Natasha1

Only you, you're the only thing I'll see forever In my eyes in my words and in everything I do, nothing else but you - ever Always you, every thought I'll ever know Everywhere I go you'll be All the world is only you and me

What to post what to post what to post lol. Maybe that the gateway is opening and i marvel at what it is leading to. A gift i have dismissed for decades.

I am calm and feeling positive.

Hi Duck. Big hug. Take a deep breath. You can get through this.

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Last posts of the previous thread: JD4010 17,567 This has been a nasty summer here. So much heat and humidity. Today is especially bad. I want to go outside and walk around but it's absolutely miserable. 0 sober4life 26,933 Posted 5 hours ago I saw 97 again today. When I went for my walk this morning I passed the cows about 9 AM and the cows thought I was the farmer and they were begging me to put them back in the barn.

Sharing tips and tricks is bad. I won't help others do this to themselves.

Thinking about what a selfish ahole my husband is.selfish child left making dinner (he bbqs chicken,) because he was pissed off that the matches werent where he was expecting them to be. Spiteful prick. And he went to bed without a word after shutting us out and i have NO FREAKING IDEA where he hid the easter bunny candy. So she has gone to bed excited about it and now there will be nothing.

@nojoy i am so relating to your post. Obviously i have separate things going on. But god i feel so much the same. And every god damned day it just gets worse. I wish i could make it better. I wish i could be more positive. But right now i just...every day its something and these things only come, dont go. They all keep coming every day never going, so its getting a little tight in here. Hug

"Whats wrong?" "Nothing" "Ok then" Really, if you need to ask then you are fucking stupid.

Thing is i was so hurt. My face was burning and my eyes welled up. Anxiety attack started up. I shed some tears. Then bummed the rest of the day.im still hurt. No 3rd party without raising a ruckus or involving people that it wouldnt be fair to. This is a stupid thing. Its usually much worse.

I shouldnt care, right? I dont know what it was that i supposedly did. I know i drive people away through my behaviour. But this case i did nothing to these people. And i was so supportive to them and their kid. Honestly, what did i do? It will drive me crazy. For the rest of my life. Its one thing to know why, but being in the dark makes me obsess. If i were "normal" i probably wouldnt be creative but the pain i go through...i always wonder if i would be better off that way.

Crap really?? Ill have to look into that