nealy

Thanks all... It's nice to know there are other people out there like me, but it also saddens me because I know the pain and emptiness you feel, and nobody should have to feel this way. I do have some trouble when it comes to starting conversations, because I really lack confidence. I don't feel as if I have anything to offer. Then I feel that I come off as boring, and maybe even a snob. I did sign up yesterday to become a volunteer at the Wildlife refuge, helping injured and orphaned wildlife. I know I will love that, I love animals. Today, I checked out some classes to learn how to crochet. I've done a little bit in the past, and I loved it, but have since forgotten everything I learned. Maybe I will meet some people there.

Hey all .. I need some support. I am so lonely, that it hurts. I have no friends, and believe me I've tried to make some. I can get through most days but then nights like tonight, I feel this emptiness inside that I can't even explain. I usually just cry to release the pain. I feel like I am the only person in this world like this.I would do anything to have just one close friend in my life. I can't imagine living another 50+ years in this lonely world I am stuck in. How do I cope with this pain?

Thanks. I decided not to go, as I got myself so worked up that I threw up. I just started seeing a therapist last Friday and will be seeing her every Friday the next few weeks. I am extremely messed up

I have had trouble getting/keeping a job the past 5 years. Everytime I find a job, I worry about it constantly. I start a new temp job tomorrow morning and it is a 10 hour shift. I haven't worked in almost 8 months. I am literally freaking out right now. The horrible thing is that I almost wish I would get sick, or something serious would happen so I had an excuse to get out of it. But then again, I am sick, mentally. There are so many things I want to have, and want to do, and want to accomplish. But even those aren't good enough reasons to motivate me. What am I supposed to do? I can't survive without a job. I WANT to work. But I CANT! Why does this keep happening? Why can't I just get a job and go to work like everyone else? If I give up this job, I doubt I will get any other chances because of how horrible my job history is. I am going to lose everything, because my best friend can't support me by himself. I just got an eviction notice, and my electricity is going to be shut off. What the hell is the point in even living, if I can't afford to live?

I can be really mean to someone when i am feeling lonely and really depressed. I think it's a way of getting attention somehow. They don't know it, they just think i am being a b***h. I hate being this way.