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  1. On 12/5/2021 at 8:54 AM, ladysmurf said:

    also what are peoples thoughts on holiday and mental illness?

    I have bad Seasonal Affective Depression. I was never a big fan of the holidays and everything assoicated with it growing up but now…ugh. It is awful for me and combined with very little daylight/sunlight and the miserable weather we have here..it is even worse.

    At a past job for several, I was guilt tripped/kind of forced  by my psycho boss into doing all kinds if holiday related things both during work and off hours and that has also soured me even more on the holidays.

    I wonder if I lived someplace warmer and nicer, if I could handle it somewhat better? I have to think so since my current locale is so awful.

  2. 17 hours ago, JD4010 said:

    What's happening? Or are you not able to discuss it on a public forum?

    Whatever the case, I hope everything goes well for you.


    Thanks..apologies for being vague as I have no issue discussing it but it is uh, a controversial topic to say the least and some other forums I post on do not allow that topic any longer because things get heated. Let’s just say that if I don’t do this, in my locale…I will not be allowed to be in bars, restaurants, gyms and other venues. Also, this could end up costing me my job. Although, I am not as upset about that as my job is awful and this could be my way out.

  3. There is something I really do not want to do. At all…for a number of reasons.  No one (other than my therapist) seems to respect my decision or want to have a discussion with me about it. Unfortunately, things are escalating and it looks like I may not have a choice in the matter here really soon, especially where I live. I am not dealing with this well at all and it is legit making me feel sick.


  4. On 11/12/2021 at 4:14 AM, pdh said:

    Yes, time changes are not easy to handle.  Whats happening to you?

    My job is total misery and it appears working from home will be the case for a long time to come. Working from home is not all it is cracked up to be and for me and my current living situation…it is the worst.

    Also, I am on the opposite side of what is considered the “majority” view on something and I looked down upon because of it….by some of my own family members. I am going to stand my ground and not back down from my stance and this will likely cause some problems for me

  5. On 11/12/2021 at 4:17 AM, duck said:

    It sure is.   I hate the winters here.  Can’t handle it anymore.   I am think of moving to a city with milder winters.  

    I soooooo endorse this statement as I look out the window at heavy “it will just be a light wintry mix” snow coming down. Cold temps don’t bother me as much as the snow. My area is notorious for snow and some of the worst winter weather anywhere.

  6. Birthdays when you have no friends or significant other to celebrate with and are a miserable, sad person are just another day on the calendar.  Mine was yesterday and it literally was no different than any other day except I took the day off work and went to the store for a bit. Wish I had something fun to do or be able to share it with someone special but that will not happen.

    And to add to my already miserable and sad mood…I wake up to snow (that was not at all predicted!) and it is getting worse instead of “warming up and changing to rain”. The weather people in my town are smug and annoying and rarely get anything right. They won’t admit to screwing this up and I am afraid this stupid snow band won’t move and stays over my area and dumps a ridiculous amount of snow in a short. It has happened before. I am not ready for this and I do NOT deal with snow well at all and given how bad my anxiety has been of late, I am not feeling real good at the moment. And even though I dislike my job, at least work is a bit of a distraction, There is no distraction today which is why I think I probably should just go back to bed and hibernate for the today even though Saturday is usually my errands/lunch day.

  7. 6 hours ago, ladysmurf said:

    Sadly for me everything is pointless as well at this point...

    Yep….especially my job. I just don’t care at all and will only do the bare minimum required of me. A couple of mistakes I made were pointed out to me and I fixed them but I should care more about it than I do. 

  8. On 11/3/2021 at 8:29 PM, sober4life said:

    It's like that here too.  Browns and Steelers fans will absolutely sit on bleachers in weather that has below zero temperatures and a foot of snow on the field to watch a 3-0 game!

    Same here. There was a game a few years back that was a straight up blizzard and the stands were still mostly full. The fans here are uh, big party animals and their tailgating antics are well known. I don’t get any of it to be honest and wasn’t sad at all to see them lose recently to a team they should have beaten.

    Another very overrated thing in my opinion….podcasts. Perhaps it is my short attention span but the few I have tried just don’t hold my interest. Plus, several people talking loudly and at once annoys me in real life so I don’t really need to hear it on a podcast.

  9. Football and everything assoicated with it. I live in a football crazed town with an obnoxious and over the top fanbase.  I know they are good and have a decent shot at winning but it is just too much and I avoid it as much as I can.

  10. I have avoided the medication topic with my therapist as long as possible because I was so unsure about it but I am afraid I am pretty close to the “point of no return”. He doesn’t push it in any way and totally leaves it up to me. I can barely function anymore. I am sad, angry, anxious and nothing brings me joy or happiness. I just go through the motions and I really can’t take much more. I think I have to at least try something, no meds in the past have done much but it hurts too much to keep living this way. And since I struggle so bad during the holidays and winter, things are only going to get worse I am afraid.

  11. On 10/31/2021 at 12:50 PM, sober4life said:

    This is a very hard time for us.  November 1st terrifies me.  I'll be honest. So much adjusting has to take place in that month if I want to be the same person in November.  The seasons affect us big time and then after the holidays in January will be a killer too after the holiday crash.  Just understand things might be rocky for a little bit as the seasons and the weather changes but I think you're doing great right now.  We'll get through this time and this year and we'll make it to spring.  We are going survive this nightmare.

    November 1 is when one of the local radio stations went to 24-7 Christmas music. I can easily avoid it but just the idea of it and the fact it makes most people happy to hear that while it is the opposite for me. I dislike Christmas music, decor…all of it. It makes me even more sad, anxious and depressed than I already am. 

    The time change and getting dark at 5:00PM plus the absolute misery that is winter in my locale…no wonder why I have been so miserable of late.

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