jamesdean21

Ive talked to a really good therapist and weve gotten down to why this has been such a problem for me, and why it even happened in the first place. Shes been a lot of help and anybodies help has been good to me too, so thanks again people, hope everybody has a good summer, take care :)

Thanks everybody, the main reason i posted in lgbt is because ive known i was gay since high school, and since being about 18 ive been really proud to be gay, proud to know that what people might think is bad about me was actually really natural, beautiful and made me a better person. To iowa - I dont usually have a problem with obsessing over negative things, ive actually dealt with everything really well, except this, i guess for me it feels like my ultimate i dont want to be, and for a second it felt like i was in that position, and that really bothered me. Lek - You are right about a fantasy not being something that will turn someone into something one is not, i just felt like i was all alone and this was just one thing that i would never want to have to do with me, like its some issue i could have just lived without. and Burgy - i have been telling myself not to be hard on myself, it did feel like my mind went off on a tangent, like it just happened and then i was like i just cant, thats not me. i think i can move on, once i truly believe i dont have to torture myself about it, thats been the main problem. Thanks again you guys, youve been a big help, and i really appreciate it.

Hey everybody, im a 20 year old gay guy, and i have something bugging me, so last year in october i was fantasizing, and the thought of a boy came up, like a youthful face, and i imagined something for about 30 seconds but my conscience just wouldnt let me and i knew in my soul that i couldnt, and ive just been having trouble dealing with it, even though its been a while, i want to fully have peace with the fact that it happened, any advice?