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Handon Frypan

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About Handon Frypan

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  • Birthday 12/12/1975

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    west coast USA
  • Interests
    college soccer/ gymnastics/tennis, travel, just trying to enjoy life, but at my own speed. I'm an atheist.

    Also into music. Lately old jazz, indie, and drone.

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  1. I am an only child twice over. I did not inherit siblings when my mother remarried My biological father died of MRSA after years of being bedridden with a stroke brought on by agent orange, which also presumably caused my spina bifida. So there was a while when my mother didn't get much help in parenting, and this affected me greatly (though I'm so glad she didn't rush into marriage just to give me a father figure again. She waited for the right guy, and has been married to him for over 20 years). My mother and I have a difficult, draining relationship. We just have varying styles of communication. That's all. Good intentions all around, but my tolerance for differing styles of conversation is low. My mother has a great relationship with her family, particularly with her only sibling, her brother, my uncle. I envy that. It makes me wish I had a sibling growing up, but my mother keeps saying the first and only time was the charm. I had trouble making friends growing up. I was always the only disabled person at school, and in high school, I moved around, attending 4 high schools in 3 states. And to this day, I still have social trouble. I wish I had siblings (two max, I think). They could be neutral bodies during arguments with my parents.
  2. Glad to have gotten some laundry done, but sad to be missing a soccer match I had planned last week for. Also stressed about upcoming travel.
  3. I'm grieving something, and I don't know what. I can't get to bed because of it.
  4. Had a very good medical appointment yesterday, which was a welcome surprise. But now I'm dealing with a conflict with my mother regarding that. At 43. I'm just tired of it.
  5. I feel overscheduled. Plus, I have some anxiety bout my next phase of life.
  6. Seems pretty humid out, but I've only gone out on my patio.
  7. I have kind of a lump in my throat, but have no clue why. I will say it's been a frustrating weekend, and nothing got accomplished, and I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.
  8. Grief over lost opportunities, some of which are spilt milk. Seem to have a sore throat as well.
  9. Been sleeping a lot today. Feeling disconnected and frustrated that I didn't accomplish anything I expected (and was expected) to do.
  10. I'm OK. Kind of glad I backed out of a certain social thing and sad that I can't make another one. Kind of annoyed that I'm not sure how I want to structure my day.
  11. Beat from 10 hours in the ER relating to a bladder injury I caused myself. Surgery may be pending.
  12. Once again, I am sick in advance of a monthly meeting I was hoping to attend. Previous to late 2017, I had been a regular, but now it's very intermittent. Plus, a messageboard that I lost my credentials to and just regianed them to seems to have become very close to dead when I need it the most. So, today I have felt bouts of maybe both sadness and depression. I don't know. I just feel very detached from my life, not knowing which direction it should go, nor who my friends and loved ones are.
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