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    Gisele reacted to Natasha1 in Tell Me Something I Don't Know   
    lol. Oh Gisele i just love what you write!
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    Gisele got a reaction from Natasha1 in Tell Me Something I Don't Know   
    Gasping? That's a good word for it because that's what I was doing. Still am.
    My sister-in-law (who is a peach and whom I love a great deal) did remind me gently that I am worse than anybody with that sort of thing.
    But .... if I am going to get what I deserve, can't this be done in instalments!? Tiny ones. More gasping.
    He is still in a world of s*** 
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    Gisele got a reaction from GSpolar in Self-hatred   
    I have read your blog for a long time now and cannot help but feel the anguish of your spiritual self. I resist saying it .... mainly because I don't want it to frustrate you by missing the point .... but it really feels like you're living in two halves; a corporeal self long since left and a spiritual self losing the will to drag it back.
    I hope your spiritual self  can remain right here, on Earth, and live the life it deserves. For you, for others, maybe even the wider world. It needs oxygen and not being ridden into the ground. That would make a saint angry. 
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Thought of the day   
    You're a deeply spiritual man ... is a chosen death the end of suffering or the beginning of hope? I think, with no great certainty, that I was going for the latter when i was choosing it. 
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    Gisele got a reaction from Tux in It's sink or swim time!   
    Going home can be arduous and I can't do it even now without a few frayed edges, and even long without the one person that loosened those threads.
    I especially like your remark about showing your little one your heritage.
    Hope it's everything and more!
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in The Jolly Man in the Red Suit   
    Hope he pops down your chimney for a quick visit then.
    Best you don't keep him too long ;)
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    Gisele got a reaction from Natasha1 in For All My DF Friends   
    This is why you're leadership material
    I may be an unreconstructed, ______ ,  ______  ______ but I do know a quality entry when I see one!
    I second the above
     
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from Tux in Gah!!   
    Yeah, it's completely disgusting. But it actually works!
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    Gisele got a reaction from Tux in Gah!!   
    A teaspoon of sugar is THE antidote for hiccups
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    Gisele got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in For All My DF Friends   
    This is why you're leadership material
    I may be an unreconstructed, ______ ,  ______  ______ but I do know a quality entry when I see one!
    I second the above
     
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from GSpolar in Why even try   
    I'm desperately sad, sadder than you might know, to read that you're struggling so gravely. I wish there were words. No, I wish for something beyond words.
    I don't pray but there is a candle burning half a world a way for you. I don't exactly know why I lit it except a wish for purpose and meaning and anything that makes tomorrow a place you really want to visit.
    The good ones always go, for better or for worse. Weird that middling goes nowhere.
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from carter_burn1 in Why even try   
    I'm desperately sad, sadder than you might know, to read that you're struggling so gravely. I wish there were words. No, I wish for something beyond words.
    I don't pray but there is a candle burning half a world a way for you. I don't exactly know why I lit it except a wish for purpose and meaning and anything that makes tomorrow a place you really want to visit.
    The good ones always go, for better or for worse. Weird that middling goes nowhere.
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Why even try   
    I'm desperately sad, sadder than you might know, to read that you're struggling so gravely. I wish there were words. No, I wish for something beyond words.
    I don't pray but there is a candle burning half a world a way for you. I don't exactly know why I lit it except a wish for purpose and meaning and anything that makes tomorrow a place you really want to visit.
    The good ones always go, for better or for worse. Weird that middling goes nowhere.
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from carter_burn1 in Rat Friend   
    There's nothing insane about taking a wide view in a small part of the world. Probably more enlightened than anything.
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Rat Friend   
    There's nothing insane about taking a wide view in a small part of the world. Probably more enlightened than anything.
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    Gisele got a reaction from Dysthymic9 in Positive news can always make negative spirits rise♡   
    True that...and that...and that...and that!
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    Gisele got a reaction from carter_burn1 in Void, self-esteem   
    Personally, i'm not a fan of the language of recovery and all the bulls*** nomenclature that goes with it. Self love may just be the most loathsome, like it can be found at the pointy end of some arduous, lonely journey instead of what it really is, the reflection of everything that is given.
    As for Acceptance, that's just what people who have a hard time accepting anything nonetheless insist you do for yourself. It's wafty and useless. Funny how actual, real, durable acceptance never utters it's own name.
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Void, self-esteem   
    Personally, i'm not a fan of the language of recovery and all the bulls*** nomenclature that goes with it. Self love may just be the most loathsome, like it can be found at the pointy end of some arduous, lonely journey instead of what it really is, the reflection of everything that is given.
    As for Acceptance, that's just what people who have a hard time accepting anything nonetheless insist you do for yourself. It's wafty and useless. Funny how actual, real, durable acceptance never utters it's own name.
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    Gisele got a reaction from JasonDark in Should I stay or should I go   
    Sometimes all anyone can do is stare at the thing they hate (which may very well be their whole world) and back away from it slowly with no real sense of where they are headed. Just somewhere, anywhere, to breath or find a tiny shaft of light which could be just enough to turn around and walk towards it.  
    When I first got here, I lived in such a world. Now I don't. I don't know what saved me except the slivers of light which lived in the hearts of good people. Not perfect people; perfect-for-me people. It nearly wasn't enough and too often isn't for far too many.
    To reflect on something you said at the top of the page, I would really urge you not to lose a wink over who you can't save but who you can walk with, without feeling indebted or inadequate or hollow or any other of those reflections of the world you hate. Parallel worlds aren't fiction.
    XO
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Should I stay or should I go   
    Sometimes all anyone can do is stare at the thing they hate (which may very well be their whole world) and back away from it slowly with no real sense of where they are headed. Just somewhere, anywhere, to breath or find a tiny shaft of light which could be just enough to turn around and walk towards it.  
    When I first got here, I lived in such a world. Now I don't. I don't know what saved me except the slivers of light which lived in the hearts of good people. Not perfect people; perfect-for-me people. It nearly wasn't enough and too often isn't for far too many.
    To reflect on something you said at the top of the page, I would really urge you not to lose a wink over who you can't save but who you can walk with, without feeling indebted or inadequate or hollow or any other of those reflections of the world you hate. Parallel worlds aren't fiction.
    XO
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Should I stay or should I go   
    I can only speak for me but when you fight back from this, that will be the only sort of encouragement that means anything to me.
    I dunno ... a few cute words that may or may not have a meaning to someone to gloss over your own s*** and your own suffering isn't community. I'll miss your walk, not what you have got to say about anyone else's.
     
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from Lady Mozzer in Really Living ?   
    Lady Mozzer,
    I have thought this for some time (like that means anything?) but just wanted you to know that for what you have said, for what you haven't and for never blaming anyone for it, I hope you get everything good in life you deserve!
    Life and other things are pulling me away from this place so, if I never write another thing, I at least needed to say that much.
    XO
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    Gisele got a reaction from ejc in Was I on some emotional high? What-is-wrong-with-me?   
    Keep at it EJC!
    True, you're in a tough place as they all are when you're neither quite out of where you were nor where your better self plans to be. Gravity is going to keep pulling you back and it I imagine is incredibly difficult at times.
    I don't imagine I have any sense of what's best for you. I can imagine though that this loneliness is the price of admission. I think it's much like escaping addiction and that first and one of the most excruciating parts of that is purging yourself of the poison. Your not less for hesitating. You wouldn't be human if you didn't!
     
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Was I on some emotional high? What-is-wrong-with-me?   
    Keep at it EJC!
    True, you're in a tough place as they all are when you're neither quite out of where you were nor where your better self plans to be. Gravity is going to keep pulling you back and it I imagine is incredibly difficult at times.
    I don't imagine I have any sense of what's best for you. I can imagine though that this loneliness is the price of admission. I think it's much like escaping addiction and that first and one of the most excruciating parts of that is purging yourself of the poison. Your not less for hesitating. You wouldn't be human if you didn't!
     
     
     
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    Gisele got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Humiliation Party of 1 and you can't sit with me anymore   
    I think we're all born with an instinct that life eats away. Some people have it beaten out of them, others maybe more slowly to the wind and weather of bad choices and bad luck. I think too I replied to your blog in the first instance because a certain instinct seemed to be writ large throughout. And having it is more important right now than cruelling yourself for ignoring it. If you feel hurt in your gut, then how can it be wrong? At least it isn't or it shouldn't be until your head and habit steal this from you.
    I just wish I understand better where it came from because I have the opposite problem. I would love to say I was taught to help others but I was taught by living example to only help myself. As much as it never sat well, instinctively, it still took a long time to learn that helping others out of spite for my demons wasn't necessarily as helpful as helping for helping's sake.
    Like everything here, the answer is probably somewhere in the middle and I hope you find it. I really do. Equally, I hope you forgive yourself some over-correction.
     
     
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