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  1. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

  2. What Are You Doing? (9)

    Watching hockey canadiens vs lighting
  3. What Are You Listening To Right Now?

    The Enigma TNG - Midnight
  4. Dream came true

    I completely agree. Although it's always better when the person is alive and well, the fact that it's technically possible to meet and communicate, and that the future is uncertain and you never know if your paths will cross again makes it really challenging to move on
  5. Dream came true

    One of my dreams for many years was to have a big heartbreak. I had never had one and felt I was missing out. I knew it was a symptom of my inability to fall in love. Then it happened. I fell in love. For the first time in two decades. She was not available. There was no possibility. I was, and still am, crushed. I'm living the dream. I'm glad I now have the ability to attach myself. This came with a price. I found out that the other side of love is loss. The more you love something, the harder the loss. The harder the distress. The bereavement. The crying. The hopelessness. The powerlessness. I'm also finding out that I have more strength in me than I thought. This situation is forcing me to rebuild myself. It also brought me closer to other people who've been through the same thing. And these might be better gifts than if I had ended up with this particular person.
  6. Responding with enthusiasm to the toxic things. With boredom and indifference to the beneficial things.

  7. What Are You Listening To Right Now?

    Bardo Pond - Dom's Lament
  8. That moment of discouragement in the middle of untangling earplugs.

  9. My desire to be carefree is in contradiction with my desire to be in a relationship. It's like squaring the circle. Will one win over the other? Will some kind of peace be achieved?

  10. A fruit is better eaten ripe.

  11. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Unmotivated, don't want to get out of bed.
  12. What Are You Listening To Right Now?

    Starbucks ambient music.
  13. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Slept terribly, feeling like a zombie.
  14. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

  15. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Missing someone to the point of aching.
  16. Before I settle on a realistic plan, I have to test and exhaust all the unrealistic ones.

    1. HeatherG


      Unrealistic plans...  I have many.  :)

  17. Getting a pet... starting a relationship... basically signing up for crying of grief in a not so distant future.

  18. The purpose of life? I don't know...

    Sounds like you are not deriving a lot of enjoyment out of life. No surprise that life starts feeling meaningless under such circumstances. What are things you think you might enjoy but have been postponing?
  19. What Are You Listening To Right Now?

    Twitch channel featuring FF8.
  20. Note to self: Beware of who you let enter your heart, and beware of making your way into someone else's heart despite not being truly interested and available.

  21. Out of Being.