlie Sheen... Right now he is clearly experiencing a manic episode along with some pretty severe psychotic features. His rapid speech, paranoia, delusions of grandeur, aggression, sexual promiscuity, and excessive drug use back this up (along with many other symptoms we all have observed). He may still be abusing recreational drugs. This drug (we all know what it is) for a manic person tends to have a calming effect rather than a speedy effect from my experiences. You'll still be the same lunatic, just a more focused lunatic. Charlie is in love with himself and thinks that everybody loves him too: The public, the media... everybody. He thinks people are laughing with him, not at him. But this grand delusion will not last forever. The depressive episode could start today, in a week, or two months from now, but I believe IT WILL HAPPEN. A bipolar depression is not your average mildly anhedonic, Zach Braff-level dysthymia. It is extremely severe and most often melancholic... as many of us are all too aware. He will likely become suicidal and will most certainly no longer be spouting funny, paranoid observations. His behavior will cease to induce schadenfreude in normal, well adjusted people; some of us are obviously an exception... Basically, Charlie will be DEAD. INSIDE. Drug abuse + paranoia + delusions of grandeur + sexual addiction + mania + NPD + denial + synergy = LOSING! The man needs to be left alone by the media, intervened on by his close friends and relatives, and treated in a psychiatric hospital, which is not as bad as it sounds. Most patients go in for 5-7 days, get stabilized through medication or ECT, and then go back home. Very few people are committed for life anymore like we so often see in the movies. I know, I know, I'm preaching to the choir. I am not a doctor. I'm just a modestly educated man (I think) who is making some tenuous observations. Anyway, these are my thoughts on Charlie.
  11. If this is not the correct place to post this I apologize, but it seemed to be the correct section to me. Mods, feel free to move it if you wish. --------------------------------------------------------------- Ok. Long story short... I've suffered from mental illness since adolescence. I've tried nearly every psychotropic that exists (SSRIs, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, nootropics, hypnotics, benzodiazepines, psychostimulants, etc.) and have noticed little to no positive effect. My mental state has gotten far worse over the years due to inadequate treatment. I now have severe anhedonia, my memory and cognition are terrible, and I suffer from suicidal ideation... basically, my depression is deeply melancholic. I mostly stay in the depressive phase and may have become hypomanic or manic on 2-3 occasions (debatable). I never experience a state of "normalcy". I am now left with very few options. I can either try lithium or possibly lamictal again (neither worked the first time around) or I can go in for ECT. I am wondering if there is anyone here who has undergone any ECT treatments and then noticed a drastic improvement in their illness. Or, conversely, is their anyone on this board who has had a negative experience with ECT? My memory, as I mentioned, is terrible already... possibly due to my depression, and I certainly don't want to make it worse. Any first-hand accounts of ECT experiences will be vastly appreciated. Also... If anyone needs more information regarding my condition don't hesitate to ask. Thank you so much. -Jared
  12. "Sometimes blocking out the memory of an event so mindf***ingly dehumanizing and an inconceivably 4th dimensional ceramic dog dish chock full of b***ard sauce the Hubble ultra deep field photograph becomes irreversibly on par with a Sanford and Son rerun level, and soul crushing until you forget you even owned a plaid sweatshirt. LOLWUT... This must've made sense to me when I wrote it; although I can't possibly fathom how. This is my mania in a nutshell, folks. I sit and write and write sometimes for days in what I think is a profound stream of consciousness, but it never is. It's all just nonsense. Anyway, when I ran across this bit of writing I laughed for a solid 2 minutes. I think it's hilarious, but when I wrote it I'm fairly certain that was not the case XD . It makes me wonder... Am I the only BP person who does stuff like this this? P.S. PM me for a picture of the Hubble ultra deep field photograph I was referring to. It actually is as good as "Sanford and Son". Maybe even better...
  13. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  14. I've seen at least a dozen psychiatrists and have been diagnosed with many different disorders, but have never been properly treated. Some of these doctors were indeed very unethical in their practices. However, now I'm at a very, very nice clinic and see a team of doctors who have been testing and studying me intensely in order to find out what's really going on in my brain. I trust these doctors. There are none more reputable in my state or the surrounding area. They are among the elite, and I can tell you from first hand experience that they do not tolerate even the slightest mistake in practice. As a matter of fact the clinic's intake coordinator was immediately fired after she accidentally set me up with a therapist too early in my treatment process... even though it was my own mother who requested the appointment to begin with. If I can be frank... This place is the s***. I seriously doubt that these doctors would try to "protect" me by hiding my diagnosis, which would not "protect" me at all. They realize that I want to know exactly what is wrong with me, but the fact remains that all the information required to paint an accurate picture of my illness is not yet available to them. They still need quite a bit of information from my previous doctors (notes, charts, test results, etc.) as well as further testing with me at the clinic, so my saying that I have a "thought disorder" was probably a little presumptuous. This is simply the condition my diagnostician is heavily leaning towards at the moment. It's not set in stone by any means. I could have an autism spectrum disorder or severe depression for example. Many disorders exhibit psychotic symptoms identical to those I experience, so I apologize for stating that I have a "thought disorder" as if it were a fact. It's really all up in the air at the moment, and no, I seriously doubt that my doctors would intentionally feed me false or misleading information regarding my illness. As to my current state... I'm on Trileptal now, along with a low dose of Seroquel XR at night and clonazepam in the morning and at night, and they do help. I am no longer as paranoid as I once was and am not suicidal anymore, with the exception of a few minutes after I wake up from my nightmares, but after I swallow my meds I stabilize. Hopefully once I'm officially diagnosed I'll start taking antipsychotics or other meds and possibly start talk therapy in order to treat my condition more effectively. Thank you so much for your concerns and your good wishes. Other questions or comments are more than welcome.
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