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  1. So may I ask, what do you think it is? Are you afraid you have COVID or something else? If you don’t mind my asking?
  2. I’m so sorry to hear that your feeling down and out, I hope your feeling better real soon! And remember you always have caring friends here to lend you a helping hand!
  3. Hi Amaya, when I read your post I felt the need to write something, I lost my sobriety as well a long time ago, but I’m not going to give up on hope, because at this point that’s all any one has, especially me! But, I pass that hope on to you as well, with strength in yourself and faith in god, we can overcome anything big or small!! The people in this forum are just like us, no different, we put our heads down and plow through the best that we can, and we try best we can to help one another, I hope I’ve helped you a little with this post, and I hope you feel better real soon! Contact me anytime via post if you feel the need to!
  4. Thank you sober4life for acceptance and understanding of what hell this is like..I hope you find piece and understanding yourself!! Your friend wiswash.. lol now mabey I can get some sleep, that remains to be seen!
  5. I’m so glad you got to meet with a friend, sounds like you had a great day! I’m happy for you..I wish I had a friend to fall back on!..I miss that..but it is what it is..as usual my friends of the past are either deceased or have moved on and forgotten me, how sad, anyway another insomnia night because of anxiety! My partner is fast asleep, so no one to talk to, so I think now would be a good time to say that I’m a gay woman just looking for someone or something I can connect with? In a friendly manner, I sincerely I hope that I didn’t offend anyone , that clearly was not my intention, my partner does not suffer the same affliction that I suffer, so there have been hard lonely times on my part, feeling so alone in this affliction of anxiety and depression.. again forgive me if I have offended anyone, just looking to be accepted...
  6. Bye the way, how do you stay sober for life?...self medicating sucks!!
  7. Not so strange @sober4life, I feel like nothing will ever happen that’s positive or good in my life “Ever”..just gotta keep moving I guess!
  8. I agree, that anxious and nevertheless depressed and hopeless feelings don’t ever seem to go away, but have faith and have some Mac and cheese “! After all it’s comfort food! So they say..and go to bed tonight knowing your not alone!!
  9. The big question..how do I feel right now? Hmmm let’s see, well right now I’m frustrated a little angry and sad all at the same time, I’m so tired of arguing with my partner it seems like that’s all we do anymore.. some would say get out of the relationship! Hell, even I’ve said it and sometimes I think that’s what I want and that it would be for the best for both of us! I don’t know I’m so confused and upset all the time that I don’t know if I’m coming or going, I keep praying that things will get better for me but they never do, this is horrible to feel so trapped inside yourself and having no one to talk to about it, no friends per say to vent to. Between my disorder and my relationship problems, I just don’t see a happy ending to any of this! Oh well mabey tomorrow will be better god willing...
  10. @sober4life I totally agree and understand how you feel, because I definitely feel that way every darn day! Good to know I’m not the only one out there that feels this way
  11. Well, I can’t speak for everyone here, but I’m personally sick and tired of feeling down every single day I wake up. And now on top of everything else I have to deal with, I’ve developed insomnia! I don’t know how the hell im supposed to mentally take all this stuff? It’s like who am I supposed to talk to at 3 in the morning because I can’t sleep...grrrrr I’m so frustrated and scared!
  12. Hey extreme, are you a Scott? Just curious, wise words indeed
  13. Don’t go into the light my friend, stay here with us! We will always be here for you! Any time you feel down or lost, you can always come on here and talk about it!..sooo then, talk soon my friend!
  14. Hmmm.. I’ve been to that tunnel, many, many, time’s..it feels like life isn’t there any more, but it is for you and for me and anyone on here!!!! You need to pack your depression and not let it take over you, at least not for today!!! One day at a time, that’s all we can ask of each other, we are all one on this site, and will always lend a helping hand..be well my friend!
  15. I can tell you all how I feel today, lonely! I mean I have a partner but she’s not the type to talk about things with, I’ve tried to talk to her before about certain things that mabey are upsetting me or bringing me down especially if it pertains to us, and it usually ends up in a fight or she will say things like “I don’t want to talk about this “ sometimes I just feel like I want to leave and never look back! I feel like I’ve hit an all time low! I wish I had some where to go or someone to talk to besides a beer bottle when I feel like this! It’s horrible feeling this way practically every single day of my life it sucks! So yeah, lonely is a great way to describe how I feel again today, and I just know it will be back tomorrow! Uggggg
  16. @cherryapplez2020im so sorry you feel this way, but I have to disagree, sexual relations makes a woman feel good about herself on the inside and the outside, depending upon who you are with, especially if they care!
  17. Or, we could all look at it, as the glass half full instead of half empty..have a great new year’s my friends!
  18. @cherryapplez2020 I hope and wish my friends on here have a great new year!!
  19. @yayplease understand, suicide is never ever, the answer, put your faith in. God! Or put your faith in usss! We are here for you! My friend!
  20. @floor2017 I sure will try my best to never give up!! All I can do is go day by day and tell myself that’s okay. Thank you for your kind words!
  21. @Floor2017 yes I sure do try to plow through, it feels like every day of my life there is something that I have to deal with, and on the days I fail and there have been many, many of them I feel like giving up, but I know I can’t. And what makes it worse is not having friends close to me that understand, like I used to have, most of my friends have either passed away or moved out of town, I have a roommate but we come from different worlds, she has her troubles and I have mine, I’ve tried to talk to her about things but she doesn’t understand and that’s okay I guess. That’s why it’s nice to come here and read some of the stories that people write about, because then I don’t feel so alone in my day to day struggles in my life, because they are pretty much going through the same things that I go through so they get it! Sooo having said that, let’s all be friends and keep plowing through!!!
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