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    The DF is solely dedicated to eliminating the stigma that surrounds depression and mood disorders through information, education and advocacy.
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  2. @_E_ I do agree with @uncertain1, I believe that you should consult with a another Psychiatrist or at least that she should be changing your meds. This should not be happening for months on end let alone years. Please get some help. Also sending you wishes for peace. ~Lindsay
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    Titrating up at 3mg each week?

    Hello and welcome to Depressionforums.org. You'll get more replies probably posting in "Welcome New Members" first. Just make it a little different. Especially on a weekend..Most everyone goes out or away this time of year. Plus we just did an upgrade to the Forums! So sorry. Your Dr. is smart to titrate you up slowly! Yes we are active, I never took Zoloft, but it is an SSRI and it generally takes 4-6 weeks for it to start working well. All the SSRI's are very simular. I would not worry with Zoloft though, not at all. It is a wonderful antidepressant. You could ask him for something mild to add for your anxiety. See what he says. You do not die from side effects and they do dissipate within the time frame I told you about. Good look with everything. Hugs, ~Lindsay, Super Administrator, Founder
  4. Hi I've disabled my private messages and while inbox thinking I was deleting the little mobile chat and can't get it back and need to as it's important, do you know how I can get it back please?

    1. KidSurvivor2011


      Hi Hayley,

      It sounds like to me that you clicked or tapped on the "Disable my messenger" link on your inbox page by mistake.

      Check to see if it works now.


      - KS

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    Happy New Year!

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    Hanukkah The eight-day Jewish celebration known as Hanukkah or Chanukah commemorates the rededication during the second century B.C. of the Second Temple in Jerusalem, where according to legend Jews had risen up against their Greek-Syrian oppressors in the Maccabean Revolt. Hanukkah, which means “dedication” in Hebrew, begins on the 25th of Kislev on the Hebrew calendar and usually falls in November or December. Often called the Festival of Lights, the holiday is celebrated with the lighting of the menorah, traditional foods, games and gifts. Happy Hanukkah! Depressionforums.org
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    CHRISTMAS A Christian holiday honoring the birth of Jesus Christ, Christmas evolved over two millennia into a worldwide religious and secular celebration, incorporating many pre-Christian, pagan traditions into the festivities along the way. Today, Christmas is a time for family and friends to get together and exchange gifts. Merry Christmas! Depressionforums.org
  8. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (US) has 2 websites that offer secure chat with crisis counselors 24/7 as an alternative to telephone support. Counselors are available to help with ANY crisis, not just SI. www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org www.veteranscrisisline.net (For active-duty U.S. Armed Forces personnel, veterans, and their families. Web chat and SMS/text messaging.) Some members have said they have used the chat support as an integral part of their safety plan. If you are having a rough day, and don't feel up to talking by phone due to anxiety. I imagine that I'm not alone in that respect, this information may help others. ~Lindsay
  9. My name is Jackie and I was part of the forum years ago. I recently had a relapse of GAD after having a panic attack due to med doc taking me off a beta-blocker I was on for years, after the drug store was unable to get this particular medication. I have been off work and am getting all kinds of pressure to return, which is tomorrow. I was started on Zoloft and am back on the beta-blocker which also controls blood pressure. it's not an easy road, believe me!

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    “Death is so terribly final, while life is full of possibilities.” ― George R.R. Martin


  12. Hi I am 64 I have been sad my entire life. My parents were alcholics, my dad sexually and physically abusive. My Mother was too afraid of him to help my brother and me. My grandfather sexually abused all of his grandchildren and his children as well so out of 13 grandchildren only 2 of us sorta made it, myself and my youngest cousin. All of my cousins and my brother failed, they were in and out of trouble jail and prison. My brother and male relatives all became sexual abusers. As far as I can tell my children and my one youngest cousins children were not abused because we kept them away from the family. My husband and I divorced when my children were very young, and never helped support them. My children grew up to be awesome kids both with college degrees and they were never abused 😀  I have struggled my entire life, I cry daily. If all that was not enough  16 years ago a co worker gave me a goodbye hug as she was leaving the company and as she left the hug gave me mites 😔😢. I have been fighting these mites at home, work my car they won't stop multiplying they are every  where and make me itch, I feel them crawling on me I am embarrassed and I gave up trying to have a happy life. I don't date I have no friends to speak of because I am afraid I will pass them on. I am so tired of this horrible lifeI cannot catch a break and I just want to die. People say I look mad all the time, yet I am a nice person just tired of hiding and lonely   I am just tired and am trying to figure out the best way to commit suucide. I wish I could say more but I cannot stop crying enough to keep typing. I'm so lonely sad and I hate myself. 

    1. tlsteel


      Hello. I and my 84 year old mother who is going blind and was constantly raped by her father can relate. I am a 65 year old bedridden man who cannot stand, walk, sit and do just about nothing. Pain flows through me just about all day long! I have become a shell of what I was.

      But I will be damn if it will get the best of me! It will not win. I won't let it! I have found an inner soul within me that has been just incredible! I can't explain it, it keeps my attitude in check! Maybe it's related to self hypnosis, I don't know. I do know that I feel an "inner glow" that I believe comes from God. I used to be and still am an alcoholic, though I haven't touched a drp in over two decades. 

      I used to smoke 2 packs a day. I was lonely and had a lot of love I needed to share. Now I don't know if you believe in God or not and I am not here to convert you. What I will tell you is that I prayed ... sincerely prayed that he would take away these cravings and find someone who would love me.


      I was a heavy drinker! I don't know of any institution that they can instantly stop you from drinking right on the spot. It took a few deparate prayers, but he lifted the craving and replaced it with an incredible sick feeling of just the thought of alchol. 

      The same with smoking, and not long he found me my wonderful wife. He hasn't totally taken the pain away yet. But maybe he wants me to keep it for a punishment of something I did that he didn't like. I don't know. But believe he also has given me an inner peace and an attitude adjustment. I too have had a terrible life. Many shocking things were revealed to me. 

      I don't know if this will help you. You might even think I'm a nut case. But it is and has been true for me. I do not belong to any church or religion. I believe religion will be man's downfall. But I believe in the love God has filled my heart with. God bless you my friend! I will pray for you ....



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    Flag Day

    The History Of Flag Day The Fourth of July was traditionally celebrated as America's birthday, but the idea of an annual day specifically celebrating the Flag is believed to have first originated in 1885. BJ Cigrand, a schoolteacher, arranged for the pupils in the Fredonia, Wisconsin Public School, District 6, to observe June 14 (the 108th anniversary of the official adoption of The Stars and Stripes) as 'Flag Birthday'. In numerous magazines and newspaper articles and public addresses over the following years, Cigrand continued to enthusiastically advocate the observance of June 14 as 'Flag Birthday', or 'Flag Day'. On June 14, 1889, George Balch, a kindergarten teacher in New York City, planned appropriate ceremonies for the children of his school, and his idea of observing Flag Day was later adopted by the State Board of Education of New York. On June 14, 1891, the Betsy Ross House in Philadelphia held a Flag Day celebration, and on June 14 of the following year, the New York Society of the Sons of the Revolution, celebrated Flag Day. Following the suggestion of Colonel J Granville Leach (at the time historian of the Pennsylvania Society of the Sons of the Revolution), the Pennsylvania Society of Colonial Dames of America on April 25, 1893 adopted a resolution requesting the mayor of Philadelphia and all others in authority and all private citizens to display the Flag on June 14th. Leach went on to recommend that thereafter the day be known as 'Flag Day', and on that day, school children be assembled for appropriate exercises, with each child being given a small Flag. Two weeks later on May 8th, the Board of Managers of the Pennsylvania Society of Sons of the Revolution unanimously endorsed the action of the Pennsylvania Society of Colonial Dames. As a result of the resolution, Dr. Edward Brooks, then Superintendent of Public Schools of Philadelphia, directed that Flag Day exercises be held on June 14, 1893 in Independence Square. School children were assembled, each carrying a small Flag, and patriotic songs were sung and addresses delivered. In 1894, the governor of New York directed that on June 14 the Flag be displayed on all public buildings. With BJ Cigrand and Leroy Van Horn as the moving spirits, the Illinois organization, known as the American Flag Day Association, was organized for the purpose of promoting the holding of Flag Day exercises. On June 14th, 1894, under the auspices of this association, the first general public school children's celebration of Flag Day in Chicago was held in Douglas, Garfield, Humboldt, Lincoln, and Washington Parks, with more than 300,000 children participating. Adults, too, participated in patriotic programs. Franklin K. Lane, Secretary of the Interior, delivered a 1914 Flag Day address in which he repeated words he said the flag had spoken to him that morning: "I am what you make me; nothing more. I swing before your eyes as a bright gleam of color, a symbol of yourself." Inspired by these three decades of state and local celebrations, Flag Day - the anniversary of the Flag Resolution of 1777 - was officially established by the Proclamation of President Woodrow Wilson on May 30th, 1916. While Flag Day was celebrated in various communities for years after Wilson's proclamation, it was not until August 3rd, 1949, that President Truman signed an Act of Congress designating June 14th of each year as National Flag Day.
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    World Bipolar Day

    World Bipolar Day: Why I will never hide my bipolar diagnosis from anyone Hattie Gladwell for Metro.co.uk Thursday 30 Mar 2017 7:00 am (Picture: Metro.co.uk/LibertyAntoniaSadler) I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 1 just under two years ago. Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder, that was formally known as ‘manic depression’. It can often mean that your moods swing from one extreme to the other – though each mood will last a significant amount of time, ranging from weeks to months on end. With bipolar type 1, I generally experience more extreme manic moods than I do lows, though when I do feel low, I feel on the verge of suicidal. There are many forms of mania, however. I will be very, very irritable and quick to anger. I become very paranoid and over-think everything. Despite taking sleeping tablets, I will sleep as little as two hours, often waking around 4am to do something out of my usual character. I will feel invincible and I will act irrationally and compulsively, loving every second of that surge of adrenaline that comes with it. And I’ll soon regret it when the mania wears off. For example, I’m a natural blonde but 5 years ago I dyed my hair brown, and have kept it that way (bar the occasional other dark colours such as black or deep red) ever since. (Picture: Liberty Antonia Sadler) But a year-and-a-half ago, I decided when I woke up that I was going to go back to blonde. I didn’t ‘have time’ (meaning I didn’t want to wait) for an appointment, and so I ran to the shop, grabbed two packets of bleach powders, and re-bleached my hair over and over in one day to go from a dark brown to a white blonde (with some yellow patches, of course). I then spent the next few days dying it from silver to lilac, before getting bored and dying another dark colour over it. I spent the following year and a half treating it with coconut oil, getting several hair cuts before ultimately cutting it very short and having to grow it out all over again because it was so ruined. Oh, how I kicked myself for ever touching it in the first place. Another time, during a bout of mania which lasted for several months, I got 19 tattoos. I started with just a couple on my arms and my hip, and ended with tattoos covering my legs, my stomach, my back and the back of my neck. Luckily, I still love them – but would I have waited a little longer to get them had I not been manic? Certainly. There’s always one other indicator that I’m going into a manic episode – I’ll write a book. During one episode, I woke at 4am to write a book, wrote three chapters and sent it off to several publishers thinking I was going to be the next J.K. Rowling. As you can tell, I’m not. But the depressive times are just as bad as the manic times, and sometimes worse. I often end up feeling so low that I have repeated suicidal thoughts day in, day out. I sleep too much as opposed to too little. I become very anxious, I have a constant feeling of guilt in my stomach and I am so very angry. (Picture: Ella Byworth for Metro.co.uk) I feel vacant and numb and I struggle to concentrate on anything. The worst part is that I never know when it’s going to end. But bipolar is something I’ve got used to over time. It’s not something I would wish away because for me, these feelings are ‘normal’. Alongside this, despite how crazy some of my emotions and outbursts may seem, I would never hide it from anyone – because while my illness does not define me, it helps shape who I am. I will never, ever be ashamed of my bipolar diagnosis. Because, quite frankly, it’s out of my hands. I didn’t ask for it, so why should I struggle with it in silence? When meeting a new person it’s not my first topic of conversation – but when the conversation gets deeper I have never, and will never shy away from it. It’s up to the other person how they want to deal with the information, and that’s totally out of my control. I also feel it’s incredibly important to talk about it. So, so many people avoid opening up about their mental health out of fear of judgement or disbelief. They’re scared that they’re going to be told ‘it’s all in your head’ and that it ‘isn’t really there’, followed by suggestions such as ‘you need to take a long walk’ and ‘if you drink more water your head will be clearer’. But just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it’s not there. It doesn’t mean it’s any less important than a physical illness and it most certainly doesn’t mean it’s any less real, either. (Picture: Ella Byworth for Metro.co.uk) I will continue to talk and write about my experience with bipolar because I want to help those who don’t have the courage to. I want people to find real experiences when searching for advice in Google as opposed to forums disregarding it. I want people to see how open I am about it and realise that they can be too. But most importantly, I want people to realise they are not alone – no matter lonely they may feel in their own minds. And hopefully, alongside people who have already received diagnosis, my experiences will somehow find their way to a person who is currently questioning symptoms, but too scared to go to a doctor for help. I hope someone struggling mentally but too afraid to seek help will realize that there’s nothing shameful in doing so, and that seeking help is the first thing they can do to finding the strength to both understand and accept that they are struggling – before they receive the help and education that they need to start to cope with it. I will never, ever be ashamed of my mental illness, no matter how much I struggle, no matter what people think of it – because it is a part of me, and it always will be. I just pray that others going through a similar thing will some day realize the same thing.