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Hertz

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Hertz last won the day on January 5 2018

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About Hertz

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  • Birthday 09/06/1981

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  1. I have forgotten what it feels like to believe in the future.

  2. If I went into a time machine, it's likely I would just make different mistakes. Being human means making mistakes. That's how we evolve. People who are happy did not make less mistakes. They were priviledged to receive tools to better cope with mistakes. They had more supportive, more encouraging parents. They felt loved and supported, so their mistakes don't affect their sense of self-worth. I think a better avenue is to own our mistakes and learn from them.
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    I don't buy it anymore. Feeling disconnected from society, from humanity. One day I will be dead and nothing will matter anymore. In the meantime, I don't buy into any reason to live or contribute. One positive note: my back has been getting steadily better since the end of august.
  4. Maybe I should just live on the street or something.

  5. Hertz

    Unemployed

    Looking into driving trucks and deliver packages.
  6. I want to be girly and do girly things. Yet I don't attempt anything and fall into rank.

  7. Hertz

    Unemployed

    Unemployed and very unhopeful about finding a job I like. (Why the hell does it skip a line when I press return on my phone) Sitting in a coffee shop drinking an expresso on a rainy day, looking out the window, thinking it makes perfect sense why people fall into addictions. I see two pedestrians smoking cigarettes waiting for the green light to cross the street. Getting their dose of pleasure and reward. Would they have gotten this habit if their lives were rewarding? It can take so many shapes. Cigarettes, compulsive smartphone use, video games, overeating, porn addiction etc. Such a variety of roads. Sometimes true authentic rewards seem out of reach, or insufficient. And addiction so tempting, like a big mamma always with her arms open.
  8. I don't buy it anymore.

  9.  I'll never find a job I like.

  10. Hertz

    Changes

    I think the anti-depressants are finally kicking in. After like 4 months. I think it took a while because I wasn't taking them consistently, mostly due to interference caused by cannabis. Simply put, I could not ingest both on the same day to avoid unpleasant effects, so I would skip medication multiple times a week. 3 weeks ago I had my last joint. Feeling more solid. Back and neck pain have dropped significantly. This on its own is like a prayer answered. Dealing with chronic pain was a huge source of distress. Energy levels are kind of wobbly. I've been relying on coffee a lot these past days, without always great results. I've been feeling pretty contemplative these past days, listening to a lot of music.
  11. I want to fire the general, but I am the general.

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