I got emotionally hurt and frustrated during my fight with my fiance today. I slapped myself and cried from real pain simultaneously. I wanted to stop feeling that pain. And hitting myself then, it just makes no sense. I never want to feel that way again. I get it. Hitting yourself can feel like a lot of things. It can also be a way to feel something other than emotional hurt also. That slap distracted my mind from my hurt feelings and focused on the red pain on my cheek and eye which took the brunt of the hit. I never want to feel that way again. My cheek hurts. My eye hurts. My heart also hurts. I don't know why I did this.