I really appreciate you all commenting on my post. It feels good to get it out there… All the lies and manipulation that constantly surround me is so toxic. She pretends that everything is fine and says whatever she needs to say to keep up this really pathetic pretense of “she’s fine, she doesn’t have any serious issues.” I just have to sit there silently or all hell breaks loose. It’s really difficult to feel any hope right now. It’s hard to keep going and not just give up and lay in bed. Logically I know I’m already in the process of making things better. Tentative move out date is sometime in October if everything goes well. I’ve already been approved for the loans. Tiny house construction process has begun. I’m hoping I’ll be able to secure the land and button up last minute details before the snow hits. Fingers crossed. Idk what I’ll do if I have to spend another winter here with her. The way I feel right now… I just feel like I really don’t want to find out what a complete nervous collapse actually feels like.