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  1. 16 hours ago, iWantRope said:

    Is disability available where you live? Working is only suitable for people who can multitask multiple "most urgent top" priorities under pressure in a fast-paced environment

    It is available…but not certain I would qualify for several reasons. I used to be able to handle things and multitask…pretty well actually but the combo of working from home and the workload being a sloppy, disorganized mess has ruined that. I also don’t really feel any connection to my co-workers or boss or care much about the company as a whole. Management isn’t really friendly or responsive and plays favorites for sure.

  2. Work is likely going to be a nightmare this week and given my current high levels of anxiety and depression combined with my total lack of motivation…I have no idea how I am going to handle it.  My family is not really helpful or supportive in any meaningful way either. 

  3. 16 hours ago, surfcaster said:

    I feel somewhat more at ease, went to a depression support group that i haven't been to in 10 years and really liked at the time, much to my surprise there were 2 people from back then that i knew that were now  helping at the group, and in general i felt like i was home, so had a hopeful feeling

    I’ve checked..but not recently..if there are any of these in my area and did not really find any. I think something like this would be good for me to be around people who understand and can sympathize with what you are going through. Going to check with my therapist and see if he knows of any.

  4. 23 hours ago, monicott17 said:

    I am feeling extra sad and hopeless…usually feel both of those things on Mondays but today it is really bad because I am doing so poorly of late. The weather (the temps are around 25 degrees below normal) is definitely a contributing factor but I am more uneasy about talking with my boss today. That problem with the work is going to have to be fixed soon and I can’t in any way handle making phone calls at this time and that is the likely solution. I don’t know what to say to her and am trying to figure out some excuse or way out of it. This is where a good friend or confidant would come in handy to talk it out. Same goes for that family related thing still bothering me. This is going on the second week now.

    Guess I did okay since my boss said she would look into and make the phone calls. Still going to create extra, time consuming work for me though. And this shouldn’t have even been an issue in the first place! Very curious how long it will take to hear back from her on this, she isn’t exactly on the ball on these types of things.

     

  5. 16 hours ago, Extremebeginner said:

    The weather sure doesn’t  help. With your boss, I would approach it with the working from home situation is impacting your ability to perform as best as you could do. The pandemic is over and I would like to discuss……

    talk it out on here or pm me, I’ll be inside until it gets above the freezing point of water……

     

     

    Thanks! My boss is very hot and cold. Sometimes she responds quickly and is quite helpful, other times…not so much. Both my boss and my company as a whole are terrible at communications and organization. And to make it worse…my department is at the very bottom of the priority scale so we basically get nothing!

    I do not feel comfortable bringing this up in our every other week conference call (there are other people on the call) so I guess the best approach is to email her about it. Going to have to really think about how to word it. Because of her sometimes lukewarm reactions to things and because the company seems very steadfast on keeping us at home and not returning in person. There has not even been any discussion about it nor have they asked us for our input.

  6. I am feeling extra sad and hopeless…usually feel both of those things on Mondays but today it is really bad because I am doing so poorly of late. The weather (the temps are around 25 degrees below normal) is definitely a contributing factor but I am more uneasy about talking with my boss today. That problem with the work is going to have to be fixed soon and I can’t in any way handle making phone calls at this time and that is the likely solution. I don’t know what to say to her and am trying to figure out some excuse or way out of it. This is where a good friend or confidant would come in handy to talk it out. Same goes for that family related thing still bothering me. This is going on the second week now.

  7. 13 hours ago, iWantRope said:

    Meanwhile in the country I am in it's Monday morning & it feels like 87 deg F 

    Oh wow….that sounds soooo good!!!  It might get to 87 here..once or twice in July or August. Right now, it is a balmy 19 degrees…19 degrees and it is almost April!! And everything covered in snow yet again!

  8. 12 minutes ago, Nightjar said:

    Vent away! I sure do when I need to 😉

    I'm sorry things are so overwhelming for you today. When does the weather start to improve normally where you are? 

    Thanks. We had a few decent days in the past few weeks but it is really late into April…early May before the weather really turns. Cold and snow last well into April. Plus the lake is mostly unfrozen again so any cold snap could produce snow…which is the case today. Even into May, it really isn’t all that warm. June, July and August are really the only “decent” weather months and most of that time…its not hot, just humid and sticky. I laugh when the people around town go on about our “great summers” 🙄. They aren’t so great…but there isn’t snow, so at least there is that.

  9. I don’t know what to do….I really can’t take much more of feeling like this.  I continue to obsess over this family related thing that I really should let go of but I can’t because it made me think deeper into things and I realized something (they were only pretending to like me) and it has effected me more than I thought it would.

    I’ve got to somehow deal with a major work related issue which there is no way I can handle because it is mostly related to areas of the job I know nothing about but since a small piece of it is related to my job, My boss is trying to make me fix it by giving useless suggestions  (make a phone call!) and no guidance at all. I don’t like making calls as is but in my current state…there is no way I can do it.

    The absolute misery of my location (and not just due to today’s brutual weather) continues to bring me down. 

    And then there is the news and social media…all bad. all the time. Yet I cannot stay away from it. 

    Apologies for my ramblings but I just need to vent and no one in real life is really willing to listen. And therapy is several days away 😢.

  10. 13 hours ago, duck said:

    Snowed here all morning.  It’s below freezing so it will take a few days to melt.  

    Everything is already snow covered again and it is supposed to not stop all day. Just when nearly everything had melted also 😖. And it is only in the 20’s today and tomorrow…that is like at least 20 degrees below normal for this time of year. I’ve got bad seasonal affective depression and don’t handle winter well at all but this too much for me especially since I have so much other stuff bothering me right now. Also, I had to see that a large portion of the country is having sunshine and record warmth and and real springlike weather. Meanwhile here…it looks and feels like the middle of winter. 

  11. Wallowing in self pity yet again. This was another bad week and I didn’t have therapy this week so I am ruminating about a bunch of things that I really need to discuss with him. I am now at a week plus of obsessing over my (what I believe is a purposeful) exclusion from a family event. I squandered an opportunity the other day to do something fun mostly due to anxiety/OCD. There is a work related issue that is already a huge problem and only going to get worse and my boss is trying to make me fix it (I absoutely cannot handle making phone calls).

    And to top it off…it is snowing and freaking cold again. And it is going to acculmulate. 😑 

  12. On 3/25/2022 at 1:02 AM, Sandwich_napper said:

    Every day I was faced with waiting out another mood, situation, obsessive thought. I would wait out the day. Eventually all of the days blurred into one meaningless, dull puddle.

    Now I'm just waiting. Days, weeks, and years pass waiting and watching life pass me by. I don't know what I am waiting on, but I always feel impending doom from the moment I wake up. This is no way to live.

    Welcome to the boards and I can relate…the line “watching line pass me by” hits me especially hard. I live in a constant state of worry and doom and gloom and its tough…really tough.

  13. On 3/18/2022 at 2:42 PM, monicott17 said:

    This is probably the worst time for something else to come along and add to my super high anxiety and stress levels right now. Thinking that this is gonna overtake some other things and be one of my top issues. I am bothered by this on a number of levels and there really isn’t much I can do or say at least right now.

    Still bothered by this and the more I think about it, the worse it gets. Also, no therapy appointment this week so I have no one to talk to about it so I wll likely continue to obsess over this and it will continue to make me feel bad.

  14. Been thinking a lot about why I might have been excluded from an upcoming family thing. Think I might have figured out a possible reason. It could be due to my uh, very different outlook on a certain topic and that some of the people who will be there probably don’t like or respect me for it even though they pretend to. In any event, I am still unhappy about this and I can’t really speak up about it (for a number of reasons) nor will anyone speak on my behalf. Guess I should be used to that by now but it still kind of stings.

     

  15. 7 hours ago, anon22ae said:

    Wishing I could be out of the rat race so that Monday would be just a day, as opposed to something to dread every week.

    I hear you! Sunday nights are some of the worst anxiety times I have. And I know for most, Sundays are supposed to be a fun, relaxing day but it isn’t for me because the dread and anxiety begins to creep in and ruins it.

    Today is already off to a not so great start and yes, the coffee tasting awful is a reason why. It is the little things that irk me so much.

  16. This is probably the worst time for something else to come along and add to my super high anxiety and stress levels right now. Thinking that this is gonna overtake some other things and be one of my top issues. I am bothered by this on a number of levels and there really isn’t much I can do or say at least right now.

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