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monicott17

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  1. Guess I did okay since my boss said she would look into and make the phone calls. Still going to create extra, time consuming work for me though. And this shouldn’t have even been an issue in the first place! Very curious how long it will take to hear back from her on this, she isn’t exactly on the ball on these types of things.
  2. Thanks! My boss is very hot and cold. Sometimes she responds quickly and is quite helpful, other times…not so much. Both my boss and my company as a whole are terrible at communications and organization. And to make it worse…my department is at the very bottom of the priority scale so we basically get nothing! I do not feel comfortable bringing this up in our every other week conference call (there are other people on the call) so I guess the best approach is to email her about it. Going to have to really think about how to word it. Because of her sometimes lukewarm reactions to things and because the company seems very steadfast on keeping us at home and not returning in person. There has not even been any discussion about it nor have they asked us for our input.
  3. I am feeling extra sad and hopeless…usually feel both of those things on Mondays but today it is really bad because I am doing so poorly of late. The weather (the temps are around 25 degrees below normal) is definitely a contributing factor but I am more uneasy about talking with my boss today. That problem with the work is going to have to be fixed soon and I can’t in any way handle making phone calls at this time and that is the likely solution. I don’t know what to say to her and am trying to figure out some excuse or way out of it. This is where a good friend or confidant would come in handy to talk it out. Same goes for that family related thing still bothering me. This is going on the second week now.
  4. Oh wow….that sounds soooo good!!! It might get to 87 here..once or twice in July or August. Right now, it is a balmy 19 degrees…19 degrees and it is almost April!! And everything covered in snow yet again!
  5. Thanks. We had a few decent days in the past few weeks but it is really late into April…early May before the weather really turns. Cold and snow last well into April. Plus the lake is mostly unfrozen again so any cold snap could produce snow…which is the case today. Even into May, it really isn’t all that warm. June, July and August are really the only “decent” weather months and most of that time…its not hot, just humid and sticky. I laugh when the people around town go on about our “great summers” . They aren’t so great…but there isn’t snow, so at least there is that.
  6. I don’t know what to do….I really can’t take much more of feeling like this. I continue to obsess over this family related thing that I really should let go of but I can’t because it made me think deeper into things and I realized something (they were only pretending to like me) and it has effected me more than I thought it would. I’ve got to somehow deal with a major work related issue which there is no way I can handle because it is mostly related to areas of the job I know nothing about but since a small piece of it is related to my job, My boss is trying to make me fix it by giving useless suggestions (make a phone call!) and no guidance at all. I don’t like making calls as is but in my current state…there is no way I can do it. The absolute misery of my location (and not just due to today’s brutual weather) continues to bring me down. And then there is the news and social media…all bad. all the time. Yet I cannot stay away from it. Apologies for my ramblings but I just need to vent and no one in real life is really willing to listen. And therapy is several days away .
  7. Everything is already snow covered again and it is supposed to not stop all day. Just when nearly everything had melted also . And it is only in the 20’s today and tomorrow…that is like at least 20 degrees below normal for this time of year. I’ve got bad seasonal affective depression and don’t handle winter well at all but this too much for me especially since I have so much other stuff bothering me right now. Also, I had to see that a large portion of the country is having sunshine and record warmth and and real springlike weather. Meanwhile here…it looks and feels like the middle of winter.
  8. Wallowing in self pity yet again. This was another bad week and I didn’t have therapy this week so I am ruminating about a bunch of things that I really need to discuss with him. I am now at a week plus of obsessing over my (what I believe is a purposeful) exclusion from a family event. I squandered an opportunity the other day to do something fun mostly due to anxiety/OCD. There is a work related issue that is already a huge problem and only going to get worse and my boss is trying to make me fix it (I absoutely cannot handle making phone calls). And to top it off…it is snowing and freaking cold again. And it is going to acculmulate.
  9. Welcome to the boards and I can relate…the line “watching line pass me by” hits me especially hard. I live in a constant state of worry and doom and gloom and its tough…really tough.
  10. I knew this nice stretch was going to be short lived. Going to snow this weekend and since it is still several days out and they have already begun hyping it…makes me assume the worst. And of course, it is just when everything finally melted.
  11. Still bothered by this and the more I think about it, the worse it gets. Also, no therapy appointment this week so I have no one to talk to about it so I wll likely continue to obsess over this and it will continue to make me feel bad.
  12. Been thinking a lot about why I might have been excluded from an upcoming family thing. Think I might have figured out a possible reason. It could be due to my uh, very different outlook on a certain topic and that some of the people who will be there probably don’t like or respect me for it even though they pretend to. In any event, I am still unhappy about this and I can’t really speak up about it (for a number of reasons) nor will anyone speak on my behalf. Guess I should be used to that by now but it still kind of stings.
  13. I hear you! Sunday nights are some of the worst anxiety times I have. And I know for most, Sundays are supposed to be a fun, relaxing day but it isn’t for me because the dread and anxiety begins to creep in and ruins it. Today is already off to a not so great start and yes, the coffee tasting awful is a reason why. It is the little things that irk me so much.
  14. Feeling my usual sense of Sunday night doom and gloom/anxiety. There is a lot bothering me at this time and I am having a hard time dealing with it all.
  15. This is probably the worst time for something else to come along and add to my super high anxiety and stress levels right now. Thinking that this is gonna overtake some other things and be one of my top issues. I am bothered by this on a number of levels and there really isn’t much I can do or say at least right now.
  16. Well maybe someday I can get through the day without some kind of problem or distraction that completely ruins my mood and concentration. Today’s was particularly bothersome and is something I know I will dwell on for awhile because nothing is going to be said about it and because it involves people I see on a regular basis and who I at least felt comfortable around and mostly enjoyed their company. Guess the feeling was not mutual.
  17. Not sure I would qualify for a number of reasons. The thought of quitting my job has been creeping into my mind more and more of late. I could do it without having another job lined up and be okay for a bit. That is a big decision though and I struggle with even the smallest of decisions plus I don’t really have any support or anyone to confide in. My job is terrible and my motivation is virtually non-exsistent so something has got to give here.
  18. I honestly do not know if therapy will end up working for me in the long run but for right now, it is one of the few things keeping me going. My current therapist is good and is really the only person I can talk openly with…without being mocked or judged. He’s given me the time and space I need to decide about meds and isn’t pushy in any way. I think my current miserable work and living situation is why I keep at it but I am not sure if things were even slightly better on those fronts if therapy would be worth it. There are many things that I am a “lost cause” on and cannot be fixed by therapy or anything really. One, in particular has haunted me nearly all my life but I can’t/won’t talk about it for a number of reasons.
  19. I believe much of my problem stems from working from home. I realize I am the opposite of most (this is the case on many occassions) as I actually want to return at least part time to the office. Maybe 2 days in, 3 days at home or 3 days in, 2 days at home…something like that. My company is terrible at communication and organization and to make it worse, my department is low on the priority scale. They had no plan when we were forced into working from home…they were literally buying laptops off of Amazon the day before and they have no plan for us to return. My boss has basically said this in so many words. I am forced to work in my bedroom as there is not anywhere else in tge house that would accommodate my setup. It is depressing for many reasons. If I had a better situation or if my company handled things differently and treated us better…I might have a better outlook.
  20. Had another unproductive and low motivation work day. These are getting more and more frequent and I am falling behind now. It should bother me…and maybe at times it does a little bit but I mostly don’t care.
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