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I am very apprehensive now waiting for everything to go wrong.
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I think we all need help here. Hopefully we can help each other.
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I hope things work out for you.
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On 10/25/2021 at 6:41 PM, Epictetus said:
I also want to welcome you and wish you the best!
Thanks, im sure i will find lots of support here!!
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1 hour ago, lindahurt said:
Welcome, welcome, welcome. I think you're in the right place. Feel free to share your thoughts with us.
I will, thanks.
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1 hour ago, sober4life said:
I don't drink anymore because my mind can't handle even one more time. If I drank today I would be next to mom in the cemetery by Halloween. If I ever choose to drink again I'm saying this is it. I'm done. There is no other way for things to go. I fully believe I have one more time drinking in me and that's it.
Its a great accomplishment to stop drinking
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I feel a little better today than the last few days
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Hope i can get some help here for my depression as well as helping others.
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On 10/19/2021 at 11:39 PM, Thanos said:
Easier said than done. I've been trying to find another place that would have me but nobody is answering. What the hell do I do when nobody wants me, especially now with so many openings here in the US?
Keep looking for other jobs but dont quit your job now till you find a better one. You will find a better one.
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4 hours ago, Thanos said:
I know I just had another topic under the relationships forum but this one I thought could use its own thread because there's another thing that has me wanting to hurt myself. My job has been slowly cutting my hours lately so that I only work about 20 hours a week. I started at over 30 and keep getting told that I'm still a full-time worker but that's just bullshit. Plus this problem only started when I asked to have Thursday nights off so have some sort of social life. Since the summer started they have hired 2 people who are working the hours that I used to work. I'm also 36 and can't keep bouncing around from job to job because it makes me look completely irresponsible. But I also can't stay at this job when they give me table scraps for hours. I can't afford my rent on what they're paying me. Right now the only solution I can think of is self-deletion. No more disappointed bosses and no more worrying about going from job to job. I've never had a job where I get the respect I earn. Thought this would be different but nope.
Talk to them and explain your situation. Also, lots of places are hiring now if you are in the US. Try and find a job with more hours.
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11 hours ago, sober4life said:
Well since posting this I got the virus and believe she was here with me a couple of the worst days at the bed. If I believe in anything anymore it meant even god didn't know if I was going to make it. If I was given the choice I would have chosen to leave with mom. I've never really wanted to be here so having a belief that I might actually go to heaven I'm ready when you are god.
Hopefully you will be here for a long time.
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On 10/10/2021 at 1:44 AM, Evergreenforst4 said:
I think it depends on what dating app you use. Some dating apps are just bad but some are actually decent, just try a lot of different ones if you are serious and find what works for you.
Which one is a good one?
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On 2/20/2021 at 12:10 PM, sober4life said:
I recently felt like mom wasn't watching over me anymore but today she gave me a sign that she is still watching over me. It worries me though because there's no way she could get into heaven if she stayed on the side of scum like me.
I am sure you are not scum. For one thing you have overcome addiction which is very hard to do. As far as how i feel today, not well. My loneliness will not go away no matter what i try.
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On 9/29/2021 at 11:02 AM, Evergreenforst4 said:
Hi,
Yeah I think people do not understand men's mental health. Honestly just find a way to express your feelings either with sports or art you have to have an outlet because it makes people suffer like crazy if they don't
Thats a good idea. I walk for 5 or 6 miles a day and it lets me clear my mind and temporarily forget about my problems.
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On 10/10/2021 at 2:48 PM, sober4life said:
Usually when I tell someone I like them it's the last time I see them. After everything I've been through in this life people will have the nerve to say I just don't understand what happened when they find out I off myself one day. No they won't understand. They've never taken the time to even pretend to care or try to get to know me or try to figure out a way to really help me ever.
I hope things get better. I know the feeling all too well. No one cares if im alive or not.
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On 9/28/2021 at 3:48 PM, fearispower said:
I feel like I must've committed some terrible crime in a past life. It's the only explanation I could think of as to why no one wants me. All I ever wanted was to be liked, but apparently that's asking too much. I have no interesting hobbies or accomplishments and I still live with my mother, so everyone automatically ignores me. I go on dating apps, I swipe and swipe, I send messages, nobody responds back. I bet if I asked every single woman of appropriate age on this planet, not one would go out with me. I would've committed suicide long ago if I weren't such a coward.
I hope you give yourself more chances. One thing to do is participate in activities so you expose yourself to more people.
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The only place i feel safe is when im asleep. I used to have a person to talk to but she is gone now.
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On 10/16/2021 at 6:23 PM, surfcaster said:
after being sick and feeling like i was dying for a week finally i am beginning to feel better, also after all the heart tests they finally addressed my original complaint, turns out my shortness of breath issues boil down to allergy triggered asthma, so i am now on meds for that and for the heart palpitations, YAY more drugs, not, but if they work i guess it's ok
Glad you are feeling better. Also glad you discovered the source of the shortness of breath.
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57 minutes ago, sober4life said:
Overall I had a good productive day. I'm not going to let one idiot mess me up today. It's how I need to look at every day from now on.
Ignore the idiots!! Wait!! Thats means you wil ignore me, lol
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I feel pretty bad. Mostly lonely with no one to talk to. I was going to walk over to a restaurant to eat but the waitress i usually talk to isnt there. Yes, im down to talking to a waitress for company.
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On 10/17/2021 at 1:56 AM, Evergreenforst4 said:
Yeah it works really well and helps me with a lot of relationships.
It is kind of like taking the limit in math, you find a trajectory with a person sometimes it can be positive, negative or unknown so you kind of take a limit to think about the trajectory.
Glad it works for you. I seem to have alot of negative people in my life.
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On 8/31/2021 at 4:32 AM, Charlee said:
Sorry it took me so long to reply, sometimes I dont get notified of replies...
Thanks, I think it was a bit of both, like @sober4life says, the dark rooms trigger me, as do being around lots of people, like supermarkets as well.
I haven't been out much since that happened, not alone anyway.
Is it continuing to get worse? One thing you can do is order your groceries online and either have them delivered or pick them up.
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Welcome to the forum. I agree, work with the Uni and see what kind of help they can offer you. I am impressed that you are doing alot of positive things.
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On 10/8/2021 at 12:22 PM, mrrd117711 said:
I imagined me coping with my PTSD and finally being able to enjoy life. I just have to laugh at how it’s the opposite. So many things are going wrong. I don’t even see me doing any better. This reminds me of as a kid I always thought my life would change for the better as I got older. How can you be hopeful when every time you believe in something it blows up in your face. My life got way worse as I got older as my symptoms got worse with PTSD.
I was supposed to get my 2nd shot of the vaccine but I’m one of the people that got adverse effects. It’s not well known that Covid can cause you to have low potassium. You think we’ll how bad can low potassium be. For anyone with a mental diagnosis it’s really bad. It effects your mood, your body feels weak cause your muscles ache and cramps. I’m literally in a daze for almost two weeks now. While all of this is happening all my past traumas are literally hitting me like a truck.
I again get triggered and can’t finish what I want to say. I guess for anyone else who’s an empath just good luck. Maybe it’s just how bad my life always is but feeling everyone else’s pain while living like this is messed up.
I hope you can soon find a bit of happiness. Take a potassium supplement when you eat a meal.
everything feels pointless
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I feel the same.