Friend, I'm sorry for you. But no need to think about suicidal thoughts. I hope you are well and all is well with you. I, too, once had pneumonia and did not want to live. And all because of the fact that he did not monitor his health and constantly smoked cigarettes. And I should have been checked every few months, or at least once a year. My best friend told me to use special software to monitor my health www.iinsight.biz , but I didn't listen to him. As a result, I was sick for more than three months, and I didn't want to live anymore, but I still beat this disease, and now I feel excellent, you can do it too!