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bill2009

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  • Birthday 10/21/1956

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    surviving one day at a time

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  1. hey Dark :) I've been away from thre forum awhile making a fool of myself pretending to be wooing a female human. it aint gonna work, so I'm gonna give up again. what an *****. one day.........ONE day, I will learn. not yet, apparently. but the day is approaching rapidly. as for being or not being around other people, to hell with em. there's too d*** many of them anyway. someone should invent condoms or something. know what I mean? speaking for and OF myself, what a zipperhead. a zillion times bitten and not a clue how to be shy. the saying really is "once bitten twice shy". I really don't even know what it means. who cares? hope YOU are feeliong better!
  2. hey Dark :) I've been away from thre forum awhile making a fool of myself pretending to be wooing a female human. it aint gonna work, so I'm gonna give up again. what an *****. one day.........ONE day, I will learn. not yet, apparently. but the day is approaching rapidly. as for being or not being around other people, to hell with em. there's too d*** many of them anyway. someone should invent condoms or something. know what I mean?
  3. thanks Adam. I know, there is always something to live for. and we may not always get what we want, and we may well not get no satisfaction either :)but there is always something to care for, to be here for. my critters mostly in my case. I don't think I'm ready for humans yet. I may well never be ready for humans again. oh well, what a shame. critters are better anyway. thanks for your kind words!
  4. I'm still here. thought I'd just check in with you guys. life still sucks and always will. I stand by my original comment. no more attempts a 'LOVE' whatever that means. I think I'm going to enjoy being hateful and bitter a lot more than feeling like I do now. see y'all around some day, without a doubt, it is time to start drinking VERY heavily and give up on everything. screw it all
  5. nope. what you said is VERY helpful. thanks. I favor avacados my own self. peas are ok if they are in a pan pie or something. see? I got it. anyway, the girl. pfffttttt.... we've not dated. but I've had 6 massages from her and tried to be cute and hint around I was interested. I believe she is either playing hard to get, TOTALLY not my bag, or is genuinely disinterested. either way, it's the same. zip. going nowhere real fast. enough is enough. I need to find a new massage therapist because my arm is messed up. if she's a knock out? I still aint hittin on her. if she hits on me? I shant play hard to get. what kind of girl do you think we are anyway :) I hope you're a Zappa fan, else ya won't get the joke. cheers!
  6. Old GlueGirl eh? lol!! not quite. it's hard for everyone I think. except drunks and crack addicts. I tried that. bummer is, ya can't remember if it was any good or not. thanks for the good luck wishes. love life still in the crapper. the forecast is , there it shall remain for the forseeable future. when should a person quit giving a (expletive)? 40 is too young. but what about 55? I think I've had it. too much ****** trouble anyway :)
  7. really???? Does that mean I'm permanently physiologically damaged as well as psychologically???? I've never had a bf in all my 25 years of date-able age, I must be well and truly stuffed. Time for a cat ;) I'm pleased to see you sounding a little more chipper. not necessarily. he's still a quack. even with all the degrees and everything. ya know? 25 date-able years eh? 40? 40-ish? heck, that's young. I am 55. it's now or never for me. and from now on, any girl I fall for is gonna get that mantra as well. course........I don't fall that often. that's why the most recent one has me so annoyed.
  8. glad you are better. hijacking the thread is ok by me. as I say, keep an eye peeled for a mod or an admin. they all seem very nice, so the heck with it. interesting idea about the history. right now, I'm just trying to keep it all alive. my folks did not build the houses. they are tracy houses, translated into..........what? in englishter? council house or something? land is different there. out here, it WAS plentiful. now they cram houses onto tiny lots. as for houseplants, there are self watering pots. you do have to put water in the reservoir once in awhile though :) what is the weather like? cold? rainy? you tell me, I have no idea. I like hiking, not camping. egad. too much work. that's what motels were invented for :)
  9. yep yep, still here. I am now a bit hot and cold on my love of my life. it occurs, if she does not send back some reciprocal signals soon, I shall move on. I may be way off base, but I don't care. my psychiatrist even told me, "you need to find a girlfriend NOW. in 10 or 15 years, simple physiology will takes it natural course and things won't be the same" what good advice! now or never, babe! I aint got all b l o o d y day!!
  10. I filled out all that nonsense, and there were 3 ladies in my area. none of them had a thing in their headline. pretty silly, but oh well ;)
  11. thank you very much blue thunder! I look forward to your visit, and to speaking with all my new friends on this discussion. the discussion does not have to stick to the title as far as I am concerbed. let's wait and see waht a nice moderator or administaration perosn says :) cheers to you as well! am staying busy, realizing my self worth, and how much I am needed. MAN, am I needed. the work never ends. I wish the best to all of you crammed in an apartment. you have a nice gift and quality I have not acheived. being minimalists. there is so much junk in these 2 houses, it is nothing short of utterly and completely ridiculous. be prepared for lots of silly work when you move into a house. and have an "everything must go" sale before you move. bring the clothes on your back and any cherished pets. I want to do that SO SO badly. I feel like pitching a tent in one of the yards so I can have some space, but a cat or a dog will come in and attack me if I try!!!
  12. >>I think what BlueThunder says about loving yourself is very important. I have great trouble with that myself, but I know that you have to start with yourself before others can love and appreciate you<< yes, I agree. but there is also a fine line there. and a time factor. how much time do I have left in my life to fully learn to love and appreciate myself? not that much in my opinion. so, while I agree, I think there can be a concept of ignoring yourself a little more and possibly have the same effect. let other people appreciate you or not. and stay busy. but I do know what you mean. avoiding negative and distracting people is important. not being negative and distracting myself is also important. I agree with what you and Blue Thunder and many others have said about this. in my opinion, it need to be concommitant with getting on with my life in the best bumbling way I know how, if you see what I mean :) I simply do not have time to acheive full self actualization and self realization. I think that takes many lifetimes and I am here NOW, wallowing in the muck and the mire and the creme de menthe alsong with everyone else. it's tme to live NOW................right now. here and now, and learn to love myself if and when I can. make sense? I am not invalidating anyone. simply adding to your concepts. !! :)
  13. hi! yes, gardenias are neat. they are really touchy. if you can stick to stuff that will stand the heat and less water, more's the better for you! um, as I told jennie, we have a lot of stuff that is not REALLY supposed to be here. so, it's a lot of work. and sometimes the plants snuff it no matter what I do. there's book called western gardens by...can't remember. but I don't like the new version. the old old version is better. where are you now, if not in phoenix?
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