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Moody Blues

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  1. Hello and welcome. I can understand what you're going through, I've been suffering from panic attacks for years. These attacks comes from fear and all my negative thoughts. Are taking any medications, or seeing a therapist? There's no way to fight this alone. It's your perception of the world, that is creating these thoughts and the thoughts create the feelings. I know you feel like it's out of your control, but with help you can fight this demon. There are many medications that can give you some relief from these feelings A therapist can teach you how to change your thoughts, thus changing your feelings. Please keep reaching out for help, there are so many resources available to you. You took a giant step by joining this forum, we are all here to help you!
  2. Serzone itself is off the market, but the generics are still available. I use to be up all night, it was horrible. I tried Ambien and it did nothing.
  3. I take Serzone 200mgs and Klonopin 1mg for sleep. Within 20 minutes of taking my meds, I'm out for the night.
  4. After reading many posts about "what people think of me", I wanted to give my thoughts. When I was younger, other peoples opinion of me was very important. I wanted everyone to like me and I tried very hard to accomplish that. As the years went by, I realised that no matter what I do, some people won't like me. At first this bothered me and I was hurt. Why would someone dislike me, I try to do the best I can. I finally came to the conclusion, it's more important for me to like myself.. I'm an honest, loyal, compassionate person. I treat everyone with respect and kindness, a lot of people look at this as a weakness. I finally realised, that no matter what I did, some people are incapable of liking anyone. Today, I don't care about other people's opinion of me. I do the very best I can and if they don't appreciate this, it's their problem. I do have a lot of, what I call acquaintances. People who I interact with, but are not true friends. I get along very well with these people and enjoy conversing with them. At this point in my life, as long as I'm treating people well, I truly don't care what they think of me. I feel so liberated and at ease, I guess this comes with life experience.
  5. I have a long history of anxiety attacks that often lead to debilitating panic. The panic attacks I've been suffering from are overwhelming and leave me paralyzed with fear. They are happening more often and I feel like I'm going crazy .Bizarre, irrational thoughts invade my brain and I'm becoming obsessed with them. I feel like I'm outside my body, watching me from afar. I'm currently on Paxil 40mg and Klonopin 1mg 3x a day, These meds do help somewhat, but I'm still struggling. I had an appt. with my pdoc and he started me on Risperdal 0.5mg .After researching Risperdal, I found it is used for many types of psychosis. I'm worried I've progressed to the point of having a severe mental illness. Has anyone use Risperdal and for what reason? I'm concerned my pdoc is diagnosing me with something more then just anxiety/depression and is not telling me.
  6. Hi Blu and welcome. The best thing is for you to be there for your daughter. I've been suffering for years and having a family support system means the world to me. I'm sorry you are going through this, just remember there's so much help out there. Keeping your daughter safe is paramount right now. She's in a safe place, with professionals who can help her.
  7. Anyone have Deep Brain Stimulation done? I've been reading up on it and find it very interesting.
  8. Hello Vega and welcome. Does your son have HIV, or full blown AIDS? Today there are excellent treatments that help with both, I know several people living with HIV and are doing fine. They are living a productive, happy life and have been for years. HIV is no longer a death sentence, like it use to be. Get your son to a MD who specializes in this field, he'll put your son on a med regime to fight this disease. There is hope and my thoughts and prayers go out to you.
  9. It appears your mom is worried about you, My mom use to do the same to me and I would get so annoyed with her. God, I wish she was still here to annoy me. She passed 2yrs. ago and I lost my best friend. Be thankful you have someone who cares so much about you. Talk to your mother and let her know what's going on, she's trying to help you.
  10. Hello arch and welcome. I have suffered from severe depression and anxiety/panic disorder for many years. My anxiety can go on all day, everyday. Medication and therapy are your friends. My anxiety starts first, then comes the depression and I spiral downward from there. I take Klonopin for anxiety and it really helps. I find if I can stop the anxiety, I can stop the depression. Please don't give up, there are many ways to deal with your issues. I still have bad days, but I'm so much better than I use to be.
  11. Hello Shy, I absolutely understand what you're saying, I have many defense mechanism that drive people away. I can be very aloof when in an uncomfortable situation, people have told me that many times (even my mother). I do this out of fear mostly, it tells other people "I'm tough and don't even try to start anything with me". I've learned to tone it down and have met some very nice people. The flip side of allowing others into my life is, there are some very mean people in the world. I've been burned and stabbed in the back so many times, I lost count. Throughout the years, I've managed to figure out other people, before I get too close.. In order to find good people in the world, you have to garden shrub through some of the bad people, I've had my heart broken many times by men, friends who turned on me and so on. We all fear rejection, ridicule, pain and disappointment. Yet we all experience it many times in our life time. We have to learn to deal with this, in a healthy way, order to move forward. First thing is, not to personalize events that happen in your life, I had a situation today in a parking lot, that made me very angry. I was walking through the parking lot and a guy almost hit me, trying to get into a parking space. That space was more important to him, then my safety. He didn't do this because it was me, anyone could have been there and he would have done the same thing.to them. After calming down and deciding against keying his new car, I went on with my business. Things happen that you have no control over and you need to learn to deal with them in the best way possible. Hopefully, your therapist can aide you in a more productive thought ptocess. It's no easy to change, but it can be done.
  12. Hello rhyl, You need to be honest with your therapist and tell them what;s going on. In order for therapy to work, you have to be totally upfront with the person who is helping you.
  13. I can see you're struggling with your emotions and I'm happy to hear you'll be seeing your therapist. Feeling that everyone hates you, is irrational. Granted not everyone is going to "love you", but that's ok. People have different personalities, likes and dislikes. I treat everyone the way I want to be treated and guess what? Some people like me and some people don't, that's just the way it is and I accept it. You can't spend all your energy worrying about other people's opinion of you. Focus on feeling better and being the person you want to be. Good luck with your therapist and let me know how it goes. (((hugs)))
  14. Hello Shy, We all have problems and we're here to vent and help each other. Your problems don't scare me, because I know where you're coming from. I've been in situations where I was so angry, I scared myself. I rather walk away and revisit the situation when I'm thinking clearly. Verbally slamming a person is not going to make them listen, in fact it will do the opposite. Your opinions matter and should be heard, but you need to voice them in a calm, direct manner. It took me along time to figure out, how to get people to listen to what I have to say. Being "heavy handed" in a conversation, tends to put people off. I think you need to give the forum a chance, I know I want to help you and I'm sure others would like to help too.
  15. Relaxing in bed and watching TV. Trying to stay warm. it's in the teens tonight.
  16. Hello Shy, I'm sorry you're going through this, I can understand your frustration and anger. Sometimes other people interpret anger as a threat and it scares them, as it did with your therapist. You can be angry and present it to others in many ways. I can get very angry, the point I can scare people. When I feel this emotion bubbling over, I stop and think about the situation. Will going off on someone make my situation better, or worse? Most of the times I come to the conclusion, it will make it worse. There are other ways of stating your opinion, so people will understand. Maybe if you take a step back and think about how you can make others understand, in a less aggressive manner. Believe me, I tried it and it works. If you want people to listen, present your opinions in a calm cool manner.
  17. Hi Pamers and welcome. I suffer from depression and have highs and lows, I suggest you see your doctor. A professional can diagnose you and provide the best treatment. You don't have to suffer alone, there's help for you. DF is a great place to seek advice and receive answers to your questions.
  18. Dear Char, I'm so sorry this happened to you, some people have no regard for other people's feelings. I've not had a true friend in my life. I try to make friends, but somewhere along the line, they have all let me down. What you had were not true friends, depression or not true friends are there for you. As far as the ex goes, sorry to say a lot of men are like that and many of us have experienced this. You're young and will learn from experience, you can't take everyone at face value
  19. I have a long family history of mental illness, on both sides. Suicides, depression and alcoholism run back as far as my great grandprents, Back then, nobody went for treatment, so I don't really know what they suffered from. I've tried numerous meds- Paxil Prozac Zoloft Cymbalta Celexa Seroquel Abilify Effexor Serzone Valium Klonopin Tofronil and I'm sure I'm forgetting a few others I do seem to have cyclic highs and lows, both can be extreme at times. This started in my mid twenties, and I suffered from anorexia in my early twenties. I have been dealing with this for many years and I can't seem to get any relief from my OCD, BBD, depression and anxiety. I've been with the same pdoc for twenty years and he knows my history.
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