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  1. I've been on Sertraline now for a month and I have to say I'm a nervous wreck on it. I was calm for the first week, now it's got to the stage where I'm having severe anxiety attacks every time I leave the house. I'm on 150mg of it.
  2. Hello, I have just recently started taking Sertraline (just under a week now) after almost 15 years of Seroxat. One side effect that I've noticed is that my hormones are racing. Without getting crude, I have the urge to ********* nearly all day every day, where as before I was feeling like that once every week or so. Could this be a side effect?
  3. I just want to isolate myself from the outside world and everyone else. I hate being alive and being hasslled by others.
  4. I get this alot. It tends to be sad songs that I get stuck in my head. It's horrible :(
  5. Really just want a nice amount of cash so i don't have to work or depend on benefits,purchase all the old action figures i had as a kid, close my door and not go back outside again. Sad existance i know but it would be more pleasent than being social in the world of today. No interest in a romantic relationship as it makes me sick. I just want to be left alone.
  6. I feel low and fed up with things. I turn 30 tomorrow and feel like 30 years on earth is too much.
  7. Over here in the UK, we not only have alcohol ads but ads for betting are far more frequent. Even ads advertising apps for betting on your phone. Although companies are within their rights to advertise, i find it quite alarming at the amount of ads for betting and drinking that are being shown. It's like the amount of TV shows that glorify sex and being "easy" if you're a female or a "player" if you're male. It's the culture and society, for the most part it's become degenerate and vulgar.
  8. You can thank the entertainment industry for the sexual attitudes of both male and females. I know women who are just as bad as men at drooling or or trying to insinuate that every man with tattoos or a good physique thinks he's God's gift and that he thinks he can have any woman. On the other hand you have celebrities dressing very scantily and young girls copy it innocently but to guys it sends off a message that the girl is "easy" or "looking for it" I tend to stay away from the opposite sexand not bother with relationships or a sex life, it's become a dangerous game with guys/girls cheating on their partners and i know girls can cry assault when they get drunk and make a mistake, which leaves an innocent man in a horrible position.
  9. Back in the summer of 2002 I started having severe panic attacks when outside, by October I was completely housebound and was diagnosed in January 2003 with Agoraphobia. It took 13 months for me to leave my house again, and then for years I'd go out once a week. Now I'm able to go out, have friends and got my first part time job at the age of 29 (30 in a couple of weeks) Over the past couple of years I've come to the realisation that getting help for Agoraphobia was the one thing i regret. Now all i want to do is stay housebound and away from the outside world. I recently got dragged through a 13 month court case for giving a girl a compliment, she went to the police and i was charged with breach of the peace and very close to being placed on the sex offenders register. I was found guilty of aggressive behaviour and put on supervision for a year for a simple polite comment. The world has gone completely mad and I now no longer speak to or look at women at all (unless their in my group of friends) I will never have a sexual relationship because i simply don't trust women, too many have cried assault on innocent men, and i'm not putting myself in that position. With this ordeal i no longer know what is a crime and what isn't. The best life is indoors away from the psycho's on the streets and the rats in the police force.
  10. Thanks Flash. When you mention that I have plenty of life left to lie, that saddens me, i really don't like life
  11. For 12 years I've had a severe anxiety disorder to the point where I was agrophobic for 14 months. Since then I've never been the same when I'm out, constant worrying and feeling anxious. However now I'm just just and anxious all the time. I've been on so many meds,Including being given 2mg of diazepam to take when I feel bad, but I refuse to take it because I feel worse the next day and at this rate of anxiety I'd be taking it everyday. I'm 28 years old and still living with my parents, no job and I missed the cut off date for college. I have nothing to live for and just feel miserable every day. I don't think I'll ever be able to hold down a job, especially with this social phobia and anxiety
  12. I'm 28 in January, got no job, had no girlfriend and still at home with my parents. I've only just started college 2 months ago. I'm trying to get work experience or part time work but because of my lack of work in the past due to social anxiety,agoraphobia,panic disorder no one is giving me a chance. I honestly wish I could get a gun and just blow myself right out of this s***ty world. I hate living and each day that passes I get more and more irritated and fed up.
  13. How much pain and desperation must one be in, do you think, for suicide to be a viable option? Where does it cross the line from being a selfish act to an acceptable one, or would you say it's completely subjective? EDIT: Are you saying that suicide can never be done for selfish reasons? I only ask this because it seems that many are of the opinion that suicide is always selfish, because they believe that the meaning of life is to live for others. Stuarachel Since you are living for your parents, am I safe to assume you believe suicide is selfish in the case that your family is alive? I wouldn't say I think it's selfish at all, I just don't want my parents to find me dead. Their really is no easy way to answer whether it's selfish or not
  14. As soon as my parents pass away I'm going too. I'm only staying here for them
  15. have you tried dating websites? Have you ever had a sexual relationship? Yes I have tried dating websites and their a complete joke and waste of time. No no sexual relationship because I've not had a girlfriend. I'm focusing on my career and trying to get a place of my own now instead of getting girls.
  16. You're not alone. I'm 27 don't even look at girls anymore because for 27 and a half years they've ignored me. I guess some people get a partner and some don't
  17. I'm now 27 years old, worked for 4 months and been ill with severe anxiety disorder and depression. I've got the the point now where I just want to be gone before my life gets any less meaningful. I can't drive, I'm still at home with my parents and single of course. I have the want to be successful but can't stop my anxiety. I couldn't sit in college and finding a job is painfully difficult. I get up in the morning and sit at my laptop most the day because I have absolutly nothing to do. I hate where my life is going and anxiety and depression is seriously preventing me from achieving anything
  18. On Jan 3rd I'll be 27 years old and never had a girl kiss me much less had a girlfriend. I've tried to meet people, changed my image and have very good hygene. I'm honestly getting really sad and p***** off that not one girl will look twice at me,i'm just invisible to them. I just want to find my own place and live away from everyone in peace.
  19. I'm thinking suicide. Best for everyone. No one will employ me, people I thought were friends have cut me off completely out of nowhere, I've experienced life and it's not for me. I'm pretty much dead inside
  20. The post traumatic stress disorder really makes sense with me. I was bullied by a couple of thugs that I should've put on their backsides but I never did, and to this day I still haven't forgiven them and still have nightmares about going to school.
  21. I have mentioned this to past therapists and was told it was intrusive thoughts. I'm going to mention it to my psychologist this week. It's such a horrible thing to live with. Thank you for the response btw.
  22. I've recently been having very upsetting and morbid thoughts such as death of loved ones,suicide and m*****. It's got to the point where I can't focus on anything without one of these thoughts coming up. The one that really scared the s*** out of me was the m***** thought. I know it may sound like I'm a psychopath or something but I've never hurt anyone in my life and am a very emotional person. I've watched a lot of horror films for many years and have been a die hard fan from a young age. I learned quickly that they were all make up and unrealistic and know the difference from right and wrong. I've been told that these thoughts are so frightening and strong because their not part of my usual thought process but It's still a terrifying thought. Can anyone recommend or relate (I doubt it) to morbid thoughts ruining their day ? p.s I've stopped watching violent films at least until I'm in a better place mentally.
  23. I've watched horror movies from an early age and loved the adreneline/fear of watching them. I'm now convinced that they along with smoking stuff in my teen years caused my anxiety/panic disorder. The only thing that really scares me is thought of ever hurting someone due to influence of movie violence. I was bullied by thugs in school and I've never really forgiven them, could long lasting effects from bullying lead to violent thoughts leading to actions ? p.s My fave movie is Goodfellas - hardly a horror and I don't want or think about going around dealing drugs,hijacking trucks or shooting people lol
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