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  1. What do some of you guys do when you're wired and just on a go go go momentum? I'm thinking that getting to sleep might be a problem. I haven't had an episode like this for years. Maybe my night time medication will knock me out. I've been on the go all day. Every time I think about going ot bed which is really what I should do, the idea is a total turn off and I sart doing more stuff. Any help is appreciated. Any experienced people out there??
  2. How in the world am I going to calm down tonight? Someone has to help me on this one. I'm all wired. There's no way I'm going ot sleep!!!! What do you guys do in this case??
  3. You kno wwhat guys? This is the first time I've had this in years. I wonder if I should just take the meds and let them make me sleepy. What is that drug for exactly anyway ? I guess to balance the spectrum out a bit? I guess I'm just not adapted to it yet, do you think this is why? I don' tknow. All I know is that I'm completely wired and have been that way all day! I think I should just do the dishes, get my kid to sleep and take the meds and try to sleep. I can't believe how much I got done. Ooh ooh no I think I won' tdo that I'm thinking of all I can do for my business. Let's get that going! woo hooo!
  4. Coolarama! Yahoo! I just started new meds last night and weening from Effexor starting this morning before we try going on prozac. At night I'm taking Quetiapine. Last night it knocked me right out. Fun. Woke up kinda medium, and by the time 10 AM rolled around I was not able to keep still in the class I'm taking. Been on overdrive all day lol. I'm going to have to spend some time working through my workbook though. It's just too sedentary for this mood i'm in.
  5. Just looking around here. Getting lots done and checking on here every few minutes or so...
  6. for what? :) YOuj're awesome. You're the awesomest. The awesome of them all. I'm just waiting for my kid to go to bed so I can clean out some cupboards, finish laundry and send some massive emails for my business. Of course I could just do it all now. Whatcha think? My brain is thinking of 10 things to do and I'm not sure which one to do first now. apologies, enjoy
  7. Don't worry, I'll sleep, that's why it's hypomania, I don't have the full meal deal when it comes to bipolar. I am just all over the house lol. Wheeee. Anyone else having a parteeeee? I'll probably sink into my bed and not remember going to bed and then wake up wired.
  8. Hi All, Well, here I am getting so many things done, doing 5 things at once, making appointments and all round buzzing around the house. It's so great I can't even describe it! Just waiting for the crash hee hee...but that's not going to happen for some time yet since today is just day 1...I'm a "hypomanic" gal, so I don't get quite as bad as I could but just flying high right now and rockin' the house with energy. Yahoo! I'm thinking I should have ordered the workbook for BP instead of Dep. Oh well, I'm sure I'll somehow fix it ha ha. DS
  9. Ok, I ordered both books as well as the Happiness Project. It sounds like enjoyable reading and may help me.
  10. Thank you Iowa...I am ordering it from Amazon tonight. I just needed one person to validate my choice for me. :) I'm also going with the Burns item because I have the Feeling Good Handbook and even though I'm not that motivated to use it that much, when I do use it, it's awesome...
  11. Thanks...I guess I just want to get the right "one" know what I mean? If I get this one and there's a better one I'll feel crappy about it and then I'll brood about it. I have one from the library but I'm afraid that when I'm right into it it'll be due and there might be a waiting list so I want to get one in order to have some constant self-help. Maybe I should be more concerned with the real challenge...being motivated enough to USE these items...
  12. Anyone used the above book by William J. Knaus? Any ratings on this item? I'm seriously thinking of purchasing it online but I can't really look through it. Also, there's the Ten Days to Self-Esteem by David Burns. Another one I want to purchase. Please please let me know what you think of these items. I'm losing my mind. Also going through a weening off withdrawal to prepare for my next trial of new medications. Yay me. Woopdie doo. DS
  13. Anyone use/used this book? Any ratings on it? Is it a workbook where you can answer questions, to fill in parts of the book? It's by William J. Knaus. Thanks for any help in advance. DS
  14. I know they're going to fire me and I'll be royally screwed if that happens!! I'm in a position where I'm not allowed to defend myself and when I answer the questions I'm berated with, I'm interrupted/cut off. This behaviour makes me cry as I feel I'm being backed into a corner and attacked. Then I'm told that I can't cry like this when I'm being "coached" My God in my 12 yeas in this industry, if they call that coaching, they've got a few things to learn!!!! What am I going to do? How can you keep the crying from happening at all? Why can't I be a normal person????
  15. Hey Dark Side, I can't offer constructive advice, but just wanted to say that I feel sorry that you are going through this situation. Keep up your strength. THank you...to all of you!
  16. I think they're going to fire me. And that will be bad...have to pay a mortgage. :(
  17. God it happened again. I'm on what's called corrective action (basically it's a nicer term for probation with an action plan in place so that I'll supposedly succeed). I just don't see it happening. Anyway, my boss told me that I didn't use a customer's name at the beginning of my interaction and I said I did (because I actually did). She said, "No you didn't." I burst into tears. The district manager happened to see me in this state too. I just don' tknow what to do. I"m stressed right out and there's a lot of pressure. I find that they nitpick on every tiny little thing and it makes me feel that I'm doing nothing right.
  18. Thanks all. Nice to know I'm not alone. I've stabilized a bit. Still working on getting a psychologist since that's what our benefits cover. Still taking the two meds, I turned down the "offer" of the back up doctor to double the dose of the effexor. He also gave me the option to double up on the stabilizer which i only did once. I was diagnosed with ADD with slight hyperactivity in my third year of university, so I have no idea if that is related in any way. I did well with Ritalin with regards to school and taking exams as well as studying for them. Who knows...depression is the flavour of the decade for my doctors I suppose. I've been finding that going for walks on my lunch breaks are helping tremendously, but they make me extremely hyper and hence, annoying to those I talk to at work lol. I recently had a coaching session at work, as my boss and her boss have been "noticing" that I"m not happy. I had to let them in on what was going on. I didn't want to let them in on this part of my life but it seemed that I had to let them in on it to protect my position. Who knows...everytime I tell an employer, they always sit back, sigh in relief and say something like, "Well that explains it." and then they work with me. If I start getting irate with my daughter, usually I notice then that I haven't taken my meds and I take them right away. I'm curious how long this stint will last because there really is a cycle as far as I can tell. I guess we'll see... In the meantime I'm going to check with a psychologist, check in with my work's Employee Assistance Program and work on exercising. All of the above is difficult in terms of taking action. I'll check in with you guys later. Thanks, DS
  19. I think I lean more towards bipolar. The 3rd doctor I've seen (the back up when my doctor isn't available seems to think so. I don't know if I'm allowed to say that it sucks, but it really does, but that goes for either way. I hate feeling like this and snapping at people, not even realizing I'm doing it half the time. Anyway, I'm looking into getting some help finally. According to the DSM-IV (diagnostic guidelines), there's other criteria that will satisfy the diagnosis. Energy levels really has nothing to do with the diagnosis, but "decreased need for sleep" is. Perhaps they are implying that since your energy levels aren't abnormally high, then your sleep patterns are OK. Ultimately, if your sleep patterns are chronically abnormally, for instance, going without sleep for days and sleeping only 3 to 4 hrs at a time, because you just don't need it, then that's one element of the disease. The criteria for bipolar disease is: For at least 2 weeks: 1. elated, expansive or irritated mood. 2. Three or more (four if mood is irritated) symptoms persisting: a. grandiosity or inflated self-esteem b. distractibility c. flights of ideas or racing thoughts d. decreased need for sleep e. participation in events that may lead to harsh consequences f. increased goal-directed activity of psychomotor agitation g. pressured, rapid speech or increased talking That's the core criteria. These symptoms must last for at least two weeks. If it's not happening now, it's not satisfying. I can't respond to this. I quite confused as to what your saying. What's plummeting? What's a deep hole? Use descriptive words. It's just best to be clear and cut with your symptoms. What are your emotions, moods, physical issues, and cognitive issues? What do you feel gets better with medication and is it directly due to the medication or is it secondary to some other improvement? For instance, a person that doesn't suffer from depression takes an anti-depressant and feels they can concentrate better. But is this improvement due to improved sleep? If so, it's better to treat the sleep disorder. You see, it's important to critique your inferences. The clearer the view is, the better care you'll receive. I can't stress this enough. Sounds like your stressed, but about what? Life in general: work, parenting? Tearfulness is a mood symptom of depression. Stress can induce depression, if it's not handled well. Like I said these symptoms must last for at 2 weeks to be considered a major depressive episode. So is guilt. There are many specifiers of major depression: mild, moderate, and severe. Are you doing psychotic things because of it? Is the guilt situational or long lasting? So is frustration towards yourself. That's a classic irritability mood symptom of depression, whereas irritability towards the world is the prominent mood in mania. It's very important to differentiate the two. Good point. I feel that anti-depressants are best suited for anxiety, which often co-insides with psychiatric disorders. And, through suppressed anxiety, you may be able to concentrate on what you can do to make the situation better. The numbing feeling that you describe, may be suppressed emotions. That's what the medication is supposed to do. But, your smart enough to realize it's a temporary solution. Counseling is just as good, perhaps what's needed in this case. Let me stress, that counseling shouldn't be perceived as "help for a failure", it's simply a place to express yourself, where, ultimately, you come out feeling better that your helping yourself get on the path to success. Everybody gets counseling in some way or another. Counseling with a specialist gets to the root of the problem more quicker, which is what's most important. There are several classes of anti-depressants. Medications have various mechanisms of action, so don't ever give up hope that you can't feel better on medication. I can't stress that enough either. You are what you eat. Food shouldn't have major effect in your mental health if your eating normally. Nutrition and mental disease only affect each other when a person is mal-nutritional, like in third-world countries, whereas, there's shortage of foods containing Tyramine (protein constituent). That's major, because it's the fundamental substance used to create the hormones that control the elements of mental health. I've read that fish, which contain fatty acids, and chocolate are good for depression. That's probably why "comfort" eating is a symptom of depression. ADHD occurs with depression a lot. It's sometimes mistaken with the concentration deficits seen in depression. ADHD is tough to diagnose and it's not usually a problem in adulthood. But, who am I to say, what you feel? I hope you find peace of mind soon. Best of luck to you and your family.
  20. Blackcompe: I need to pm you I think. Too much of a post here. Let's just say for now that I go back and forth and the two week thing is a factor. I'm actually seeing my doctor again tonight to "see how the new meds are doing." I've been to two doctors about this and there is a shortage in my city...5 years and three antis I feel are plenty but maybe I'm wrong about that. Thank you both for your responses. BC, is it ok to pm you? According to the DSM-IV (diagnostic guidelines), there's other criteria that will satisfy the diagnosis. Energy levels really has nothing to do with the diagnosis, but "decreased need for sleep" is. Perhaps they are implying that since your energy levels aren't abnormally high, then your sleep patterns are OK. Ultimately, if your sleep patterns are chronically abnormally, for instance, going without sleep for days and sleeping only 3 to 4 hrs at a time, because you just don't need it, then that's one element of the disease. The criteria for bipolar disease is: For at least 2 weeks: 1. elated, expansive or irritated mood. 2. Three or more (four if mood is irritated) symptoms persisting: a. grandiosity or inflated self-esteem b. distractibility c. flights of ideas or racing thoughts d. decreased need for sleep e. participation in events that may lead to harsh consequences f. increased goal-directed activity of psychomotor agitation g. pressured, rapid speech or increased talking That's the core criteria. These symptoms must last for at least two weeks. If it's not happening now, it's not satisfying. I can't respond to this. I quite confused as to what your saying. What's plummeting? What's a deep hole? Use descriptive words. It's just best to be clear and cut with your symptoms. What are your emotions, moods, physical issues, and cognitive issues? What do you feel gets better with medication and is it directly due to the medication or is it secondary to some other improvement? For instance, a person that doesn't suffer from depression takes an anti-depressant and feels they can concentrate better. But is this improvement due to improved sleep? If so, it's better to treat the sleep disorder. You see, it's important to critique your inferences. The clearer the view is, the better care you'll receive. I can't stress this enough. Sounds like your stressed, but about what? Life in general: work, parenting? Tearfulness is a mood symptom of depression. Stress can induce depression, if it's not handled well. Like I said these symptoms must last for at 2 weeks to be considered a major depressive episode. So is guilt. There are many specifiers of major depression: mild, moderate, and severe. Are you doing psychotic things because of it? Is the guilt situational or long lasting? So is frustration towards yourself. That's a classic irritability mood symptom of depression, whereas irritability towards the world is the prominent mood in mania. It's very important to differentiate the two. Good point. I feel that anti-depressants are best suited for anxiety, which often co-insides with psychiatric disorders. And, through suppressed anxiety, you may be able to concentrate on what you can do to make the situation better. The numbing feeling that you describe, may be suppressed emotions. That's what the medication is supposed to do. But, your smart enough to realize it's a temporary solution. Counseling is just as good, perhaps what's needed in this case. Let me stress, that counseling shouldn't be perceived as "help for a failure", it's simply a place to express yourself, where, ultimately, you come out feeling better that your helping yourself get on the path to success. Everybody gets counseling in some way or another. Counseling with a specialist gets to the root of the problem more quicker, which is what's most important. There are several classes of anti-depressants. Medications have various mechanisms of action, so don't ever give up hope that you can't feel better on medication. I can't stress that enough either. You are what you eat. Food shouldn't have major effect in your mental health if your eating normally. Nutrition and mental disease only affect each other when a person is mal-nutritional, like in third-world countries, whereas, there's shortage of foods containing Tyramine (protein constituent). That's major, because it's the fundamental substance used to create the hormones that control the elements of mental health. I've read that fish, which contain fatty acids, and chocolate are good for depression. That's probably why "comfort" eating is a symptom of depression. ADHD occurs with depression a lot. It's sometimes mistaken with the concentration deficits seen in depression. ADHD is tough to diagnose and it's not usually a problem in adulthood. But, who am I to say, what you feel? I hope you find peace of mind soon. Best of luck to you and your family.
  21. From my experience it affects how I work. Euphoria and depression episodes can make you very ineffective...also emotional breakdowns on the job are not seen very well, makes you seem unprofessional. In the banking world for example, you must keep your composure in tact.
  22. I just had another "episode" as I like to call it. My doctor says I don't have manic depression because I don't have bursts of energy that keep me up all night. But I used to as a teen and in university. I did last night because I had to with work related stuff, but normally it's true, now I am in bed most definitely by 10 because I'm dead tired, all the time. But how do I know for sure? Being depressed, taking meds (third one now and oh how wonderful now it's two pills since they've added a mood stabilizer...), I will be the most positive person, cheerful (uh, yeah), at least that's what people see, and I think while it's happening I really believe I am. But then somehting may or may not happen and I plummet quite suddenly, I get to a place that I can't climb out. Seriously feel like I'm in a deep hole looking up, trying to find a way out. Sometimes it's accompanied by a freak out session (like tonight). Hubbie asked me what's going on, why am I crying...I answered with, "Because I'm starting to crack!" and left the room. My poor daughter didn't get her lullaby because of it. I can't imagine what that felt like for her, she fell asleep without it. She also thought that I felt she was mad at me. She was telling me she wasn't when she saw me crying. God now I'm crying again. I'm a terrible wife and mother. No ****** help here either. Everything is business hours and I have to work. How can I tell and what can I do? I don't feel the doctors can help me. The meds they prescribe don't help either, or if they do, they just numb me so I don't care. Been on Paxil, Celexa, and now Effexor with a stabilizer...starts with an r can't remember what that crap is called. How about foods? I read somewhere that Turkey (yeah, real affordable too) and blueberries are good. Omega 3s also...there's another cheap food. I guess whole grains and veggies should fit in there, but are there any others that are more speicific at all? I don't even know where ot start with my history...I was diagnosed with ADD in university but that was before the depression thing... I'd like ot say, "Hey great to be here!" but I guess that would sound kinda stupid woudn't it? Me
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