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  1. I hope you are doing better in general. Isolation sucks but for me it works but young people shouldn't be so, you should be enjoying your life though I know mental illness can make very difficult. 

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      vega57

      my family is really the only ones I spend time with, I really enjoy doing this, my children,, not kids anymore but still my kids and my grandkids. I don't spend much time with my siblings anymore, things have really changed since my brother was killed on the line of duty followed by many more family members, not only on my side but also on my wife's side. my siblings and I used to be extremely close but things have changed, we sort of avoid each other, maybe its a way of dealing with so much death. M being alone is not really being lonely unless it effects you so, if it does you should not be alone, not good for you. we spend time in couple different places but both are a bit secluded; I spend time doing wood work and teaching my grandkids about life through this and since camping season is here we are getting our stuff ready. to me its important to be calm in the midst of the storm of life so I try to pass on what I've learned to those who want to learn. here is a bit of advice I wish I had harken in my youth, learn to gage people because not everyone who present themselves as your friends really are and either only want something from you and your expense. again, you need to at least try to be around others because even at your age you are still very young and can benefit in many ways from good people.  

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  2. I hope you are doing better in general. Isolation sucks but for me it works but young people shouldn't be so, you should be enjoying your life though I know mental illness can make very difficult. 

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      vega57

      I always stay busy doing what I enjoy and in reality I'm better company to myself than to others, especially after so deaths in our family. And I'm twice your age so I've learned to be comfortable with myself so I'm not lonely being by myself. but you are in the age where you should and even need to be interacting with others. I also have ptsd so I feel overwhelmed quickly when around to many people; when I do go out to say a restaurant I'm constantly going outside and I have to face window so I rather not. But again I've learned to be comfortable with myself but you shouldn't, at least not yet. And I've had my fill of people, I'm sort of well known in my area since my police officer brother was killed in the line of duty and I agreed to an interview. I make birdhouses among other things and give them away so that also helps. I live in a very isolated area, my house is obscured which I like.

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  3. hey blue just wondering how you are, heard you haven't been around for a while, it was the same for me, i'm hoping to connect with some of the old gang. Frank

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      vega57

      Sorry I haven't gotten back to you, don't come here must anymore since October last year but it's really good to hear from you. You were here when I started back in ancient times. Lol. Hope you are doing well, well as well as we can dealing with mental illness. Please drop me a line to know you're ok.

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  4. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VEGA57!!  :birfdayCake:  :party:

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      vega57

      I actually took them to a small independent store that sells German power tools, can't remember the name but it worked. Lol. We were in there about 5 minutes tops and got the power tool I wanted for my birthday. Yep these are not the stores for most women unless shopping for the male in their family. But I stress most. Txs again so much. I really hope you had a wonderful day and that your tomorrow's will be even more awesome. 

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  5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VEGA57!!  :birfdayCake:  :party:

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      vega57

      I certainly will but first breakfast with my girls  (5 daughters and I think 7 granddaughters. Lol. Then they want to take me shopping but I hate that. 

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  6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VEGA57!!  :birfdayCake:  :party:

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      vega57

      Thank you so LS.  I WAS trying not to remember that today I turned 59!!! It seems like just yesterday I was in my twenties. Lol.  Txs again. Have a great one. 

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  7. I walk up to a building that at first appears to be a Catholic Church or something similar, how I got there is have no idea. I walk to my right arm now it's an old school elementary school, the type in attended: many rooms in straight line with large windows on both sides. I hear women's voices and low music, I try to peak in but the windows are either dirty or foggy, not sure; I find a small clearing on the glass and I spot two women and a female child around 10; all three are dress very elegantly in Spanish clothing from the 1800s, very colorful and full length. I know there's more people and activity but I can't see them. It's the grandmother, mother and daughter. They are discussing something that at first I can't make out but I then realize that all the men are miners and there has been a serious accident, they don't know who has died; these women are leaders in the community and they all live in these buildings. The mother is telling her daughter to move away from the conversation. Suddenly up in the corner there's an old school radio where news of the mine accident is blaring but there's no electricity yet only candle power. Then suddenly the scene starts playing over and over like an old fashioned movie reel. Then I realize that they  are caught in a time warp, this actually happened many years back but they are reliving it over and over. I've always wondered about this dream, it'll suddenly pop into my thoughts. I get the sense that I'm to help them but of course I don't know how. Any help will be greatly appreciated. Txs. 

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      vega57

      Thank you so much for helping me. Even at this stage of my life it's hard for me to have self worth but the one thing I learned is to not pass it on to my children; I wish and want to tell you that I always succeeded at this but I'd be lying. I made many mistakes raising my children but the most important thing is that they were always safe from physical, mental and verbal abuse and they have always knownhow much I love them and my wife also. I know I'll struggle with this till I take my last breath but it no longer consumes me though it does pop up here and there. My children love me so much, much more than I deserve, so do my grandkids and wife and I love them without measure. Thank you again very, very much and thank for offering to be here and I reciprocate the offer. 

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  8. I walk up to a building that at first appears to be a Catholic Church or something similar, how I got there is have no idea. I walk to my right arm now it's an old school elementary school, the type in attended: many rooms in straight line with large windows on both sides. I hear women's voices and low music, I try to peak in but the windows are either dirty or foggy, not sure; I find a small clearing on the glass and I spot two women and a female child around 10; all three are dress very elegantly in Spanish clothing from the 1800s, very colorful and full length. I know there's more people and activity but I can't see them. It's the grandmother, mother and daughter. They are discussing something that at first I can't make out but I then realize that all the men are miners and there has been a serious accident, they don't know who has died; these women are leaders in the community and they all live in these buildings. The mother is telling her daughter to move away from the conversation. Suddenly up in the corner there's an old school radio where news of the mine accident is blaring but there's no electricity yet only candle power. Then suddenly the scene starts playing over and over like an old fashioned movie reel. Then I realize that they  are caught in a time warp, this actually happened many years back but they are reliving it over and over. I've always wondered about this dream, it'll suddenly pop into my thoughts. I get the sense that I'm to help them but of course I don't know how. Any help will be greatly appreciated. Txs. 

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      vega57

      She went into menopause when I was born and I was told that it changed her completely; I never saw the happy go lucky person that my older siblings talked about. Sadly for me and her she physically took out her anger and frustration on me. I am telling you something that I've never repeated evento my wife much less my children and grandchildren: she would whip me with electricalcords severely and with what ever else was handy until I was old enough to defend myself.  I blamed my older siblings, I am the youngest for not defending and leaving me, they all would leave when old enough. This is one of the main reasons I don't look into my childhood very much. I lived a very distructive live for many years to the point of facingredients death many times both in civilian and military life. I realize it sounds crazy but I loved my mother, I learned to forgive her and make peace with her and with what she did. In the last years of her life my wife and I took care of her. She died in my arms and I miss her. Anyway enough. I face life and depression head on and the best I can. Despite all adversity I think I turned out ok: I have empathy and sympathy for all humanity and I always look for the best in them. I shower my children and grandchildren with love and affection, something I never experienced until I met my precious wife, had children and now grandkids. Thank you so much M38 you really have helped me. 

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  9. I walk up to a building that at first appears to be a Catholic Church or something similar, how I got there is have no idea. I walk to my right arm now it's an old school elementary school, the type in attended: many rooms in straight line with large windows on both sides. I hear women's voices and low music, I try to peak in but the windows are either dirty or foggy, not sure; I find a small clearing on the glass and I spot two women and a female child around 10; all three are dress very elegantly in Spanish clothing from the 1800s, very colorful and full length. I know there's more people and activity but I can't see them. It's the grandmother, mother and daughter. They are discussing something that at first I can't make out but I then realize that all the men are miners and there has been a serious accident, they don't know who has died; these women are leaders in the community and they all live in these buildings. The mother is telling her daughter to move away from the conversation. Suddenly up in the corner there's an old school radio where news of the mine accident is blaring but there's no electricity yet only candle power. Then suddenly the scene starts playing over and over like an old fashioned movie reel. Then I realize that they  are caught in a time warp, this actually happened many years back but they are reliving it over and over. I've always wondered about this dream, it'll suddenly pop into my thoughts. I get the sense that I'm to help them but of course I don't know how. Any help will be greatly appreciated. Txs. 

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      vega57

      Thank you. My dream was after Spain but the confusing thing about it is that I used to think that it occurred way after but now I'm not certain. Yeah I choose not to look back into my childhood to much because it's just to painful, especially in reference to my mother. From what I'm told by my older siblings she had a pretty good life in her youth but she never really recovered from loosing her first husband. I didn't even know that she had been a medical doctor in the mountains of Mexico. Lots to contemplate. The radio always threw me off cause to me it just didn't go with the dream. 

       

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  10. I walk up to a building that at first appears to be a Catholic Church or something similar, how I got there is have no idea. I walk to my right arm now it's an old school elementary school, the type in attended: many rooms in straight line with large windows on both sides. I hear women's voices and low music, I try to peak in but the windows are either dirty or foggy, not sure; I find a small clearing on the glass and I spot two women and a female child around 10; all three are dress very elegantly in Spanish clothing from the 1800s, very colorful and full length. I know there's more people and activity but I can't see them. It's the grandmother, mother and daughter. They are discussing something that at first I can't make out but I then realize that all the men are miners and there has been a serious accident, they don't know who has died; these women are leaders in the community and they all live in these buildings. The mother is telling her daughter to move away from the conversation. Suddenly up in the corner there's an old school radio where news of the mine accident is blaring but there's no electricity yet only candle power. Then suddenly the scene starts playing over and over like an old fashioned movie reel. Then I realize that they  are caught in a time warp, this actually happened many years back but they are reliving it over and over. I've always wondered about this dream, it'll suddenly pop into my thoughts. I get the sense that I'm to help them but of course I don't know how. Any help will be greatly appreciated. Txs. 

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      vega57

      My God you are spot on on many things: alcohol abuse in my family which I almost got trapped into the web, many things in my past that I suppress even though they do raise their ugly head once in a while. On my father's side we come from a small village somewhere in the Bask  (?) region of Spain and have been growrers of grapes for alcohol only. From what my son was able to find out the family has been on the same land for over 809 years; I visited some of the family there a number of years ago but because I wasn't "pure" Spanish because of my mother's Mexican Indian heritage most were standoffish though some of the older female relatives were very welcoming. The young clan and most men wouldn't even acknowledge me and the they are ultra Catholic which I'm not and to make matters worse for me I informed them that I used to be Catholic but am not what most call protestant; I don't like labels though. On my mother's side the family were in fact gold miners, in fact my mother's first husband died in a cave in. I suppose the windows may represent my reluctance to really look into my past because of the pain and guilt,  correct?  Can you shed any light on the radio?  The dream takes place before electricity?  In my church I'm a bit of an outcast by some because I belong to a very conservative denomination I don't agree with many of the politics or dogma such as gay issues, etc. I'm truly amazed of your insight into dreams. Thank you very much and if you get any further insight please let me know. Txs

      Thank you. When you are able. 

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  11. I walk up to a building that at first appears to be a Catholic Church or something similar, how I got there is have no idea. I walk to my right arm now it's an old school elementary school, the type in attended: many rooms in straight line with large windows on both sides. I hear women's voices and low music, I try to peak in but the windows are either dirty or foggy, not sure; I find a small clearing on the glass and I spot two women and a female child around 10; all three are dress very elegantly in Spanish clothing from the 1800s, very colorful and full length. I know there's more people and activity but I can't see them. It's the grandmother, mother and daughter. They are discussing something that at first I can't make out but I then realize that all the men are miners and there has been a serious accident, they don't know who has died; these women are leaders in the community and they all live in these buildings. The mother is telling her daughter to move away from the conversation. Suddenly up in the corner there's an old school radio where news of the mine accident is blaring but there's no electricity yet only candle power. Then suddenly the scene starts playing over and over like an old fashioned movie reel. Then I realize that they  are caught in a time warp, this actually happened many years back but they are reliving it over and over. I've always wondered about this dream, it'll suddenly pop into my thoughts. I get the sense that I'm to help them but of course I don't know how. Any help will be greatly appreciated. Txs. 

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      vega57

      My God you are spot on on many things: alcohol abuse in my family which I almost got trapped into the web, many things in my past that I suppress even though they do raise their ugly head once in a while. On my father's side we come from a small village somewhere in the Bask  (?) region of Spain and have been growrers of grapes for alcohol only. From what my son was able to find out the family has been on the same land for over 809 years; I visited some of the family there a number of years ago but because I wasn't "pure" Spanish because of my mother's Mexican Indian heritage most were standoffish though some of the older female relatives were very welcoming. The young clan and most men wouldn't even acknowledge me and the they are ultra Catholic which I'm not and to make matters worse for me I informed them that I used to be Catholic but am not what most call protestant; I don't like labels though. On my mother's side the family were in fact gold miners, in fact my mother's first husband died in a cave in. I suppose the windows may represent my reluctance to really look into my past because of the pain and guilt,  correct?  Can you shed any light on the radio?  The dream takes place before electricity?  In my church I'm a bit of an outcast by some because I belong to a very conservative denomination I don't agree with many of the politics or dogma such as gay issues, etc. I'm truly amazed of your insight into dreams. Thank you very much and if you get any further insight please let me know. Txs

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  12. I hope you are having an amazing day! : ) ღ Lindsay

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      vega57

      thank you Lindsay. I'm doing ok but fighting off the flu for the third time this year. some things have settled down but you know how life is, put one fire and another pops up. thanks again.

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