Probably if I had also lost a friend, I would have gone completely crazy, so you're a hero if you still somehow hold on. In fact, massage is really able to help in the fight against depression. A friend of mine who helps people to undergo rehabilitation told me about how massage helps to cope with depression. However, massage can only help if you want it to help you, when you want to get a massage and you like it, and not when you tolerate it to get rid of depression. The fact is that our emotions and physical sensations are connected when the body gets pleasure, emotionally you also get pleasure and this helps you cope with negativity.