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  1. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    Now that I figured out what to do with my life path number, it hasn't been stalking me everywhere I go and it's now a new number that has to do with balance. 
    Karmic justice. Phew.
    I did a past life reading that supports my past life regression vision. Supports my theory on a major fear that I have in life as well as my kid's severe aversion to a specific thing. 
    Things are becoming so clear. My recent breakdown was all part of my awakening. It started last fall. Was a yoyo journey. But clarity now. It's here. And it is helping me so much. 
    If you have read this far, I applaud you lol...I know 95% of the planet thinks this is all hooey. But I guess I can be grouped with the circus freaks so I hope you enjoy the show!
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    Slowly Dying
    Lol! Aw....is the pore widdle baby's gaslighting attempt not working? Awwwww pore widdle baby...
    Gaslight away "honey"
    You suck at selling, as nobody is buying. 
  3. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    Dad came to me after my request and hypnosis routine. He sent me numbers that break down to my life path numbers. *sigh*
    13 (Death Card) and 4 (The Emperor Card). I do know what my life purpose is and I was also a healer in my past lives but I don't want to end what I feel I'm supposed to end in this life. I've come too far and worked on that part of my life. 
    The Universe doesn't owe me squat, I know, but I the mere human in me still believes a karmic reward is in order lol.
    I guess they will force it on me eventually if I keep fighting it. And another huge Tower moment will be upon me. 
    On a bonus side, yesterday my reading resonated with her so much. Closed my eyes to channel messages first before cards and that part of the reading hit her hard. Then the cards supported it 100%. It's always amazing and I shouldn't be surprised anymore but yeah...I still am whenever I get feedback. 
    I am so happy I discovered this gift.  I always had it  remembering things from when I was a young child, but I just didn't know. Wasn't listening. And it sometimes brings me such joy.
  4. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    Today it is time to start channeling again. Yesterday's meditation did wonders. So many synchronicities and signs. 
    Last night's dreams were full of things to address. I was blocked because I was blocking. I wasn't listening. 
    I woke up to a request today. Was amazing. So I can help someone today too. 
    First step  look at the dreams, meditation and collective readings  then help her.
    It's time to turn things around now. The promised transformation is happening. I like this promise. Things are meant to happen like this. 
  5. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    After all the time I gave. Away from my family. I even put them before my job, risking my business.  And now I apparently don't deserve to get help. 
    Funny how things work. 
    I was never good enough was I? 
  6. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    It's coming. Maybe.
    I was slated for age 70. 22 years is a bit to wait. But I have been asking Spirit to take me sooner.
    I haven't even been giving readings anymore. Giving readings and helping people always helped me. My clairaudience is quieting down though. 
    My dreams are prophetic. I haven't meditated on some of them yet so at this point I am unsure of it's an awakening/transformation or a literal death.
    I am meeting with a urologist in 2 months. So it's possible that Spirit is listening.
    Maybe the Law of Attraction really does work when feasible. 
    Maybe it's bladder cancer instead of brain. Maybe it will be painful. I deserve that.
    Maybe Daddy will come to me and give me some information again. Maybe he can tell me if I will be with him soon.
  7. Natasha1

    Slowly Dying
    Yeah, not meant for me
    Leave what no longer serves me?
    Spirit says die alone
    Tell me dear Spirit
    Why was it given at all
    Oh the damned contract?
    The one signed in blood?
    Or  tears from my tired soul?
    When sent to this hole
    My soul is tired 
    Spirit please make it stop now
    Have I not learned yet,?
    Past life regressions
    Showed me so much that was done
    That no one should see
    Why give me this gift
    To see things if you can't be clear
    Yeah be vague then leave
    Abandonment kills
    They will never understand 
    and everyone leaves
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    Slowly Dying
    I wasn't listening. Something I have always been proud of is I could do readings on myself objectively. I should work on opening up and developing my clairaudience more and get my other clairs past their infancy stage. 
    At least I am able to help other people but who is going to help me? All I have ever wanted in this life isn't meant for me. The cards told me. My dreams as well. Spirit doesn't want me to have what I want. 
    I THINK im seeing what my life purpose is but it's still pretty muddy.
    I think my soul was meant to sing, but it's tired and its voice is broken.
  9. Natasha1
    Only you, you're the only thing I'll see forever
    In my eyes in my words and in everything I do, nothing else but you - ever
    Always you, every thought I'll ever know
    Everywhere I go you'll be
    All the world is only you and me
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