This September first would have been my daughter's twentieth birthday, instead its been twenty long years since she left us; it seems like yesterday: the pain, the agony, the tears and the what ifs. Twenty long years.
Lord where are You while my tears runneth over while my heart aches for those I luv for by brethern and kin in our Struggle to live can't You hear anymore, why don't You reach from heaven and help me is my heart so black, can't You see that I have worth am I so worthless, as a worm in the ground, don't You luv anymore who can I turn to, if it's not You, who can I turn to Lord touch me, quench my thirst with your fingertip, don't You luv me I cry to feel Your caress, Your luv, Your tenderness, don't You luv me look in my heart and see that it's good, touch my heart dear Lord don't turn Your face from me, then I will be utterley alone then it will over, then it will over ***************************************************************** who will cry for me when I am gone, will You oh Lord who will shed a tear for me, will You oh Lord my name will no longer be remembered, I will like one that never was I will be forgotten, my memory blown away like dust who will cry for me but I will have my victory, the victory of death, no one take this from me!!! I will sleep the sleep of death, I have won! This have been some tough days for me, my pain has taken me to new levels of maddness, but I will make it, no matter what, I will make. I shall never, ever give up, this is not my right, this belongs to the Author of life, not me. I must struggle on through his barren land of suffering and misery, but I will never give up. I will continue to fight to my last, I will not give up.