Natasha1

Lol! Aw....is the pore widdle baby's gaslighting attempt not working? Awwwww pore widdle baby... Gaslight away "honey" You suck at selling, as nobody is buying.

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Massive retrograde crap going on...im hearing a lot about things being messed up for everyone.

Now that I figured out what to do with my life path number, it hasn't been stalking me everywhere I go and it's now a new number that has to do with balance. Karmic justice. Phew. I did a past life reading that supports my past life regression vision. Supports my theory on a major fear that I have in life as well as my kid's severe aversion to a specific thing. Things are becoming so clear. My recent breakdown was all part of my awakening. It started last fall. Was a yoyo journey. But clarity now. It's here. And it is helping me so much. If you have read this far, I applaud you lol...I know 95% of the planet thinks this is all hooey. But I guess I can be grouped with the circus freaks so I hope you enjoy the show!

Dad came to me after my request and hypnosis routine. He sent me numbers that break down to my life path numbers. *sigh* 13 (Death Card) and 4 (The Emperor Card). I do know what my life purpose is and I was also a healer in my past lives but I don't want to end what I feel I'm supposed to end in this life. I've come too far and worked on that part of my life. The Universe doesn't owe me squat, I know, but I the mere human in me still believes a karmic reward is in order lol. I guess they will force it on me eventually if I keep fighting it. And another huge Tower moment will be upon me. On a bonus side, yesterday my reading resonated with her so much. Closed my eyes to channel messages first before cards and that part of the reading hit her hard. Then the cards supported it 100%. It's always amazing and I shouldn't be surprised anymore but yeah...I still am whenever I get feedback. I am so happy I discovered this gift. I always had it remembering things from when I was a young child, but I just didn't know. Wasn't listening. And it sometimes brings me such joy.

Today it is time to start channeling again. Yesterday's meditation did wonders. So many synchronicities and signs. Last night's dreams were full of things to address. I was blocked because I was blocking. I wasn't listening. I woke up to a request today. Was amazing. So I can help someone today too. First step look at the dreams, meditation and collective readings then help her. It's time to turn things around now. The promised transformation is happening. I like this promise. Things are meant to happen like this.

Calling doctor on Tuesday. Been showing symptoms that may just be showing up 22 years early. Wonder how long it will take,? Then again he said I can catch it in time. Which way do I want to go?

Betrayed and abandoned

7 of swords 3 of swords 5 of swords 10 of swords The Moon The Devil The Tower Dang that's a lot of sword cards! The Moon, the illusions , it's all clear. The true colours of grey and black taint the canvass.

I am unappreciated

I am undeserving

I am worthless

After all the time I gave. Away from my family. I even put them before my job, risking my business. And now I apparently don't deserve to get help. Funny how things work. I was never good enough was I?